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Taehyung was running inside the building, his feet were moving on their own, he had to do this, to finally make it alright. The doctors that he passed by were giving him a glare when he ran down these hallways. Even hearing many nurses telling him to not run but he didn't care.

He needed to see Jin as he had made his decision. Taehyung reached the end of the hall which is usually Jin's clinic. He didn't even knock and grabbed the door handle to get inside the room. The air conditioned air hit him in his face, helping cool down his heated body from all the nerves and the sweat. He glanced ahead to see the man he was looking for.

Jin stared at him in confusion, sitting at his desk signing off some papers. It has been only a week of suffering, rethinking of where it leads them now, a week since they went on a break. Taehyung had dark circles under his eyes, his hair had not been brushed, eyes getting tired from crying for the days he lost in this situation. Jin on the other hand looked completely the same as he left him. He did miss seeing his face but it is disheartening to see that while their break gave him an existential crisis, it wasn't even something worth budging to Jin.

"Taehyung? What are you doing here?" Jin questioned Taehyung, getting up from his seat.

"I-We need to talk!" Taehyung stated. Jin blinked and then looked down and sighed.

"Tae,I told you we are on a break. I don't want to do this right now, not at my workplace especially." Jin told him so and Taehyung scoffed at him.

"This is exactly what I want to talk about. In our entire relationship…I was never prioritized over your work, hyung. It was always, tae, I got a promotion but in Seoul let's move! baby, separate apartments wouldn't work, let's move in together so we can see each other because of my work I wouldn't be able to see you. Tae, I'm sorry I couldn't show up at our date, sorry we haven't been able to be a couple in months. It's always been working over me and then you asked me where I lacked?" Taehyung rants to him in frustration.

Jin once again only stared at him. He didn't say anything for a few seconds. He closed his notebook and looked up.

"Is that all the excuses you have for cheating on me? you want to talk then sure let's talk. How about we start with you having sex dreams about your best fucking friend??" Jin responded back, in the same tone as him but a little louder. Their commotion would be unheard anyway because the room is at the end of this hallway.

"I didn't cheat on you, that's not cheating, hyung. I cannot control my dreams, I can't control who I dream of. Don't change the subject, I couldn't control my dreams but you could've control your fucking behaviour in our relationship,you have always neglected me yet I'm the one who 'cheated', I would never fucking do that to you, do you think that low of me?" Taehyung asked him and Jin just chuckled.

"At this point, I don't think of you at all, Tae. You are not the boy I fall in love with. What do you even want me to do? Leave my job for you? Do you know how crazy that sounds?"

"I want you to respect me. I want you to prioritize me, I want you to sometimes choose your job over me. I get it, you worked for this your entire life, being in a position where you are is not easy but we have been dating for two years, why have we not moved forward at all?" Taehyung asked him in all honesty.

"What are you saying?"

"You know what I'm saying. Many of my friends are getting married while others are engaged. When we moved into a house together I thought you were going to propose any day now, I was ready, I really thought so. Then weeks passed, months and a full year now yet we have been stuck in a level right where we started. We are roommates more than lovers,hyung. We wake up, we go to work, we have dinner and go to sleep to repeat it all again, this cycle has been with us since we came to Seoul,why??"

"I don't want to rush things, Taehyung. I don't want to get into something I don't want to."

"Why do you not want to?? didn't you love me??"

"Ofcourse I d-do!!" the hesitance alone answered questions Taehyung had.

"Then what's the problem?? you love me you say, we are already living together. All that there is to do is to sign a piece of paper to make us official. Why are you hesitating? What's stopping you?" Taehyung asked him the questions he already had the answers for. Jin stayed quiet so Taehyung answered it for him.

"You are a coward, that's why. If we get married then you can't back out anytime you want like you did with us a week ago. Even after two years, you are still not sure of us, you still do not trust me, you never did to begin with. This is not…love,Jin. I was just a toy you played with until you got bored of it. Good for you, you saw this fault in me that you can't even blame it all on me. The reason we didn't workout isn't me but you."

"Oh please, Taehyung. Don't play the fucking saint right now. Yes, all that you said is true, I never wanted to marry you because how could I trust you? you flirt with everyone, your best friends including the married one, Jimin was it? they are all over you. With your face I don't even blame them but how can you blame me? you entertain them and then you ask me why I chose my job over you, why I choose to not marry you? give me a fucking break." Jin rolled his eyes at Taehyung who was still in disbelief.

This is the man he fell for, this is the man he moved away for. The signs were quite evident the past few months of them falling out of love. From working overtime on purpose to avoid him in social gatherings they attend together, yet Taehyung stayed because he thought they would be able to move on from this rough patch and be together. He put his trust in Jin but Jin never had his trust on Taehyung to begin with.

Taehyung chucked to himself, he's glad that in the end he made the right choice. He is so glad out of the two choices he was given he decided to choose Jeongguk because he can't imagine what this guy would have done if Taehyung chose him.

"You are unbelievable. You are literally finding excuses to blame me for cheating, don't drag my innocent friends in your fucked up agenda. For once own up to your mistake. I apologized for things that I didn't even do on purpose, I apologized for your mistakes. I found myself going out of my way to make my schedule fit yours while you were busy making sure our schedules never aligned. I can't believe I wasted so much time on a man who was never serious about me."

"I was serious about you until you linked with all your friends here and started to be a whor-" Jin was cut off by Taehyung slapping him on the face.

"Don't you dare call me that. I told you, don't drag my friends into this and now I'm telling you to never take my name out of that filthy mouth of yours. You know what? I am glad I chose Jeongguk over you. Right now you are dragging me down, dragging my friends only to prove something I never did. You know there's a man out there who was there for me after you left me all alone. He has cried for me and to this day he still waits for me even when I have disappointed him too many times. He accepted me,including my flaws. How can I even love a man like you when a man like him exists?" Taehyung asked him and Jin clicked his tongue in annoyance.

"So you admit? you love your best friend?" Jin stated, he knew the answer and so did Taehyung. It's just upsetting how that's all he focused on after what Taehyung said.

"I do, I love him,I always have and I always will. I will not apologise to you for loving him because at a point I gave you all of me yet you couldn't even spare me half of you. You are the reason we are breaking up, you lost me and it's all your fault. We are done for good, Kim Seokjin. It was good while it lasted. I hope we never see eachother again." Taehyung told him.

Looking at him one last time before heading out of the room and the building too. Jin didn't stop him and he was glad he didn't. His choice was clear long before he came here and now it's time to give a knock on the door to the boy who actually deserves it.

Taehyung wasn't able to meet Jeongguk that same day. He did go to his apartment building, his car was parked in the parking lot but Taehyung couldn't step out of the car. His head was all over the place, it was late at night and he didn't know if Jeongguk would even want to see him right now.

So he turned his car around and went back home. After all, he just ended his two year long relationship. A relationship he put a lot of effort in. Where he sometimes felt like the happiest man ever,sure he didn't love Jin as much as he loves a particular someone, he still loved him. Now that it's all over just because Jin couldn't trust him is upsetting.

Even if Jin didn't had any problems with him, Taehyung would have still came out of the hospital ending everything with Jin because he knows, Jin leaving now hurts, it would hurt for some weeks maybe a month, a year later he would look back and realise how dumb he was to stay with him for so long.

Jeongguk leaving him would scar him forever.He can lose one person out of the two and it's not going to be Jeongguk,not again.

Not when he's the only person who has made him their first priority, he came running to him in the middle of work when he heard Taehyung's voice tremble. That's all it took for him to stop everything, stop the business he's the boss of just to see him. It isn't the first time either, he has always made sure Taehyung was doing fine when at work, during lunch, texting him when he got home. He was like a work husband as some people say.

Jeongguk has been there for him when no one else was there for him from the start. Even in their College days, Jeongguk has never let him down even after everything Taehyung pulled. He wished Jeongguk could have told him that sooner, oh how much time they could have saved.

After two full days, Taehyung looked at his phone to see the date. August 8th. Today's date and also the date of the day Taehyung realized he is in love with Jeongguk, now once again being the date that Taehyung realizes he never fell out of love with Jeongguk.

He stands in front of Jeongguk's penthouse door. He had taken a fresh shower,wore his new clothes, put on some light makeup to hide his concerning dark circles. For the first time in a while, Taehyung dressed up just so he could see the man he loves. He pressed the doorbell only two times and stood there, straightening up his posture.

A smile made it's way to his lips when the door burst open only after a few seconds of standing there. There was Jeongguk standing right infront of him. His hair was so messed up as if he just got out of bed. Jeongguk was in black sweatpants and a black t-shirt that was tucked into the pants. His eyes were a little red, assumingly from crying. There were light circles under his eye, he hasn't been sleeping well either.

Instead of feeling worried like he should be. Taehyung instead felt relief wash over him, his smile got wider when their eyes met. He couldn't help but compare their meeting to his meeting with his now ex. How Jeongguk looked as messed up as him, it showed how Jeongguk…cared. He always has.

"You came."

"I'm sorry, it took me so long." Taehyung put his arms around Jeongguk's neck and pulled him into a hug.

Taehyung has no idea how badly Jeongguk wanted this. How much he needed this, the days haven't been easy on him ever since their fight and he has been craving for a hug like this because for a second everything felt like it was going to be okay. 

He hugged him back tighter. Burying his head into Taehyung's neck, inhaling his scent. He never wants to let go, he could stay like forever but he has to let go, they need to talk. They desperately need to do it. Pulling back from the hug, Jeongguk let Taehyung inside before closing the door.

They sat down on the couch, side by side. The tension around them got tense. Jeongguk wanted to say a lot but this time he wouldn't, this time he wants Taehyung to talk, he wants Taehyung to explain everything because he's sick and tired, the boy was quiet and Taehyung opened his mouth to finally start speaking. It's time to talk, the right decision.

"I want to start off with, I'm sorry. I am so fucking sorry for every single thing, Jeongguk. I'm sorry for taking out my frustration on you when Jin left me, I'm sorry for failing to be a good friend when you needed me the most and I'm so sorry…for leaving you." Taehyung apologized, taking Jeongguk's hand and intertwining it with his own.

"Why,hyung? Why would you leave me? Do you have any idea how much it hurt to know my best friend left without even saying goodbye as if the years we were together 24/7 meant nothing to him. Do you know how hard my senior year was when every single place in that college reminded me of you?" Jeongguk shared his own sorrows, Taehyung squeezed his hand tightly. Feeling so bad for what he did.

"I know, I know I'm sorry. I panicked, I was hyperventilating and made a rush decision-"

"Was kissing me that much of a nightmare to you,hyung? that you had to grab everything and leave. Telling me on text as if we are just some acquaintances. " Jeongguk asked him, the sadness in his eyes breaking Taehyung's heart.

"No!! Definitely not. This is all a big misunderstanding, Gukkie. I didn't hate you, that kiss was better than anyone else I have ever kissed but you didn't kiss me back so I thought I ruined our friendship, I lost you for good because when I pulled away you looked like you have seen a ghost, you have no idea how fast my heart fell, Gukkie. I was so scared that I couldn't face you, I decided before you can leave me I will leave you alone first." Taehyung explained to him, now realizing how dumb it was, now that he knows Jeongguk liked him too.

"I was shocked, wouldn't you be if your first love kissed you? my mind shut down the second I felt your lips on mine. It felt like all of my morals left my body and I only wanted you. I was so in love with you, I had no idea how much being kissed by you would put me in a shock. Taehyung, you were someone I  wanted so badly that I was ready to trade the entire world to have you. While it was a drunken kiss to you, it meant so much more to me-" Jeongguk was rudely cut off by Taehyung who couldn't take it anymore.

"It wasn't a drunken mistake, Jeongguk!!! I kissed you because I was so fucking jealous. This one girl was all over you and I had to come and get you. God, Jeongguk, how have you not realized it yet? I am madly in love with you too,you dummy. You have no idea how much I liked you back then. You were and still are my favorite person,Gukkie. You were the only one who was a real friend to me, the only one who listened to me and cared about me. You were the sweetest guy and I fell in love with you so hard that I was so scared to confess because that means I might have to lose you if you don't feel the same so I repressed those feelings." Taehyung confessed to Jeongguk who felt the same shock he felt at the end of semester party.

"W-what? What are you saying? you l-loved me?" Jeongguk stuttered, not believing his words.

"Love,Gukkie,I love you, I have for the longest time. I was drunk when I kissed you, yes but if I was sober I would have continued to repress those feelings but god I wish I was sober so I wouldn't have fucked us up so bad. You always had admirers all over you, I was jealous but I never intruded but this time I let my heart win and kissed you, only for you to not kiss me back so I took that as a rejection and left. I had no idea you might like me back, that thought didn't even cross my mind."

"You can't be serious, how could I not like you, hyung? You were the most beautiful person I have ever met with a golden heart. I was a new student, I got dragged into your group but none of those guys took time to get to know me like you did,none of them made sure I ate on time, if I studied for the tests, If I wanted to get out of my room to go out. Sleeping next to you on our sleepovers, With you always kissing me on my head or cheek, how could I not fall for you? you had so much to give me yet i had nothing to give you." Jeongguk explained it to him, feeling like crying because of how much time they have wasted when they liked each other all along.

"You had all these girls and guys who were so much prettier and handsome than me after you so I thought why would you choose me when you can have them."

"You are special, Taehyung. Always has been to me. I have never met somebody like you who is still taking my breath away 5 years later. They have nothing on you, they never did. It felt like a movie scene with you as whenever you were next to me, everyone else would blur." Jeongguk chuckled, putting his hand on Taehyung's cheek and caressing the soft skin.

"I'm sorry, this is all because of me. If I just talked instead of running away we would have been dating for a long time now." Taehyung shared but he saw the look of hesitance on Jeongguk's face. "W-we don't have to, if you don't want to. I get it, I hurt you a lot so you might not want to be with me anym-"

"-No, hyung it's not that. It's just…what about Jin hyung? aren't you in love with him, still dating, break or not?"

"I am not with hyung anymore. We broke up like three days ago. It didn't end well, he didn't trust me at all, he never did. I did like Jin a lot, there was a time where I thought we would end up getting married but I realized I was always the one waiting for him yet he never wanted to move along. Did I love him? I think I did but not anymore, I just feel upset whenever I have to think about him. I pushed down my feelings for you so I won't have to face them so I can move on but I never did.

They always came up whenever I was in rough places with him. I thought to myself oh Jeongguk wouldn't do this, oh Jeongguk would have treated me right. The feelings for Jin already are vanishing while the feelings I have been trying to avoid since the last 3 years are still here,Gukkie. To this day my heart wants you only. It is beating so loudly for you right now I feel like I can't breathe." Taehyung ended his rant,a tear escaping from his eyes that Jeongguk wiped away with his thumb.

"I love you so fucking much and I will never get tired of saying it again and again. Come here" Jeongguk opened his arms for Taehyung,who immediately hugged him. His head on Jeongguk's chest and arms around his waist wrapped around so tightly.

Embracing him after all the years he has waited for him. Finally the man who kept him up at nights is in his arms. Jeongguk couldn't be happier for how things have turnt out. They have cried a lot, waited a lot, been with other people but after every pain, they are with each other in the end, he cannot ask for anything else right now.

"Was I the reason he didn't trust you?" Jeongguk asked Taehyung who nodded, pulling away from the hug and avoiding his gaze. "Figured, he never liked me anyway."

"It was more than..that,remember when you asked me about the…dreams?" Taehyung  asked Jeongguk who thought for a second and nodded. "those wet dreams were about you. It was me and you and yeah. This one time I…moaned out your name in sleep and he heard it." Taehyung admitted, his cheeks turning red from embarrassment.

"I know I should feel bad for him because I would die if you have wet dreams of someone who is not me but I feel kind of proud. You tried to bury your feelings but your heart knew it wanted me." Jeongguk leaned closer to Taehyung, the air suddenly shifted around them. Taehyung gulped.

"Yeah, he just thought after that I was having an affair with you and it went downhill from that. It passed and now I'm actually happy for everything that happened." Taehyung put his hands around Jeongguk's shoulders,pulling him closer as he was slowly fully on the couch,laying down with Jeongguk on top of him.

"Mhm, I shall thank those dreams and me too actually because of my crazy sex appeal, you are now here under me." His boss pressed his lips on Taehyung's neck, placing butterfly kisses all over it. Going up to his jaw, kissing the soft skin that he missed so much.

"Jeongguk,mmhm~ You are so cocky but good for you, I fucking love when you act like that." Taehyung grabbed Jeongguk's hair and pulled him in.

"Wanna know a secret, baby?" Jeongguk asked him before licking his neck and sucking on his supple skin. Taehyung moaned in response.

"I too have had wet dreams about you. I still do, every single night I dream of you, Taehyung. I dream of you under me, squirming and screaming out my name. Every night,you are filled full of me and you tell me you want more, you always do. It's like you can't get enough of me, sweetheart." Jeongguk's voice got lower, sounded so seductive, Taehyung could feel himself getting hard.

Taehyung's eyes widened at the confession, his mind getting filled with dirtier thoughts. He has never wanted someone so bad, he never felt this type of rush with Jin. It was never this tense for him. The sexual tension was making his mind go places.

"It's true, I can't get enough of you, now that I have you all to myself I will keep wanting more and more from you, Gukkie. You know it already, I cannot go on living my life if I'm not satisfied…Sir." Taehyung called him what he calls him at work. He saw how Jeongguk's gaze changed,it got darker.

No other words were exchanged instead Jeongguk smashed his lips next to Taehyung into a fiery kiss. Jeongguk's hand went inside Taehyung's shirt, pulling up his shirt to feel him skin to skin.  Their lips moved in a sync of their own, fitted against each other so perfectly as if they were made to kiss each other.

Jeongguk kissed him like he had never been kissed before. Sucking on his plump lower lip, Taehyung moaned because of how rough Jeongguk was, his grip around his neck tightened, pulling him in as close as he could. He wants to be one with this man. He decided to take off Jeongguk's shirt. Grabbing the hem of the shirt and pulling it over his head quickly, making them part away for a second.

Taking his time to appreciate the naked glory of his lover. His toned abs, there were definitely more than six, his pecs, the big arms decorated with the tattoos, Taehyung is holding his moan. His hands trailed down his chest to his abs, feeling him up and down. Jeongguk chuckled at the lustful gaze of Taehyung, he grabbed his face and attached their lips once again. He immediately inserted his tongue inside.

Their tongues fighting against each other, Taehyung let Jeongguk lead them. Tangling around and sucking softly on the tongue, the exchange of spits and going more in, exploring his mouth and he did the same. Feeling Jeongguk roll his hips on his crotch. The living room was filled with moans and groans from both men just kissing and grinding against each other.

Things were slowly escalating, With both of the boys only in their underwear only. Lips swollen from kissing repeatedly, just a second away and Taehyung would miss kissing Jeongguk, they have just started kissing and Taehyung is already becoming addicted. With a bunch of hickies down each other's neck and even some bite marks on the chest.

He did not fail from teasing his pink buds. Jeongguk thumb rubbing his nipple while his mouth on the other one, sucking on them enough to make Taehyung's toes curl from the new feeling. All those dreams he had,each was becoming real from each passing second. "Jeongguk please, I'm so hard, let's go to your room." Taehyung pleaded and Jeongguk licked his nipples more before moving away.

Agreeing to the request, Jeongguk grabbed Taehyung's body into his arm, lifting him in bridal style, Taehyung squealed when suddenly being lifted up. "Let's take you to bed, princess." Jeongguk said to him. Taehyung chuckled in his arms.

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ext chapter is going to be the last one which will include the continued smut and a little epilogue. I cannot believe this is already ending. Well this one was on the shorter side so...I had fun while writing it and I hope you guys enjoyed this smutty mess too.
-K