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He was surrounded in darkness, everywhere, darkness everywhere. Light looked around, trying to find someone, searching, searching everywhere. He spotted a spotlight off in the distance, and standing in that light was L, his L. He took a step forward and suddenly got the feeling that something was coming to hurt L. He heard Ryuk's voice "Those who use the death note will be cursed with misfortune, forever, misfortune." He repeated this over and over, like a prayer, over and over. He was running to L now, trying to save him. Ryuk stopped chanting and starting laughing, laughing.

And L turned around, and started to back away. "No, leave me alone. Don't hurt me! I won't let you kill me, Kira!!"

"No, L, it's fine I'm not Kira anymore, remember?" Light said, taking a step closer.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" Tears were streaming down his face. "You can't trick me Kira!!"

Light reached a hand out toward him and saw that there was a pen in his hand, in the other hand a black notebook formed. 'Not this again, oh god please no.' All around him criminals faces showed up, with their names and life spans above their heads. He was suddenly right next to L. He felt himself turn into Kira, the urge to write L's name down was so strong. He fought it with all his might but his mind wasn't strong enough. He fell to the ground, the power of the death note overwhelmed him, he gave in and stared down at the open death note a red glow in his eyes. Ryuzaki was backing away, shaking his head as if he couldn't believe what was going on. The pen moved for the paper closer, closer, always closer. The tip of the pen touched the paper and hurriedly wrote out 'L Lawliet' and he was back to himself, his normal non-Kira self. Light stared down at the paper in horror. He just sentenced his love to death, he was furious with himself. He quickly pushed himself up and ran to L with unbelievable speed, he just wanted to hold him one last time, one last time. He made it to him in 18 seconds, not thinking, he wrapped his arms around him and kissed him saying over and over "I love you, I love you." repeating it like a prayer, over and over. L, startled, began to push him away, but Light held on tight not wanting the moment to be over. L suddenly stopped fighting him, they fell to the floor as one, Light was left kissing dead lips. 'Salt, I taste salt' Light thought, 'I'm crying? No, this must be a dream, but how am I tasting in a dream? No, this is real life, no, no, no." He lowered his head a sobbed into L's chest. He cried until his tears were gone and he was just holding him close, not wanting to let go.

-wedding week-

Light woke up and immediately felt a familiar cold steel on his wrist and a dull ache was beginning to form there. He rolled over and heard the rustling of chains. "No, not again. I must be dreaming; he wouldn't have done this again." His eyes flew open and followed a long chain leading from his wrist to L's. "L, what the hell is going on?" he said, sitting up.

"Good morning, beautiful. How did you sleep?" L looked up from his computer.

"Don't 'How did you sleep?' me! Why am I chained to you again?" Light held up his arm and the chains jangled. "Do you still not trust me?"

"It's not that I don't trust you, I just don't trust you." L turned his computer to Light 'Kira returns, and how will L take the return of his greatest enemy?' "I have to take every precaution as the world's greatest detective, no matter how much it hurts."

"Kira's back?" Light asked and L nodded in response, "Are you 100% sure? Is this Kira killing criminals? Can they kill just by looking at someone's face? Do you have any clues as to who they can be? And L, we are getting married this week, and you still don't trust me?

"Yes I'm sure Kira's back, he is only killing criminals, we don't know yet, we have a clue. And I think I would know that we are getting married this week, I can keep track of the days." L said, turning back to his computer and taking a bite of cake from the slice that was sitting on the nightstand next to the bed. Light looked down at his wrist and rubbed under his cuff.

"You didn't answer the last question." Lights voice cracked in the middle of the sentence, making it seem as if he was about to cry.

"Light, look at me," L lifted Lights chin up to look him in the eye. "I am L. Before the Kira investigation I only trusted Watari, I swore that I would never tell anyone that I am L. I swore I would never become close to any other human, let alone marry them. But I have told you who I am, I have let you into my life, I have let you steal my heart, I have trusted you, even once you told me the truth. Now you have to trust me, I know that you aren't Kira anymore. But, the whole world thinks that this is the same Kira as before. I know it isn't but I have to keep the cuffs there until we get more clues."

"We aren't getting married this week, are we?" Light asked, still looking at the man next to him. But L turned his head back to the computer in his lap.

"I don't think so. I'm sorry Light, I've already told everyone we invited and they were understanding. I promise you, once this is over, or dies down a bit, we will get married. Hurry up and get dressed, I've opened up headquarters again."

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At headquarters nobody said anything about the chain connecting Light and L. Light was hoping nobody noticed until he caught Matsuda staring at it. It wasn't that he didn't want to be closer to his boyfriend, he just hated the idea of the man he was about to marry not trusting him. It was awkward, the couple about to be married having issues with trust. Despite that everyone seemed to be on autopilot, as if they just picked up where they left off with the last Kira, him. None of them knew he was the last Kira, it was part of the deal between him and L. There's that word 'deal', he hated that there's now a 'deal' between him and his boyfriend. Like they can't trust each other anymore. Light only said one word to L and that was "sorry", Ryuzaki answered with a nod. He was going crazy in his mind and he desperately wanted to talk to L, but the other man made it clear they weren't going to bring it up at work. So he would wait until they got home. Except, when they got home, L went straight to their office, dragging Light with him. He kept working, all through the night, even when Light fell asleep in the chair next to him. The next morning, Light tried to make waffles to keep L happy. He didn't notice and they both went to work with cold waffles in bags. The day passed by the same as the day before except, when they got home Light tried to talk to L. "You know it's not me, right?"

"I know, I know." L said in a small, voice, scratchy from not speaking much that day.

"Then why am I handcuffed to you again?"

"You don't like being close to the man you're about to marry?"

"I was about to marry you." Light said and immediately wished he could take it back. L stayed silent for a moment, then he began walking to his closet. He dug around through his clothes until he came up with a key. He unlocked the cuff on Light first, then his own.

"There, you're free, I'm sorry I made you change your mind on the wedding, that wasn't my intention." A tear slipped from L's face but he quickly wiped it away. "I didn't want this to happen, you can stop working on the Kira case now, if you wish. I had Watari buy a nice apartment for you downtown, near that sushi place you like. I had a feeling this would happen, but I never imagined it would hurt this bad."

"Lawliet..." Light started, unsure how to fix this.

"Leave, Light. And call me Ryuzaki now." L's voice cut through Light's heart like knife and he backed out of the room, hurt. Obviously Ryuzaki didn't want him around so he grabbed his computer and ran downstairs to leave. He saw Watari by the door with a small suitcase, waiting for him. "How did you know?"

"That man loves you very much, Mr. Yagami. I expect you to fix this before it is too late." The old man handed him the suitcase and Light ran out the door, tears streaming down his face.

The bed seemed too big and empty for L, so he went to the office instead of getting some rest. His emotions powered him and he made it through the night with only one slice of strawberry cake. He decided to lie down for a moment before heading out for headquarters, but sleep tugged at him until he just gave in and closed his eyes.

XxX

Light went to headquarters the next day needing something. A distraction, a change to talk to Ryuzaki, a pep talk from the guys, he didn't know. Ryuzaki never showed up that day, nobody mentioned anything. If Light hadn't fallen in love with that mysterious man everyone would've mentioned that the world's greatest detective was missing, that there were randomly chains connecting two of them. Not even his dad said anything. At least Light could get some work done. He figured that this new Kira was a student based on the killing patterns. Active on the weekends, and only after five on weekdays. Just how he was, once upon a time. It freaked him out how similar this Kira was to him, killing the same type of people at the same times. It must be a coincidence, he told himself. But still....

XxX

L came to headquarters the next day, nobody said anything about his not showing up yesterday. Light kept trying to talk to him but he failed every time. Once everyone left and Light and L we're alone he tried one last time before heading to the apartment. "Ryuzaki, can we talk about this?"

"Talk about what? The case? Because I think this Kira is a lot like how you were when you started killing criminals. Can I go home now?" L stood up to leave.

"Wait, Ryuzaki," Light reaches out and grabbed his hand, not ready to give up on the conversation. "Please, I want to talk about the other day. I didn't mean it like that and I want to fix this."

"You want to fix this, but you didn't think about what it I want. Maybe it's not such a good idea, the killer and the detective married." L dropped Lights hand and starting walking away.

"Wait, it was working before we were working. What changed?"

"We changed, Light, we changed."

XxX

L didn't get any sleep that week, the bed seem too empty and he wouldn't fit on the couch. So he worked all night long. It freaked him out how similar this Kira was to how Light was. As soon as they figured out he was a student, he started killing every hour, on the hour. He couldn't use the case to distract him from Light anymore because every new clue he found reminded him of when Light did that exact thing. At least this time he could predict Kira's next move. So how did he figure out it was Light? He looked into all the family members of the task force, and put cameras in the houses of the families with students. So he looked through the families, and the only one with a child in the age range to be a killer was Yagami. Sayu Yagami. I normally don't feel bad for people but I feel really bad for Mr. Yagami, imagine what it's like to have both your kids be suspected, especially being a cop. Now I have to talk to Light, tell him that his sister is probably Kira. After that hard conversation, I'll have an even harder one; telling Mr. Yagami why he needs to place cameras in his house. Maybe he will put some in Matsuda and Aizawa's houses too, they both have children. I'll place more in the Yagami house because I'm more confident Sayu is Kira. Light. Light. I need Light. He'll help me tell his dad. He can fix this. No. I can't.

XxX

Light loved this apartment but hated it at the same time. He loved the apartment because it was furnished and designed perfectly for him and his needs. But he hated it because the apartment itself is a constant reminder of L. Not that he can do anything without being reminded of his ex, but still. Thinking that L bought this apartment and had it all ready for Light, knowing that they would break up hurts. Or maybe he bought it wanting to break up already but not having the courage. Or maybe he really did suspect Light to be Kira and didn't want to be with the murderous side of him. Or maybe he was just going insane. L bought this as a just in case, not meaning he wanted to break up. But suspecting Light would. But he didn't, he needed L back. So maybe at first neither of them had wanted a break up, but now L did. And if this is what L wanted, then he wouldn't push it.

Ding dong. Light went to open the door and when he did, there was the spindly figure of the world's greatest detective. "Hey, Light, we have to talk."

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