A/n:  warning. Heavy topic

Trinity's POV

My phone continued to ring and ring. I didn't want to answer it. I didn't even look to see who is calling me.

"Hello?" I answered the phone groggy. It was way too early but I guess it's important.

"Trinity! Jonathan is in the hospital. They have him on suicide watch. He tried to kill himself."

I sat up in my bed. I nearly dropped the phone. "What? Oh my god. When did this happen?"

"Late last night. They had to pump his stomach. He nearly overdosed." Josh informed me.

This is absolutely insane. I need to get home to see my husband. He really must be losing his shit. "I will get back home as fast as I can. I'm still in Vegas."

The phone went silent for awhile. "He's been asking for you all night and morning. He really needs you sis. I know he's done and said some fucked up stuff, but he needs his wife."

"Is he okay?" I know we've been through some shit, but I don't know what I'd do without him.

"He's stable but he keeps asking for you."

"Okay I'm going to the airport now. Thanks Josh."

"See you when you get here sis." We ended the call. All I could do is sit there. Did he do this because I left my ring? Is he afraid that I'm messing with Shane? It's so many questions that I'm not ready to hear the answers to.

Shane rolled over into my lap. "What's wrong Bunny?"

"I need to get home fast. My flight isn't until 3 p.m. My husband is in the hospital." I didn't want to go into too much detail.

"What's going on?"

"I can't go into details but I just need to get home." I climbed out of bed and grabbed my suitcase.

"We can go back to Orlando on my jet."

I nodded. "Okay, but I'm ready to leave now."

"No problem. We can shower on the plane. Let's go." He kissed me. "It's going to be okay. Don't stress out."

On the plane ride I just wanted to lay in bed. I wasn't in the mood to talk. I just laid across the bed. I couldn't fall asleep cause I was worried.

Shane came into the bedroom. "Baby..." he sat next to me and I couldn't believe how comforting he is to me. "Listen I don't know the details, but he's going to feel so much better when he sees you. Your smile lights up an entire room. Do you want to pray for him?"

I nodded. But, I couldn't remember the last time I took the time to pray. I love God and I'm thankful but with my work schedule I haven't seen a church in years. "I don't even know where to start."

Shane bowed his head and held my hands. "Dear lord thank you for waking us up this morning. God I ask you to touch Jon so that he will be healed. Give Trinity the strength as she needs it to get through today. In Jesus name. Amen."

His prayer was short and sweet. "Thanks baby. Didn't know you were religious."

"Me and the man upstairs have a relationship. I have to with so much going on around me. Let me know if there's anything I can do."

"Thanks!"

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I arrived at the hospital and went into his room. He was sleep and Josh was watching television.

"Jon.. baby." I said, sitting on the side of the bed. He looked extremely weak and tired. I could only imagine what happened when I was gone.

"Yes..." he woke up. "Trinity .. baby ! I love you. I didn't think you were coming."

"I'm here now.." I said, holding him close to me. "Are you okay?" I had tears in my eyes. The thought of losing him to suicide is painful.

"I love you so much. I thought I was going to lose you. I said all those mean things out of anger. I'm just trying to figure out my career and I put too much on you. I shouldn't have made you do that with him. I wasn't thinking clearly."

"I love you too.So what happened?" I asked, not sure If I was even ready to Here this.

"I thought I  lost you forever and I can't live without you. So I took a bunch of pills and chased it with alcohol. That's why I don't want to lose you forever. If you leave me again I might try to kill my self."

The downfall and sad part of this business is there is a lot of death among us. So many wrestlers have attempted or committed suicide. Or even accidentally overdosed. Jon is lucky to be alive.

I don't know where this is coming from. "Honey, you can't base your life on me. Regardless of what happens you have to live. You have children who depend on you. You spend all your free time with them. A lot of wrestling kids don't get that."

I didn't want to say I wasn't going anywhere, but I needed him to understand either way he can't base his existence on me.

"Trinity I'm not gonna make it without you. I will do whatever you want. Just don't leave." Jon begged.

"Uce, you gotta chill. You put yourself first with that whole Shane bullshit. You're dead ass wrong for that. Then you've been treating her like shit every since you got fired. Not realizing she's been paying your child support and bills. You owe her more than an apology honestly." Josh finally spoke up and said everything I was feeling.

"Damn Uce you're right. Trinity I've put too much of my problems on you. I'm gonna get my job back and start doing my part with the bills." Jon said, but it all sounded like false promises. I know Jon and even though this was his first time doing this. He's not going to change.

I honestly think some of his family views of only dating / marrying other Samoans gets to him. His comments around that still hurt me. It made me feel like I'm not good enough or light enough.

I'm not going to stress over it. "Okay Jon. Do what you need to do. Be the husband I know you can be. We're going to get through this and get you some help."

"I don't need help. I need you."

Josh and I both looked at each other. Jon has real issues but he doesn't see them. "We can talk about it once you get out of the hospital, but you need professional help. I'm going with you."

"Okay I'll do this for you." Jon said. Maybe he's a bit loopy for medicine or nearly overdosing but I need him to realize this is a bigger problem than he thinks.

A/N: As we know suicide is very real. People don't like to talk about it but mental health is no joke. A lot of people who read my books are teenagers. I know that there is a lot of pressure and stress that y'all experience. Been there and I've even felt that way before. If you or a friend is feeling suicidal tell someone. Don't keep it secret. Text 741741 from anywhere in the USA to text with a trained Crisis Counselor. 

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