| Daisy |

"Why? Why are you doing this to yourself?"

I chewed my bottom lip.

"I'm sick of myself too."

Jenn sighed softly on the phone .

"Daisy, my beautiful dear Daisy. .pull your head out of your ass and when I say ass I don't mean your flat butt. I mean your heart! Pull your head out of it! Heart is the most misleading part of the body! This has to stop! You're hurting yourself for no reason! It's obvious the guy has some issues but then . .all hot guys have one. Now that I think of it how come we can't get a hot guy with no baggage?" She wondered.

She always went off the track.

And then she let out a heavy breath.

"Watchu gonna do now?"

"I don't know. No idea.. .," I said really standing at an alley which had no end. No exit.

"I know what you should do. Get a guy for yourself. Replace, recycle that dipshit." She said fiercely.

"I'll. .I'll think about it." I said just to calm her down and then she said she had to go wash the damn dishes since it was her turn.

Turning my phone off, I just laid in the bed . .I didn't even bother changing out of my clothes. I was still carrying yesterday with me I guess.

We always carry the sad days with us.

Not the happy ones.

The thing about love is , you can't hate that person. No matter if shit hits the fan you can't hate him. Resent him a little but not hate.

Maybe I was incapable of hate.

Seeing him so closed off had gutted me to the point where I felt helpless against it. Against the hurt. I couldn't get out of it. It was pummeling my head from all over until I panicked and sat up straight.

Clutching my head with my hands and trying not to break down again. How much of tears I had in me ? Didn't I cry enough already ?

Someone knocked at my door .

Hastily, I fixed myself and made sure there were no unshed tears in my eyes by pressing the heel of my palm on my eyes .

But my nose was red.

"Come in."

I had a fake smile on my face ready to serve everyone.

First came a flash of golden hair and then Gloria . As soon as she saw me , she stepped in and shut the door close .

"Hey what's up . Did Logan dump you?" I joked . . making space for her on the bed. She climbed on and just sat in front of me. .cross legged . .expensive perfume hitting me all over.

"How can he? There is no upgrade after me." She flipped her golden hair back in a diva like manner and I grinned for real this time.

She just had a way about her . There was never a dull moment with her around.

"Now," she rubbed her hands ." What happened?"

What?

"Um what happened?" I repeated looking puzzled.

She rolled her eyes. " Quit the I'm going to hide away from world stage. I know you're the victim of a heartbreak. I can recognize the signs. Puffy eyes, red nose, fake smile. .you can't fool me. My best advice is cry a river. Build a bridge on it and get over it."

She had caught me staring at Dean.

Now she had caught me at my worse state too.

I couldn't hide anything from her. She was so sharp at observation.

I dropped the fake smile and enthusiasm. .and for some reason I was glad she recognized all that. Glad that she understood what I was going through.

I shrugged.

"I slapped him."

She clapped a hand on her mouth with a loud pat!

"No, you didn't! Okay okay. .tell me about the why." She said now looking interested.

My shoulders slumped down.

And I . .spilled over.

Everything.

I just didn't have it in me to hide and hide and hide.

She kept listening to me raptly and once again I was also glad she was just listening and not interrupting me. Listening to my point , my feelings, my heart. .

"—and yeah. .that's it."

She nodded. .her lips going in hmmm.

"So the guy has issues , that's understandable. Now how do you crack those issues?" She wondered out loud.

Not to me.

To herself.

"Shouldn't I apologise for the slap?" I asked , my voice low and ashamed.

She shook her golden head.

"Never apologize for something that's right. He should know you can pack a punch when need be."

Now that did make me feel a little better.

" I read this book Earl Of Every Sin and the guy had some serious personal issues but," she lifted her index finger , " but he still loved the girl. Sometimes he would close off but that didn't mean he didn't love her. Everyone has issues right? That so don't mean they can't be loved or they can't love."

I sighed heavily.

"He can't keep breaking my heart , Gloria. He can't keep getting away with it."

"Exactly! Now what you need to do is ignore his existence. Make Jenn as your look out . When he's around Jenn should alert you so you don't  look his way even by mistake. You have to take him by surprise." Her eyes glowered with excitement.

It was good to see my life seemed exciting to someone.

"Listen to me my swan, you hit a man where it hurts him the most." She said scandalously.

I chuckled.

"Between his legs?"

She shook her head.

" His ego."

"And what will I get out of that? Ignoring him? Hitting his ego?"

She raised her hand in a high five and I did slap my palm against hers in a weak manner. I just didn't have the energy.

"That's how you bring him down on his knees!"

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