tell me your favorite things, I say / tell me how you erode to pain / you lie to me twenty times a day / i die with your flag in my hand / im a child waiting by the door for you to come back / i get accustomed to the scarcity of love / i don't fight back / i don't try to stop the changes in you / i let them happen / like natural selection / like factual data / who am i to control how your tongue speaks / or how you leave / or who you choose above me / tell me the betrayals you left in the past / the needles you used to make your friends bleed / how selfish of you to tell them you're giving enough / when you didn't even give them quarter of who you're / you acted like a God / but you were greedy like a man / you gave speeches about forgiveness / slept with one eye open / carried the diary of everyone who did you wrong / to draw a sketch of your cynical lens about the very same / but you love me like you love poetry, sex and sceneries / but you show me the raw captures without a filter / so i let you breathe the ashes of my sanity / why i let you do this to me / i never know / i never know / i never know / can you leave me alone / can you stop reading me like a novel on your bed stand / can you stop crumbling my defence like it's the shallowest shield you've taken down / can you stop calling me at devil hours / i swore that i won't open my door / is why you're entering my house like a robber / can you shut up, I say / my sadness is too big / i am not yet ready to give you a taste of it / you make me cry / no one has touched me this intimately / you're getting too close / back off / you're making me cry / can you fucking stop / you convince me that love is being naked / you convince me that im wrong to say no / every clothing i remove is testimony of my loyalty / you're done / you're gone / now im peeling my skin / till my joints greet me / till my eyes are secondhand camera lens / you didn't stop when i yelled / you told me that softness is a sign of my willingness / i should sin / desires are not foreign treason / all my weight / all my strength / all my scratches / couldn't stop you / i try to tell myself / it didn't make me less of who i was / but i wanted to be pure / no traces of sin / it was love / it was love / it was love / i love you / you love me / i love you / you love me / spin a lie / spun the bottle / spoon necklaces / bloody mattresses / how could you / you're a friend to me / you're my lover / you just wanted closure / you wipe the blood / you hold me / say it was right / moonlight sonata / it killed me / too young, too naive / too soon, too late / you give me known smiles / bathroom is second home / you get me alone / you watch me squirm / you lick off my pain like nectar / sacrificed lamb / I was lonely so you trapped me / no friends to tell me / you're a devil / to guide me out of your grip / to save me from a disaster / loner equals vulnerable prey / i pretend it's fine / i tell myself it was alright / if no one knew what happened / i won't be contaminated / i won't be a stained wedding dress / his shirt will be ironed crisp / i cry / i cry / i cry / i am what i was before / before you barged in / before your fingers touched me / before you pulled my limbs apart / before your head rested in the curve of my neck / you choked me down / always will be / you're not influential enough / to define me / you can't take away / what my mother gave me / what i was born with / it doesn't make me less / it doesn't make me less of a woman / it hurt me / i never asked for it / how could you? / water doesn't purify / regret doesn't rectify / you eye me / like a hawk / chant love you’s while I chant series of no / doesn't stop / won't stop until done / you're gone until you need me again / i'm on fire / you're edging off my sick view / but love is pain / a price for love / ill bleed if it means ill be held / but i’ve had enough / stop / please fucking stop / i scream / i'll turn cornflower blue / if you're near me / ever again / don't gaze me / don't touch me / i didn't mean this / when i said, im hungry / i can't reverse it / who'll believe me / when i say i just wanted to be held