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Katherine's POV

Slowly and reluctantly, I uncovered my face. I blinked, closed my eyes, and blinked again. Streaks of sunlight penetrated the window and blinded me. I sat up, dragged my feet off the bed, and rubbed my knuckles onto my eyes.

I stretched my arms above my head and yawned as i watched my legs dangle above the off-white polyester carpet.

Me eyes traveled to the digital clock placed on the counter, the  big green numbers displayed on made me let out a groan.

It is almost noon and i am still sleeping , this pregnancy is making me so damn lazy.

After going to the bathroom , changing my clothes and fixing my hair, I went out of the room carefully looking around afraid i may bump into him or anything.

I stayed in my room since last night, I didn't want to see him or talk with him after what happened.

I still can't believe that he did that. I know I shouldn't be this much hurt,

But god i am..

I went down my eyes still roaming around. I really hope he went to work.

I saw Skyla cleaning the living room, when she spotted me she gave me a warm smile , "Good morning Mrs. Ry.. I mean Katherine." She directly corrected herself when she noticed the look on my face.

If she just know how much i hate that name..

"Morning Skyla." I said with a smile , my eyes still wandering around searching for Ashton.

"He left like two hours ago." She said reading my mind, grabbing my attention to her.

"Oh okay." I said feeling a bit relieved.

I was about to walk away leaving her to finish her work but she called my name making me turn around.

"I found these papers here , do you want me to get rid of them?" She said pointing at something on the counter.

I walked toward it , my eyes widened when i realized that it is the contract papers from yesterday ripped into many pieces.

Why would he rip them after I signed them ?

I get really confused not understanding his action , but a small note laying beside the papers caught my attention.

I grabbed it , noticing the words written over it , i recognized it as Ashton's handwriting.

"I didn't send these papers, i would never do that.
I hope you would believe me.
                                   -Ashton "

His words were enough to make even more confused , if he didn't send them then who did ?

And how in hell his signature was on them , is he lying or something ?

I got more confused and anxious as many thoughts started running in my mind, and many emotions rushed inside my chest.

The thing that i felt the most - a thing i am not supposed to feel but i am so damn nice- was guilt.

I blamed him and snapped at him for something he didn't do.

Stop being so nice, he snaps at you all the time !

That's right , but maybe i deserve it..

Oh just shut up !

The debate i was having with my mind was shortly interrupted by someone tapping my shoulder.

I turned to face Skyla , she was probably calling my name but i was so damn lost in my thoughts to notice.

"You can throw them." I said walking away still trying to register his words.

I am still confused , if it is not him then who send the papers?

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The day passed really quick , Skyla told me her daughter is having a baby today so i told her to leave and go the hospital for her daughter.

She didn't accept at first and said she have to prepare lunch, but i insisted and told her i will prepare it.

So I prepared lunch but I didn't eat it yet, i made it just to let time pass and to keep my mind occupied.

Or maybe i was waiting him to come so we can eat together..

I am so lame i know !

And pathetic..

God i hate him , i hate the effect he have over me , i hate my feelings toward him , I just hate that i am not able to hate him.

Ugh !

The main door opened jerking me back to reality ,meaning Ashton is back , making a sick feeling in my stomach rise.

Not bad type of sick though !

I was sitting in the living room pretending to read a book as he entered inside.

My eyes acted on their own and looked at him as he stepped closer, his eyes met mine and i saw them soften for a moment.

"You're home early." I said out of the blue not knowing why i was starting a conversation with him in the first place.

"I finished my work earlier today." He said, his tone wasn't cold , or harsh as usual , it was.. Normal !

Which is weird..

"Are you hungry ?" I asked , for some reason i was hoping he would say yes.

"No , not really." He answered and all my hopes vanished.

I stood up and walked toward him ,"But i was waiting you, so we can eat together i mean."

Did i just say that ?

He looked somehow taken aback by my words , surely he didn't expect these words after my outburst last night.

"I cooked." I added while biting my lip feeling so damn nervous.

"Umm uh okay." He said , looking somehow surprised.

For unknown reason i smiled, "Okay , take a shower and i will prepare the table." My voice was more cheerful than it should normally be.

He nodded , i can still see his surprised expression as he walked upstairs.

Why in hell i am glad that my husband is going to eat lunch with me for the first time !

I kicked that thought to the back of my mind as I went and started preparing the food.

I was placing the plates when Ashton came down wearing those so damn sexy sweatpants with a casual white t-shirt , his hair still wet , few strands brushing over his forehead as he walked down typing on his phone oblivious i am checking him out.

How he can be hot and mean at the same time ?

I hate how hot he is , it makes everything just difficult ugh !

He lifted his eyes up and met mine , probably observing that i was totally checking him out.

I blushed and looked away trying to look busy arranging the table.

He came and sat on one of the chairs and i seated myself in the one facing him.

I hope the food tastes good , i am not that perfect cook but i know a thing or two, Cara used to teach some foreign recipes when we used to live together and some of them are still stuck on my mind.

I made a sticky citrus chicken with a special sous beside it and beet salad , I remember Cara telling me it is Asian or something.

Whatever , it taste good , i hope Ashton will like it too.

I lifted my eyes up and took a look at him , he was eating and from his looks i can say maybe he is liking it.

Go Katherine !

"This is good." He said suddenly before placing a small piece of chicken in his mouth.

I couldn't help but smile at his comment. I saw a small smile forming on his lips but it was directly gone as we heard a knock on the door.

I looked confused at Ashton , who would come now , we know no one here.

"Are you waiting someone?" I asked Ashton.

"No." He shook his head before standing up and walking toward the door.

I followed behind as i saw the door opening and no one other than the infamous Mark Ryder was standing there.

What is he doing in UK ?

"What are you doing here ?" Ashton asked, his facial expression turning fierce.

"I don't think i made my point clear over the phone." Mark said casually , his eyes traveled to me and i saw a look of disgust in his eyes.

"I don't care." Ashton growled, "The important thing is that i cleared my point."

"Stay away from me , from my life and from my family." He added and i was getting confused , what are they talking about?

"I did that for your own good , I don't want what happened before to happen again." Mark said and he looked at me when he said the last sentence as if it was directed to me.

Does he know what happened?

Of course he does, that explains the looks he was giving me.

"Just get out of here, i am not in the mood to start a fight." Ashton said calmly but i can see how hard he was trying to keep his anger at bay.

"I will go , don't worry son. Just be careful , I can't always save you." Mark added with a calm tone , the same cold tone he uses all the time. I don't remember seeing him angry at all.

Ashton directly closed the door with a loud thud , i saw him biting his bottom lip so hard as if trying to control his anger.

"Why you always treat your father like this?" I asked , his eyes snapped to my direction instantly.

"None of your business." And his harsh tone was back.

He started walking away, totally ignoring me.

"Actually it is my business." I said stopping him,"If you forget , you are the father of my child."

"I don't want my daughter or son to have problems with their father like you do." I added, my words making him angrier.

My mouth decides to talk in the most inappropriate moments !

"Don't ever say that , i would never treat my kids the way he treated me." He said clenching his jaw , his hand beside him curling into a fist.

"You won't understand, but I will never be like him." He added , struggling in keeping his calm tone.

"Maybe I won't understand and it is right I don't know what happened but by the end of the day he is still your father , they are your parents , you have to respect them no matter what." I said.

He should be grateful that at least they are alive-

He shook his head,"They are not my parents , they never acted like ones."

"Maybe you lived your life with a loving caring parents , getting everything you wanted, that's why you are lecturing me about this family shit." He said and somehow his words stung.

"But mine wasn't like that...Like i said you won't understand, you won't understand the pain of not having your parents beside you." He said , maybe oblivious how much his words affected me.

I let out a small pained chuckle , "Yeah right...I won't understand, but at least your parents are alive Ashton , you didn't have to see them die in front of you." I said feeling the tears forming in my eyes.

"You didn't have to be just fifteen years old left all alone with no family, with no one, just by yourself.. Facing this whole world alone." The first tear scrolled down but i wont allow more to fall in front of him.

"You're saying i wont understand that pain." I said with a pained smile ,"Believe me , I can teach that pain , because i endure it uncountable times."

With that i ran up to my room , not wanting to break down in front of him.

I ignored the shocked look on his face , i ignored him calling me after i ran up. I just felt like laying down letting the left pieces of my heart to break slowly..

I cried and cried till i felt there is no more tears , my mind felt numb tired of all the thinking and analyzing.

I just need to rest. Can life give a break for once, wasn't everything happening enough already-

I placed my hand under my head as i tried to get to sleep when i heard a low knock on the door , I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep.

I heard the door opening, i kept my eyes closed , if he saw me sleeping he would probably leave me alone , because i don't want to talk with him.

But maybe he didn't understand that i am fucking sleeping because i heard his footsteps nearing me.

He is probably standing in front of me , because his steps are so close.

After a while , I felt the mattress dipping beside me.

What the..

Can't you see i am sleeping , leave already !

I heard him let out sigh , and i was struggling in keeping my eyes closed and my breath even.

"I am sorry." He suddenly said with a very soft tone," I didn't know , i should've not said that."

Okay , so he just apologizes when i am sleeping..

Great , just great !

"It is just i was really mad at him , because he is the one who send the contract papers to you."

Wait what ?

"He said he want to protect my money from you , he doesn't trust you after what happened.. But I won't allow him to interfere in my life or in my choices." He said , I felt his tone changing as he muttered the last sentence.

"I trust you Katherine , i know that all you care about is just our child."

For the first time , he said our child , i wanted to smile at that but tried my best to keep the sleeping act.

I felt his hand tucking the loosened strand of my hair behind my ear , his hand stayed there for a while.

Its warmth made my heart flutter and goosebumps to rise on my skin.

"I am really sorry." He added his tone made me want to open my eyes and see his eyes, i missed to see the caring in them.

"You know it is much easier to talk with you when you're sleeping." He added with a low chuckle , "You are not interrupting me as usual."

I resisted the smile that threatened to crawl to my face due to his comment.

What he did next was something I wasn't expecting at all , his lips pressed over my forehead gently.

I felt my heart racing in my chest, its voice pumping in my ears that i was afraid he may hear it too.

"Sometimes i just hate how much i am still in love with you." He muttered with a low voice before leaving.

When the door closed , my eyes snapped opened , my heart about to burst as my mind was trying to register his last words.

But what he doesn't know , that i feel the same ,

I hate that too..

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New Chapter baby !

Hope you liked it , and damn Ashton , sometimes i feel like killing him and then i just want to kiss him *sigh*

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