(F/n)'s POV

"Oh God.." There was blood all over my arm where the cut was. 'I need to tend to this.' I didn't want to go to the infirmary and risk getting caught by Levi or someone else.

Only a few people knew about my cutting, and I wasn't planning on letting anyone else find out. The only thing I can do to this cut, is give myself stitches. I know I'm going to hate this but I have to.

I looked out of my window and saw the sun starting to set, so that means dinner will be served soon. This is a good time to do this, since everyone will be preoccupied with food.

'I should do it tonight, when the others are asleep. I need to sneak into the infirmary and get an anti-bacterial medication to clean the needle.'

I went into my attached bathroom and washed my cut. "(F/n)?" I heard a muffled voice call from the hall. "Yeah?" I replied. "Why aren't you at dinner?" It's Levi. I can't tell him why I'm not there.

"I'm not hungry." I hesitated. "Then why did you lock yourself in your room?" I tried thinking of excuses, so I just answered the door instead.

I pulled my sleeve back down before I opened it. "I'm just tired. And I'm not hungry, so you don't need to worry." "Alright then." He sighed, walking back down to the mess hall.

>>>Time skip>>>

*11:48pm*

I made it back from the infirmary, and I walked over to my bed. I crouched down to the floor, grabbing a small box that had a needle a thread.

I took out the supplies and went to my bathroom. I set down all the items I collected; needle, thread, bandage, and the anti-bacterial liquid.

I cleaned the needle with the liquid, and put it back on the counter. I picked up the thread and cut off a good amount of it.

Taking the thread, and tying it on the needle. I rolled my sleeve up, exposing the open wound.

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I inhaled deeply, holding my breath as the needle got closer and closer to my arm. My hand that was holding the needle and thread was violently shaking.

I exhaled as the needle went through. It hurt like hell! I held in my scream of pain, putting the needle through the other side of the skin to close it.

I made a few stitches, with tears building up in my eye. 'God this hurts! But I have to keep going.' I gave myself a break, my breath was shaky.

The needle was all bloody, so I wiped it off with a tissue and rinsed it again with the disinfectant stuff. Sitting on the floor against a wall, I started to stitch up my arm again.

I peeked out of the bathroom, looking at the clock in my room. '12:32am. I've been at this for awhile now.'

>>>Time skip>>>

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I was about half way through when I heard a knock on my door. 'Shit.' I stayed in the bathroom, acting like I didn't hear them.

Then I heard my door creak open, 'I thought I locked it?' I quickly blew out the candles on the bathroom counter, sitting back down on the cold floor.

I listened to the footsteps enter my room. "(F/n)?" I heard a monotone voice ask. I quietly gasped, realizing it was Levi who came in.

The bathroom doorknob jiggled a little, then swinging open. 'I forgot to lock it!' I couldn't really see through the dark, but I felt Levi's presence next to me now.

The needle was still in my skin though. A candle lit up and I saw Levi sit down next to me. "What are you doing?" He asked in a quiet, calm tone.

"N-nothing." I whispered. Thankfully I covered up my arm with my sleeve before he came inside. He had a candle holder, and put it near my arm so he could see it better.

"Why is there blood seeping through your shirt?" He asked, putting the candle down next to him. I refused to answer him.

"(F/n)?"

"Why won't you talk?" Levi furrowed his brows.

"(F/n), can you hear me?"

"Speak to me!"

"Wake up!"

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I woke up on my bathroom floor. 'What happened?' I saw Hanji crouched next to me, with a worried look. "(F/n)?" "What?" I sat up from the floor, leaning against the wall.

"I found you passed out on the floor. We're you giving yourself stitches?" She asked, pulling up my sleeve. "Yeah." I mumbled.

"I'm so confused..Levi was just here a second ago." I added. "What do you mean? He's been in his room all morning. And he's been in there for a reason." She whispered the last.

"Huh?" "He's sick, and you're the only one that he'll let take care of him." Hanji answered. "O-oh, ok." I mumbled, slowly standing up. I pushed some of my hair off my face with my left arm, which was a mistake.

"Ow, that hurt." I muttered. "Why didn't you get a professional's help?" She looked at my wound. "I don't know.." I sighed. "Follow me." She pulled my other arm, dragging me down the hall towards the infirmary.

>>>Time skip>>> (sorry for all the time skips)

I walked into Levi's office, knocking on his attached bedroom door. Hanji got me a sling for my left arm, so I wouldn't accidentally use it.

"*Cough* Come in." I heard a groggy voice reply. I walked inside of his room, seeing him buried under the covers. "I would help, but I can't seem to find Levi. Oh well..I guess I'll come back next time-" I used sarcasm.

"I'm right here, dipshit." He groaned, revealing his face from under the blankets. 'His bed head is so damn cute.' "The fuck happened to your arm?" He coughed.

"Jean and I were sparring." I sighed. "I thought you would kick his ass?" He sat up a bit. "Yeah. Do you need anything? I can get you water, tea, soup. Anything." I offered.

"Just bring me some damn tea." He sighed, hiding under the covers again. "Aye aye, captain." And then I walked out of his room, going to the mess hall to make him tea.

I returned with the tea, and set it on his nightstand. "Is there anything else you want?" Levi took his tea cup, still holding it in that interesting way.

"There is something I-"

*Knock knock knock*

I walked over to his office door, opening it to see Hanji. "Yes, Hanji?" "Here's a list of things you need to do for Levi, good luck!" She handed me a long piece of paper and left.

I sighed, looking over the list and going back to Levi's room. "What was it that you needed?" I leaned against the door frame. "Never mind, I don't need it anymore." He plopped face first into the pillow.

"Alright. Well, I'll get started on the chores." I walked over to a basket in the room and started folding his shirts. 'This is hard with one arm.' I took off the sling and folded it properly.

"Hey Levi?" "Hm?" He hummed in response. "Did you come to my room last night?" I asked him. "No..?" He replied. 'I guess that was a dream.' "Ok." I responded.

I continued folding his shirts, my arm was still sore from poking it with a needle. When I finished folding his shirts, I put them away in his dresser and looked at the next thing on the list.

"I'm going to clean your office, do you need anything before I do so?" I asked, walking over to the side of his bed. I didn't get an answer. He was asleep.

'He looks so adorable, even if he is sick.' I moved aside some of the hair strands lying on his face. 'Guess I'll start on cleaning.'

3rd Person POV

(F/n) was dusting some of the bookshelves in Levi's office. Her back was to the door to the hallway, and was humming to (favorite song).

(F/n)'s POV

After a few minutes passed of dusting the shelves, I turned around and noticed the door opened ajar. 'I thought I shut it?'

Then I heard Levi coughing in his room. I went to his bedroom door and opened it a crack.

"QUINN, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" I shouted, stomping over to her quickly. There was a syringe stuck in his bicep.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HIM, FUCKTARD?!" I shouted again. She didn't answer and just started running for the door.

She got out of his bedroom and office, in the hallway now. I sprinted out the door, seeing Hanji there. "Hanji take care of Levi, I've got to catch that bitch!" I ordered, running down the hall after Quinn.

Hanji stood there dumbfounded for a moment before quickly going to tend to Levi. I swiftly ran after Quinn, faster than I thought I could.

I saw another hallway, I turned down that one as a shortcut so I could sneak attack her. When I got to the other end, she was just passing it so I jumped on top of her.

We rolled across the floor for a few seconds. When we stopped, I pinned her arms and legs down. "What did you do to him?" I lowly asked.

I could see the adrenaline in her eyes. "I..I..." "Spit it out, asshat!" I shouted in her face.

"I.."

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