At this time of night I'm usually at home...sleeping or snacking,at this time of night I'm usually watching the usual movies, at this time of night I am usually researching some sort of disease, at this time of night I am usually examining all the faults in my face and figure but at this time of night I am most certainly never driving to a top celebs apartment with his spare key in my pocket! How on earth did my normal and uneventful life take such a sudden turn?!

I looked back into my life over the past few years. I saw my sister and I laughing, I saw the nerdy short haired girl that was me ,standing around waiting for her crush to pass by , I saw my best friend kissing my boyfriend, I saw my parents and I saw myself singing along to one of casters songs whilst thinking about Edward...all of this was completely normal for a girl like me..so how did my life go from perfectly,happily, normal to excitingly, heart breakingly, abnormal? Heart breakingly? I sigh inwardly it would have been easier if I'd remained indifferent to people like Ed and allowed my normal life to go on but at the same time I'd always wanted some spice in my life so that it wouldn't be normal to the point of boring and despite all my indifference I knew that I definetly cared about Edward a lot even though I can't be in love with him.

I pull up in front of the apartment complex and walk in,the same receptionist gives me a smug smile and walks up to me "you must be torn.." she says over sweetly "not really" I answer coolly , she probably assumed I was Ed's secret girlfriend and now was torn by the fact Ed was engaged well too bad for her that kind of drama was not for me. "Just so you know Edward isn't answering his door to anyone! The reporters have been camped out there for two hours and haven't got any response. Edward certainly won't open his door for you only his closest friends are allowed in and if you bang on his door I will have to call security," maybe Ed didn't want to see me. I considered him a close friend to me but maybe he thought otherwise. I thought of leaving but seen the receptionists smug smile I grew increasingly stubborn and angry..but I realised that she was probably just another fan, one thing my mother had taught me was that just because someone acts cruelly towards you doesn't mean you have to act the same , so I controlled myself and smiled gently "don't worry, I'm not going to pull a scene and I am glad to see Edward has such sweet fans. Excuse me but I'll just go up and if he doesn't let me in I'll come back down alright ?" I said she bit her lip and nodded.

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I was standing in front of apartment 281 with my hand raised to knock but never making contact with the wood...what if he really didn't let me in..? I shook my head and took my hand away. Going back after coming all this way would be pointless. I pull out the key I had and place it in the keyhole then uttering a silent prayer I open the door. The lights were all on and I could see the shadows of a bunch of people leaning on the furniture , I made loud footsteps so they would hear and prevent me from the ugly scene of hearing something I wasn't meant to...that was the kind of mood in the room.

  I shut the door noisily and walk in all five heads turn to me and their eyes widen in surprise, I sigh in relief the four others were Hal,Roger, Chris and Luke. I look around "um...hi..?" I say doubtfully "Jenny..? How did you get in?" Ed asks me " I found your spare key from this morning in my pocket and then I saw the ...uh engagement news and got...worried. I'm sorry I didn't mean to barge in ..if you want some privacy then I don't mind going home" I say quickly. Ed smiles gently but for some reason it seems sad. Hal comes over to me and drapes an arm around me "hey Jen! Didn't expect to see you again but I guess you kept in contact with Ed.....now Eddy you have a lot of explaining to do! Like how the heck did you wind up getting engaged to Kate ? And what was Jen doing here this morning?" Hal says half joking..half serious, while steering me towards the couch and forcibly seating me down. Ed frowns at the hand around me.then looks away quickly and sighs angrily "it really isn't a big deal guys! I realised I liked Kate in that way and rushed into the engagement...I didn't expect her to blab to the reporters so soon, that's the only reason I didn't tell you guys..I was going to throw a overnight party and break the news!" Edward grinned and his dimple did show but his eyes didn't laugh with him and his usual cheekiness didn't show up. He was smilingly happily but for some reason I felt confused, it felt as if he was smiling to protect someone ....no matter how sad he was protecting whoever it was made him happy and so he smiled.

       I realised that his friends probably could see through his fake smile easily, but they didn't say a word, instead they looked hesitant and could not seem to make eye contact with Ed but after a few moments their faces also erupted with equally beautiful but equally fake smiles. I realised that I was the only one frowning so quickly grinned and prayed that it didn't looks like a fake grin. "Good for you Ed! Kate is really sweet ! You two would be perfect together," I said the words enthusiastically and my grin was nothing but whole hearted but I felt like my voice sounded distant...like it didn't belong to me, it felt like it belonged to another Jen...yes the Jen who befriended Edward and knew how to smile in the saddest situations, the Jen who grinned when she found her boyfriend kissing her best friend..the Jen who put others before herself when she cared about them too much to lose them, how silly...I thought that that Jen was hurt enough and left me for good..taking away the emotions but leaving the memories...I thought I was over that Jen...I believed she'd dissapeared and yet here she was ..,doing what she always did...spinning lies and praying for someone else's happiness completely forgetting about her own. I looked at Ed and silently cursed him for bringing back the side of my personality that I'd worked hard to get rid of.

         "Do you want some dinner?" Ed asked us. I smiled my answer but the boys frowned at their watches "sorry ....Eddy we have appointments with our own girlfriends! We'll see you later...buuuut Hal..?" Roger drawled whilst the others nodded and muttered apologies ,Hal however grinned "don't worry..I'll keep you two company!" Hal said. I couldn't help but wonder why he didn't have plans with his girlfriend. I voiced my thoughts and Luke slapped Hal on the back "ouch man! That's gotta hurt!" He said only half sympathetically, Hal winced and pretended to punch Luke yelling about how the back slap hurt more. I looked around curiously "Aw Jen..sorry! We're totally enjoying this and not including you! You see Hal dumped his girl...he caught her flirting with her young ,handsome manager...all touchy!" Chris said. Oops! I should not have asked "sorry Hal.." I muttered, Hal only grinned "its okay sweetheart! We were heading to a dead end anyways," Hal says grinning. The other three leave Ed's apartment and Ed switches on the television for Hal and me,I settle on the couch and Hal slings and arm around me,I cuddle easily ...he's so like an older brother to me,warm and sweet...come to think of it,excluding Ed,all the boys from casters were like brothers to me.

        Ed frowned darkly and then quickly said "Jen come on! Help me out in the kitchen!" I looked over my shoulder "are you sureeeee? The last time we tried that you had to renovate the kitchen" I say teasingly, Hal is completely focused on the tele and pays no attention, "come on" Ed says pointing at the kitchen, I mock salute him before leaving the couch. The silence could have been cut with a knife I swear! It wasn't like the last time, all the laughing and fun...this time it was a dreary occasion. Even though it should've been happier ..his engagement and all. But I felt like I was preparing dinner for a house that had just lost someone dear. The silence brought my mind back to the unpleasant reasoning of my heart...I started to wonder why he seemed sad or why the old Jen crept her way back into my life. I thoughtlessly chopped my vegetables and the knife suddenly made contact with my skin making a tiny cut that started spouting blood "ouch!" I exclaimed in pain, Ed's head immediately turned to my direction and grabbed my finger and dragged it towards the water,he held his finger heavily on my own and kept rubbing the spot "what happened?! Why weren't you paying attention? Jen!" Why on earth did he care? I stay silent and let him treat the cut and then without thinking about it I blurt out the question that had been beating me up inside "are you really happy?" I ask quickly ,Ed stopped rubbing my hand as I uttered the words,I felt his entire frame stiffen but he quickly relaxed himself and let go of my hand,he remained quiet for a while before removing his eyes from mine and saying "why do you ask?" Then he brought his eyes back to mine and I saw they were spitting angrily,the unusual grey had darkened and the green had begun to glow I knew that I'd perhaps overstepped my boundaries but oddly the anger in his eyes did not scare me..it made me feel hurt and it made me sure that my suspicions were right so despite myself I continued to push.

         "Your eyes didn't laugh like usual.....and..uh...you were angry just now ," I said,surprise flicked across his expression but dissapeared quickly then he seemed to reluctantly take his eyes from mine and say "your wrong..I am quite happy..Kate is beautiful and kind and she'll gain all the acceptance from my family and she-"

"But do you love her?" I cut in. Ed brought his eyes back to mine and said "yes I love her," I thought I'd feel jealous but I didn't I just felt scared and confused. It shouldn't matter to you a voice taunted me,ignoring it I asked Ed the other thing that was bothering me "why did you not tell me this morning...?" For the first time he looked guilty and I found my temper rising "oh? Its okay! You don't have to tell me! After all I was only here by force I completely understand!" I said angrily glaring at him and pulling myself away from where I was standing near him and turned my back to him whilst furiously chopping my vegetables.Ed grabbed my arm and swung me to face him,the sudden movement caught me by surprise and to hold my balance I didn't pull away instantaneously. Ed backed me onto the kitchen wall and removed his hands from my arms. We were only inche-...no we weren't even inches apart.Ed wasn't pinning me to the wall nor was he in anyway forcing me in that position but for some strange reason I couldn't move...like he was holding me in position...magnetically.

           My shoulders leant against the wall and Ed keant on me,gentle pressure that didn't brutally imprison me but nor did it allow me space to move...or breathe. He was completely holding me in one place without even laying a hand on me. "I didn't tell you...because I felt like it would ruin the happy moments we'd being having" he whispered. I bring my eyes to meet his and he breathes out heavily "why? You can trust me you know" I whisper to him and he closes his eyes for a second. I can't move...but why isn't he moving? For god's sake Ed! Move! I think urgently but he doesn't move a muscle...its like he can't ....just like I can't . "I want to," he says almost to my ear "then do" I respond. Ed edges closer to me ,his lips almost on mine....if he'd come in faster I wouldn't have resisted but as he edged closer than what was even possible a picture of Kate's face and my sister's flash across my mind, unconsciously I moved my face ever so slightly so that if he meant to kiss me on the lips he couldnt. Ed stopped midway and quickly placed his lips on my cheek instead ,even though it was simple non-intimate contact my heart beat escalated ....and I fancied ..so did his...?

     Our faces were the only parts away from each other and even so we were literally glaring at each other "you can move if you want" Ed says softly,I don't reply..in fear that I would betray what I was feeling ,instead I silently curse him for telling me to do what he so clearly did not want to do! "Where's my dinner?!" A loud voice sounded from the kitchen entrance...breaking our trance and causing us to jump apart like...well..like guilty lovers..though that was the furthest thing from what we were. Hopefully Hal didn't notice..if he had he certainly hid it well so I'm going to assume he saw nothing "coming! You impatient lug! If you want it so badly try doing it yourself!" Ed yelled at Hal, regaining his composure before I did.

    Ed looked at me once after that ..in a more than friendly way..just after Hal went to get an apron,he mouthed the words I am sorry before looking away, I went to him quickly and started casually talking with him not wanting to endanger our friendship but all the while I was thinking why is he sorry? One intimate moment and he wants to run in the opposite direction? Am I really that bad ? Inwardly I was begging him to look at me just once more but he didn't meet his eyes to mine even once after. Not during dinner, not during the movie time (at least not that I know of) and not even when Hal hugged me goodnight. Was I really wrong to expect something more than just an 'I'm sorry '?! Well forget it! This is good actually! Now that I get that he is totally not interested I can snuff out any lingering feeling...because really..who needs impossible love?

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No matter what happens I will not let any of my feelings for Edward get in the way of my already complicated enough life! This was what I'd thought to myself as I'd left Edward's apartment that night, I'd been sure that I could even though seeing him almost every day was going to be hard but now nearly a month later and I hadn't seen Edward since. It felt kind of like déjà vu but I'd focused myself only on my studies and of course my work as a doctor and I'd forcefully pushed Ed out of my mind ,I'm now convinced that if I have just one more month like this I would definetly be able to snuff him out of my mind. Admittedly I do still remember him and start longing to talk to him and yes when,in some occasions I can't take it anymore I try calling him but who cares? It always goes to voice mail anyway! So fine! I was a bit angry with him because I knew he was purposely avoiding me,but at least I'd managed to go from desperately in love to just normally stupidly in love. But hey its still better because I think that after all the nonsense it was more of an obsession than a crush. In one month all of it would be over. It'd never taken me more than that to get over anybody.

       I stood outside the hospital, letting my thoughts flow when I heard a loud horn which jolted me back into reality, a blonde head peeped out of the window and gestured to me. I laughed ...Hal,the idiot! I've been meeting with all of the boys,except Ed, almost every other day and by now I'm very fond of the band..I think they like me too. They sort of clique with me ..all of them are so free and genuine..its hard not to like them. I walked over to Hal and learned over his window grinning "what's up?" I asked Hal roles his eyes and starts to say that the cars ceiling is but I cut him off with a sarcastic look to which he laughs "OK OK " he says raising his arms "I came here to give you this " he says,handing me a bronze envelope with my name on it, I give him a confused look and take it from him "what's this?" I ask ,examining the envelope "it's an invitation to what could be one of the most famous parties in modern history," he said dramatically ,I made my mouth into an 'O'  and grinned "and why am I invited to such a thing?" I asked sarcastically "because your friend is going to be hosting it" he answers

"You? Host a party?"

"No...I don't like the mess nor do I have an occasion,"

"Then...?"

"Just read it already Jen! It's Ed.."

"Ohhh" I said. Opening the bronze envelope I pulled out a fancy card and for the few moments that I pretended to read it I think the world stopped turning ...and I was frozen because the over first line read Katherine de Valy and Edward salerd's Engagement party "Jen are you OK? What's wrong? Can't you make it on that day?" Hal asked. No,I could definetly make it but telling him that would lead to him questioning me on why my expression sunk so I simply said that yes I may not be able to but no I will try to clear my schedule. I shouldn't even go to his engagement party...but let's just make it the final test...the test to prove to me that I'd passed my feelings for him away...this party would be my final test.

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   I heard the horn outside my house signalling that Hal was already here. He'd decided to take me because he was currently single and ,well,so was I . "Sis you look beautiful! I bet you'll give all the celebs in there a run for their money!" Meg said excitedly whilst rushing around me excitedly. I'd called her beforehand asking her to help me get ready for the party..honestly it was like senior prom all over again. I smiled at her through my princess mirror and relished the fact that I did look quite beautiful. Megan helped me with a lot of my makeup and even though we applied only very little what we did apply brought out all my facial features and the light even toned orange/pink lipstick gave my look a finishing touch. Meg even smeared body glitter over my collar bones and drew a tiny star at the top of my eye. I was told that the engagement party would be themed after a medieval times ball and so we were all dressed princess style.

      Make up I was good at but hair styling I stunk at..that's where my sister came in..she was a born hairdresser! My black straight hair had been piled at the corner corner top of my head in a shining stylishly messy knot and a few strands had been removed skillfully from the other side and laid artistically on my shoulder. I wore a smoky blue body hugging long dress that I knew brought out my figure and the velvet high heels gave an elegant touch. To make me look like royalty, my sister and I had added a tiara,earrings and bracelet. "Its too bad I can't go but sis you better rock that party! I'm sure you'll be the beauty there! You even have that aura to make everyone look" Meg said prancing around me, I smiled at her "thanks kiddo! Love you!" She grinned and hugged me,then handing me my purse kissed my cheek and took me to the door.

      "He-" Hal started to say and his eyes widened "wow"he said .Meg grinned and elbowed my shoulder (I don't even know how she reached that high. I was afterall wearing high heels!) "Jen...you..look..gorgeous like royalty" Hal said whilst opening the door to the car. I smiled....now all that's left is for me to pass that test with no regrets.

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Edward's P.O.V

Two hours of grinning at people I don't even know...even a superstar gets tired you know! I don't understand why kate had to make such a big deal out of this. She was standing next to me and she looked quite pretty with her brown hair loose and the too tight dress that yes..did bring out her figure but somehow did not enchant. Where were my friends?! I really need some entertainment and the boys from casters were my only hope to that..they were bringing dates but all the same,the only prospect of this night that I looked forward to was seeing my best friends ...and seeing her..no Ed don't think about her now, it was hard enough pulling yourself away from her that night in the kitchen and you haven't stopped thinking about her since! She is dangerous territory ...precise what do you need to look forward to? She is just a normal girl..I wouldn't be surprised if she turned up in stylish jeans..like she'd done during the camp..of course she'd probably come in a dress but ,seriously, she is pretty but it isn't like she's a supermodel ..she would probably look like she always does..still I wonder what she would look like? I sigh inwardly Jen is becoming more and more of a distraction and she can't take up more space than this!

      My phone beeps and I grab it and sigh in relief as I see a message from Luke informing us that they're here, quickly pecking Kate on the cheek I rush off towards the main entrance,thanking god for the break. Luke waves at me and grins,Pers smiles sweetly and Chris and Christie grin,while Roger half salutes me. "What took you so loong??? I was dying!" I whine jokingly. Hal isn't here yet? Where is he?"where's Hal?" I ask and simultaneously my phone beeps..a text from Hal confirms he's here and lost.

        "By the way who's Hal bringing tonight?" I ask Chris "oh? You didn't know? He's bringing Jen...poor girl..I hope she won't be out of place here," Hal was bringing Jen?why would she agree to that?! Are they dating? Ugh! Why do I care?! Kate remember how beautiful your girlfriend looks tonight! And that's just what I did...until Hal showed up with Jen...

       Breathtaking . I couldn't take my eyes of Jen she looked so beautiful. She'd pass of for a celebrity any day. The make up darkened her already dark eyes and her hair lay temptingly on her shoulder. The body glitter on her clavicle was mind blowing and if I'd thought she didn't have a figure before, I stand corrected. She could compete with a supermodel.... and win. I have to look away but I just can't . Jenny smiles at me ,reminding me of just how badly I want to kiss her right now. Reluctantly I tear my eyes from her.

          "Woah Jenny you look beautiful," Luke says going over and giving her a friendly hug. "Yeah..we thought you might feel awkward but I think you'll fit in perfectly ," Chris says kissing her cheek. Jenny smiles and thanks them "woah woah! She's my DATE! Hands off!" Hal yells ,shaking his fist jokingly. Roger immediately goes over and hugs her and Hal shoos him off. Jen  laughs and all her features light up. Great! Now not only her looks but I like the sound of her laugh too?! "Nice to see you Jenny," I say. "Yeah? You too Edward," she says and I can't help but feel that somehow I've hurt her..

Jen's P.O.V

       I expected to feel a tingle at seeing him again..I expected a little happiness..I did not expect to feel such a rush of relief when I saw him. I sigh inwardly and make my way to the drinks table ...he didn't seem too pleased to meet me again, I should've stayed home. I pick up the drink and bring it to my lips realising immediately that it contained alcohol. Normally I wouldn't have drunk it but today I just wanted to clear my head.

"Excuse me miss?" A voice speaks from behind me.

"Yes?"

"I am sorry but I do not recognise you..did you act in a music video or such?" The man asks me. He is tall and large...looks like the kind of guy that supervised a movie. I laugh..he thinks I'm an actress??

"No...no, I'm a doctor actually. I'm friends with the boys in casters," I reply

"Oh? My mistake...prettiest doctor I've ever seen" he chuckles good naturedly "would you like to dance...a pretty girl like you must dance atleast once,"  I smile and take the hand he offers me.

      Victor, that's his name, waltzes me across the floor while I continuously apologise for my two left feet. He, like a father ,guides me easily and even though I am killing his feet, smiles gently. I begin to enjoy myself even if I was still stiff. "May I cut in?" A voice says to Victor "anything for the man of the day" Victor takes a polite bow and my hands ate taken by Ed.

       "I warn you, I am a terrible dancer" Edward puts his hand on waist,takes my palm and pulls me to him "you'll loosen up" he says. The music starts and he guides me swiftly across the dance floor "don't worry..no one us watching..let loose," he whispers catching my eyes in his. Again I stop looking at anything but him..his green eyes. I lose it. My heart hammers in my chest and I feel like we are the only two people on the dance floor. The music makes me sway easily and along the way I forget about everything...except Edward who waltzed me for an impossibly long time.

       When I finally found my tongue all I could say was "its with music this time"

"What is?" He asks me

"The last time we waltzed was in the rain without music," Ed smiles "I didn't notice..that there wasn't any music," the dance became more friendly after that....before it was ..intense.

"You are a terrible dancer.." Ed says with a cheeky smile

"Your a terrible dance partner" I counter

"Pssh! Please! I danced with you that makes me perfect!" He smirks

I kick him hard "ouch!" He exclaims "oh sorry...my foot slipped" I say sarcastically "oh I just bet it did!" He replies and we start to laugh. The music fastens signalling the twist the boy is supposed to make the girl do. Ed grabs my hand and raised it and I spin my skirts flying he catches me and the dance ends. "Thank you" he says, I smirk "for what? Killing your reputation on the dance floor?" He grins "that..and for giving me the most fun I've had tonight"

"Merci monseiur" I say doing an exaggerated theatrical bow.

"Jen wanna dance?" Hal says from behind me. Ed glares at him but says nothing. I take Hal's hand and go to dance floor...its funny...It didn't feel like it had with Ed.

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        The night proceeded after my three dances. I got many more offers, surprisingly . All the boys from Casters had asked me to dance by the end of the last beat. Luke playfully spun me around,Roger tried to salsa me and Chris gave me an entire lesson on the dance floor. I enjoyed my night with the celebs better than I'd hoped.

    I Leaned onto the refreshments table as I chit chatted with the girls who were kindly trying yo make me feel at home. I was laughing at something Peers said and hi-fiveing Christie when our host grabbed the mike "now I believe it's time for the star of this evening to sing us something...Come on Ed!" He yells. Ed,apparently taken by surprise ,playfully shakes his fist at the host and jumps on stage. I applaud him but my hands stop in mud clap.Ed sings your beautiful...the first song of his I'd ever heard.

   I go back to that day when I saw him for the first time. When I was walking home whilst holding back tears after breaking up with my boyfriend. My heart beats faster and faster. Suddenly Ed and I are the only two people in the room. I feel tears brimming and I close my eyes and let his voice engulf me...his song.

     Beside me I hear Kate snap photos and video her fiancé....her fiancé...oh my god..what have I done? How could I have fallen in love with another woman's fiancé?  I waited all these years for real love and now that it has finally come I have to turn my back on it.  Time to face the facts Jenny. I love Edward. I've loved him from the first day I saw him. I made excuses....it was for his fame..then I met him..and I fell all over again. I just like him...no..because if it was just like he wouldn't be able to move me to tears. I shouldn't have come to this party..I shouldn't have! I feel my tears well up and realise that I had to get away. I pull out my phone and pretending to have gotten a call rush out of the room.

     I feel like I'm choking...I feel my heart beating in happiness and I feel myself breaking in sadness. Why him? Why why why? I don't know but it is him...never anybody else. My breath catches as I hold back the silent tears. My mind blacks out and tears are all I can feel "no Jenny tears never got anyone anywhere! Stop it!" But I can't . I hear the grass ruffle behind me...oh god no! I can't let anyone see me in this state! I pick up my skirts and run.

     The estate is so large..it even had a lake. I need to cry..let it all out. I start crying. I remember how I'd felt at the first casters concert. Déjà vu..huh? I laugh at myself...at that time I wanted to die because I could never meet him..now I want to die because I've met him and can't have him. God I am so dum! I should never have let myself fall for him! All his charms,his cheeky smile,his green eyes and wavy hair..the way he laughed even when he was sad,the way he cared for everyone, the way he smiled when he was really happy...everything about him. It couldn't be helped..I've already fallen in love with him.

        Edward do you and I even have a chance? Because if we don't..then I'd really like it if you get out of my head. Because this distraction is absolutely tearing me apart and I don't like it..I'd prefer it if I'd never even seen you stupid your beautiful video, then I'd have been happily out of the Casters  craze until it died out. Seriously I have enough in my plate so get out of my stupid head! I'm sorry ..I know it's not your fault but I needed to vent and what better place than the object of my affection? If you ever read this you won't even know that your the one I'm talking about. So the entire point of this? To tell you that I love you. And that I want  you so much it's tearing me apart. But also to tell you it's impossible and I hate me for falling for you. So until I forget about you...I love you...impossibly.

          I should get away from him..but I don't want to! Who says giving up your love is more memorable?! I want to love him! And I am going to! Even if I know I'll never amount to much..just being by his side...at least that much I want. I won't say anything..I'll keep it to myself until I can get over it. Edward damn you for making me love you!

      I get up from my perch beside the lake and wipe away my tears. I face up to the sky and smile.. I know its not appropriate but I can't help it..I love him..for the first time in my life I'm truly in love...I clasp my hands together and close my eyes I wish I wish I wish upon that star way up high I think silently..repeating a wish line id heard in kindergarten please..if it's the right thing to do ..accept my wish upon a star ..for my star...if its fate..if we have a chance ..I wish I wish I wish...I love you. It may hurt..but I don't want to stop loving him. I don't care if I don't have a chance. My heart is heavy but I feel better than  I had a few weeks ago..when I'd tried to deny my feelings. Now I knew I loved him.. now I was going to have to really forget about my feelings ..he was engaged. Even if it was to end in tragedy I am glaf I fell in love.

      I sigh ... now all that's left is to forget and move on from him. I start to turn back and stop mid way and freeze. Standing not more than a few feet away from me..is Edward...great...here I am trying to forget and he just has to appear!!!

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