Just a heads up,

I'M NOT ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT DROWNING. I enjoy writing poetry and speeches (and writing in general :) ), so I thought I might put a few in here.

This is about how I felt during the period from 5th-9th grade (which is now).

Enjoy!

~J

Why?

Why do I get so far, only to fall.

Why do I learn so much only to feel dumb.

Why do I make friends only to loose them.

Why do I work so hard only to feel weak.

Why?

Can anyone give me an answer?

Everything till now was easy, fun.

Now it's hours a night

Working till I drop,

Feeling worthless

Crying myself to sleep.

Everyone comes to school the next day prepared, ready

I'm not

Why am I the only one struggling.

No one truly likes me.

Fake friends are everywhere

Surrounding me

Suffocating me

Sculpting me into someone I don't recognize.

Using me because I'm there.

Lonely, not alone.

I won't stand for it.

I can start again

Press restart.

It's a scary thing

You could loose all your progress

But you could be able to do more.

So I press it.

Click.

I still wasn't ready.

Things are just as frightening as they are exciting

Just as saddening as they are encouraging

Just as painful as they are beneficial

There will be fear

There will be pain.

But you have to push through

Past the pain,

Neglect,

And fear,

To find something new

Something beautiful

Something others might not believe is there.

What that is, I can't say

But I strive for it every waking hour,

Every day,

Every week,

Every month,

Every year,

Trying to save myself

From drowning.

I'm sorry if this is trash! I haven't done this style in a while. Let me know what style of writing you guys prefer and I'll try to do more of that. See ya later!