The gems were out on another mission looking for malachite.

Steven was laying on his bed a frown
On his face. He look up at the ceiling.
Then he rolled on his side facing his
Bedroom window. Letting out an emotionless sigh. Then tears rolled down his cheeks.

Steven:why can't I be more like you
Mom? I wish I could be strong so
I can protect my family instead I'm
Just some mushy kid with a cold stone
In his gut.

Maybe lapis wouldn't have to deal with jasper as malachite under
The ocean if I had just come back to her! It's my fault she's trapped!
She didn't deserved  that she was already kept in a mirror for a 1,000 years for Pete sakes!? Now she is imprisoned again and This time I won't be able to save herAnd the worst part is feeling self Hatred from your only family!

What if they want my you back instead of me? I mean it's obvious
Pearl tried to KILL ME AS BABY

( the episode Three gems and baby)

I know they just miss you  besides to be fair they didn't know
How to raise a baby it was their first
Time also because they were still
Grieving over your death
After all they did spent 1,000 years
With you.   Honestly In a sense I can
See why they blame me for your death
It's probably because I'm some dumb
Hybrid abomination I tried to give them back a part of you by fusing with them but I couldn't even get
That right! I tried to give pearl back
Rainbow quartz and whatever
Fusion amethyst did with mom same with garnet but  I tried
To live up to my your standards and
Failed miserably.

And I can't believe I made garnet unfuse back on the ship

Steven thought for a little bit and decided he would run away so he packed his Cheeseburger backpack
He wrote a note then he taped it to the
Front door and left he knew lion could protect his dad and connie
And could help the gems on missions
And stuff

He trusted lion with the gems he really did ....but wait lion was his only transportation guess he'll just have to walk it was going to be a long walk that's for sure because he needed money for plane tickets to Miami
He was planning to become a musician like his father the plan was
Fullproof and this time when he runs
Away it's not with amethyst and
He's not pretending to be the no home boys this time he was actually a homeless  runaway but the good news
Is at least he was also becoming stronger too! He was going too train
During the three months of his music
Career

As steven was thinking of his plan
He now had just past the sign that
Said "NOW LEAVING BEACH CITY
               COME BACK SOON"