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"Light, I need you to answer one question for me"

'Shit, this is it, I'm screwed' Light thought 'Do I lie? Do I come clean? Crap this is all happening way too fast'

"Yeah, what's the question?" Light asked trying not to look in Ryuzaki's eyes.

"Are you or are you not Kira?"

A moment of silence

"Are you going to arrest me?" Light asked, in a weak, feeble voice, his voice breaking at the end.

"Well, of course I am." Ryuzaki laughed at him. "I am L, the world's greatest detective. And here at my feet is the world's greatest criminal, confessing. All because he thinks I'm in love with him" And he laughed that cold terrible laugh and Light felt his heart break into a million tiny pieces. A tear fell to the floor.

"I trusted you, I trusted you with all of my heart. I would've given up being Kira just to be with you for even one last day. And now look at me, goddammit L, LOOK AT ME!"

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"Light, Light, Light wake up, are you ok?" Ryuzaki shook Light awake and he sat straight up, sweat and tears wetting his face.

"Another nightmare again?"

Light nodded, holding his knees to his chest and rocking his body back and forth.

Ryuzaki pulled Light into his arms "It's ok, I'm right here, everything will be fine. Now tell me in this nightmare were you Kira again?"

"Well yes and no, it wasn't like the other dreams." Light said, voice breaking as he recalled that terrible dream. "You asked if I was Kira and I, well I told you the truth and I asked if you were going to arrest me, just like it happened in real life. But this time instead of saying of course not, you said that you were. That you were going to arrest me and that all this time you were just pretending to love me to get me to confess to being Kira."

"Now, you know I wouldn't do anything like that, I would never hurt you on purpose." Ryuzaki said trying his best to comfort the other man.

"Yeah, I know that but it all seemed so real, and the way you laughed at my pain..." Light shuddered.

"This isn't a way to start a saturday morning off right now is it?" Ryuzaki asked, not expecting an answer. "Now what do you say about forgetting that terrible dream and starting on a fresh case with some homemade french toast?"

"I would like that very much." Light said, smiling and drying his tears

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"Ryuzaki, where's my tie?" Light called out, hurrying to make it to work on time.

"You know, you don't have to call me Ryuzaki all the time, only when we are in public." L said, coming up behind Light and handing him the tie he was looking for.

"Yeah, sorry just a habit I guess" Light said getting himself all ready for work.

"No, it's fine. Hurry up you don't wanna miss work, good luck." Ryuzaki kissed him on the cheek before handing Light his briefcase.

"Ok, I'll see you later then, bye Ryuzaki-I mean- bye L!" Light said as he went out the door.

"Bye Light," Ryuzaki said to the door, "Stay safe."

He headed back to the office to work on this new case but after "solving" the Kira case he can't seem to focus on anything. Not on Light, not on work and definitely not on himself. He wasn't sleeping at all lately and he has been eating too many sweets than usual.

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"Detective Yagami!" Light heard his father, Soichiro Yagami, call out to him. "Good to see you again, son."

"Hello dad, I'm a bit busy right now so you'll have to excuse me, I'll see you for lunch and the meeting though. Bye dad." Light said and walked over to his desk. As soon as he sat down his phone buzzed with a message from L.

Do you want to go have dinner with Matsuda and his wife tonight? -Ryuzaki

Yeah, where's his kid gonna be? -Light

Misa's babysitting him. -Ryuzaki

Poor kid. -Light

Eh, he'll survive and plus, Misa's not that bad. -Ryuzaki

Yes she is and can we have the Misa discussion later? I'm about to head into an important meeting. -Light

Yeah, of course. Good luck, I love you. -Ryuzaki

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"This is great Tsuma, thanks for inviting us." Light said as he put another spoonful of miso soup into his mouth.

"Oh, it's nothing, I'm glad to have people over to cook for, especially with Touta being so busy at work." Tsuma said

"It's not his fault, there are so many new cases that we have to deal with, you would think that with all the criminals dead because of Kira the amount of crime wouldn't be this high." Light said

"Yes, your logic makes sense," Ryuzaki spoke for the first time all evening, "But now with Kira behind bars they can continue with their crimes without having to worry about Kira getting them." He placed his thumb on his lower lip and moved his legs so that he was sitting in his usual position.

"I'll try to be home more often, I can't imagine how much has been going on at home, with the

little one and everything." Matsuda said.

"I can see if I can get my father to give you some more days off if you would like, tell him that you need some family time." Light offered.

"Thank you Light, but I really don't want to bother you, I see my family whenever I see my family and that's good enough." Matsuda said although Light could tell that he really wanted more time at home.

"No, it's really not a problem I'll speak to my father about it tomorrow during my lunch break, I'm sure we can get you more time off." Light said, smiling at his friend.

"Really?" The smile on Matsuda's face widened."That would be wonderful, thank you Light, thank you."

"Anything for a friend." Light said and glanced over at Ryuzaki just in time to see him yawn. "It's getting pretty late, we should get headed back, don't let me forget about getting you that extra time off."

"Ok, see you guys tomorrow, bye Light! Bye Ryuzaki!" Matsuda said as they went out the door.

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Back in the limo Ryuzaki seemed even more nervous than the night of the party. 'What the hell could be troubling him?' Light thought, 'I guess dating a former murderer could make one nervous but he knows that I've given up that part of my life for good. So what could it be?'

As if L could read Lights mind he turned to him and said "Light there has been something I've wanted to ask you for some time now." He fidgeted with something in his pocket.

"Yeah, ok, what is it?" Light asked, very curious but starting to figure out where this was headed.

"Light," Ryuzaki started, he pulled a small blue box out of his pocket to display a silver ring. "Light, will you marry me?"

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