Edward's P.O.V

Why does Jen know exactly what to do when I'm feeling like the sun will never come up? I know I shouldn't be feeling anything for her like this but she's amazing. The rain is so cold but this waltz makes me feel warm..Jen makes me feel warm. I want to keep doing this, with her forever. Jen makes me feel ....All the walls I had around me, she seemed to kick them in and stomp into my heart as if she owned it....crazy thing is that I wanted her to. I stop waltzing her and pull her to me I hug her and she let's me, she hugs me back "it's OK whatever happened its not your fault" how did she know me so well? She gently sways her body with mine and the dance starts again...and I allow myself to get engulfed in her..just for a few moments. Then I pull back I look into her dark eyes and I can't help staring, I want to look away but some sort of spell seems to prevent me. Jen looks away first. She takes my hand and gently leads me to her car.

Jen's P.O.V
I didnt say anything ..I just sat there and held his hand, I revved up the heater in the car and waited. He didn't start a conversation either, we just sat there in the dark, his grip on my hand was strong and I squeezed his hand now and then just to let him know I was there. After about half an hour I was starting to get impatient , I knew he didn't want to talk but I also knew that I had to get home and so did he "Edward, it doesn't matter if you don't want to talk but I need to get home and you do too...I know you won't talk to me but at least talk to Kate or the boys or your mom.." Edward's head shot up and he looked at me angrily, I knew I'd said something wrong. He didn't say anything and I found myself getting angry "what?! You can't talk to me yet?! If your angry about something why can't you say something?! What?! Am I that insignificant to you?! That you keep it all bottled up?! Fine don't react! Act like I'm not here ! I've been sitting here squeezing your hand for the past half an hour! The least you can do is say something to me!!" I yelled at him "let go of my hand!" I finished angrily. Yes I am an idiot he came here like this depressed so why couldn't I be comforting? Why did I have to start yelling? You know why...after Cameron said that to you..shut up!! I said pushing away the memories and shivering inwardly. "Jen....you have no idea what you mean to me.." Ed said to me softly, he bent closer to me and brushed a strand of hair from face, his green eyes holding my black ones. My heart skipped a beat...you have no idea what you mean to me..how did he know the perfect thing to say? I didn't know what Cameron said all those years ago and scarred my heart so intensely.

"I'll drive home...my car is down there anyway." Ed said. I looked at him his expression had cleared a little but it bothered me that he still did not open up, he was still hurt. I yanked my hand away from him and started up my car, he stared at me "what are you doing?!" He exclaimed , I revved up the radio and yelled "I am kidnapping you!!" I didn't want him to be alone right now, Edward was staring at me "well?! Got anything to say? Wheres your house?" I challenged. "Third street on the left " he said finally. I don't know how it had happened but his hand had found its way into mine again.

Edward P.O.V

I am so lucky to have found Jen. She is the best friend I could've asked for...friends like the guys in casters and my sister and now Jen. Jen's voice, her smile,her touch and warmth had already lifted my spirits so much. Kidnapping me? Where did she even get these ideas? Well,heck I'd be fine being kidnapped by her.
Jen's P.O.V

I pulled up in front of the luxury apartment complex and couldn't help but stare at the large, well lit building, I was about to get out when Edward tightened his grip on my hand "what's wrong?" I glance at him questioningly "there are always reporters around her, I'll go in first and tell the lobby to let you up," I knew he was right...it would cause a scandal if Ed was seen bringing someone other than his girlfriend into his apartment so I nodded "here's the duplicate key..drop me off and drive away, park your car and walk back here..are you OK with that?" I nodded, usually in the movies this is the scene where the guy gives the girl a quick kiss but as we all know..real life isn't a movie.

Five minutes later I walk in to the apartments exquisite lobby, and ask a brunette lady which apartment Edward owned, she looked at me enviously and gave me an overly sweet smile before telling me his apartment number-281- well look how popular he is! Guess his title as the notorious player holds. I knock once on the door before using my key, it opens with a click and I march in placing the key in my pocket. "Hey" Edward says , now dressed casually, I don't reply..this house..uh..apartment is beautiful ! Everything is modern the bed is coveted in thick white sheets the kitchen is black themed and...well where do I even begin..? Edward is rich..those three words don't even begin to describe how gorgeous all is. Ed smiles at me "you can stop staring now..you'll burn a hole through the ceiling," he exclaims amusedly. I look at him..does he really feel better ? Or is he just pretending "are you feeling better now?" I ask him, he came close to me and took my hands in his,we stood less than a few inches apart.Ed was taller than me but his eyes meet mine easily, his green orbs look straight through me ,the he smiles and says "yes..thanks to you. Thank you Jen ,for staying by me.." his dimple shows and his eyes crinkle ever so slightly, he's smiling for real.

Two hours I've been in Ed's apartment. "Do you want some dinner?" Ed asks me suddenly ,I smile gratefully..I was starving "oui monsieur," I answer playfully "ah. Tu parle francais?" He replies I grin. Ed,I knew spoke fluent French and I felt glad to have something in common "we're having scramble eggs and fried rice..is that alright?" He asks "of course , need some help?" I ask ,truly wanting to help..And feeling completely awkward doing nothing as he cooks. "Can you cut the vegetables and help with the rice?" I get up and throw on an apron and start chopping vegetables. Needless to say the kitchen was an absolute mess by the time we were done...all because Ed and I couldn't resist tossing food at each other as we cooked....and I tried tossing the fried rice in the pan..which ended pretty badly. Of course Ed did it perfectly. After finally finishing we sat opposite each other at the dining table and munched our way through our surprisingly delicious dinner "well now thanks to your help I have to clean up more than I would've if I had gone it alone!" Ed says jokingly "well who asked you to pour water down my shirt?!" I exclaim "it was pretty hilarious...but I seriously didn't expect you to toss the vegetables at me!" We both start laughing. My phone starts to ring but I ignore it,assuming its my sister calling about Edward.

"What time is it?" Ed asks me "a little past midnight..why?" I answer whilst putting on my boots and grabbing my coat, he pulls my coat from me "you can't possibly expect to go driving this late!!" He exclaims "why?" I ask confusedly, its not like I hadn't done it before "no way"he says narrowing his eyes at me "tommorows Saturday ,so you have no work...stay here tonight" I was taken aback by that suggestion "I am not letting you go out this late, you know it can be dangerous...just stay here ..the bed is big enough to take both of us on opposite sides..trust me,you'll be safer here than out there at this time...I don't have any nightclothes for you but one of my pajamas should fit you." Ed seemed adamant on not letting me go out this late,I knew I should say no and risk it out on the road but feel free to blame me ..I wanted to stay overnight. So I nodded and Ed grinned "aww couldn't resist staying overnight huh?" He says laughing I mock pout and say "you know what ?I better go after all!" And make a motion towards the door,he grabs my hand and pulls me towards time so my back crashes into him "I was kidding" he whispers oh yeah staying here was a perfect idea Jen! An inner voice mocks me ,I pull away and laugh as if it didn't affect me at all, "now where are those PJ's?" I ask.

Edward's P.O.V

I'm glad Jen decided to stay for her safety's sake. But I don't like the fact that simple contact like which we'd had a moment ago, had me on the edge of my nerves and on the edge of losing control! What was it about thus girl? I knew she wanted to stay too,even though she would completely deny it. "I feel completely weird," Jen says coming out of my room , I can't help but laugh out loud ,the PJ's are much too big for her the hang off her body loosely ,and her hair is still in that tight pony tail.she makes a funny picture. "Very funny mister!" She yells indignantly,tossing a cushion at me ..I might add that by now I'm laughing like a maniac whilst clutching my stomach. Her cheeks don't blush but its clear that she was embarrassed "don't worry Jen you look nice ... a bit funny but nice." I say,she bites her lip and brings her eyes to meet mine and then smiles gently ...beautifully.

Half an hour later I've switched off the lights and got on to the bed, Jen moves herself to the furthest corner of the bed, obviously feeling awkward about being on the same bed ad a guy. I started up a conversation to try to dissolve the awkwardness ,it worked. Soon we were talking comfortably,whilst facing each other with our heads lying on the pillows, completely comfortable. The conversation however took an unexpected turn.

"Why did you react so strongly when I asked you about your...mom..?" She asks suddenly. I want to turn away and pretend sleepiness..ignore her question but I just can't do that when she's staring me down. "It's...complicated" I answer she immediately looks away and I know that I just caused her to feel very uncomfortable and doubtful and so ,to kill off those uncomfortable feelings, I asked the question that had me most curious all night "what about you? Why did you show relief when I told you that you meant a lot to me?" She stiffens and looks at me "hey you have your secrets..so I'm entitled to have mine.." she says great now I've offended her! "Let's play a game" I say without thinking ,she looks at me and her eyes spark with interest "one where we don't hide from each other so much.." she nods and I smile, if its her..I think I can put my walls down for at least a few minutes "OK then the game goes like this...I get to ask you any question about anything and you have to answer honestly..then you get to do the same" she nods "you start" she says "the same question I asked before," she sighs and brings her eyes to meet mine.

"Years ago ..when I was in college, I met a childhood friend of mine and well..um..I'd always liked this guy romantically and so I took the fact that we were meeting again like fate...I asked him out and he agreed..so we dated for awhile and after about six months I realised I was not really in love with him...I loved him but wasn't in love with him...well I think that was how it was ....I hated myself for so easily growing bored with the whole concept of love..you see I was in love with the idea of love. But I continued to date him..for the companionship alone and I trusted him completely and I made him my first priority because against all my friends I loved him best...one day I caught him cheating on me and when asked I found it had been going on for the entirety of the time we dated.. 'you were always insignificant to me compared to her..I only accepted you because of a stupid bet...at first it was fun but I soon grew bored...I'm sorry Jen I only care for you as a friend' insignificant he said that to me and although I didn't realise it effected me a lot that's why I was glad when you said I meant a lot to you..Ed for some reason I grow bored of people easily..and I hate myself for it. I stayed friends with him after that because the break up didn't hurt me as much as it should have."

The worst kind of people are those who make you hate yourself,that boyfriend of hers was the worst to do that to Jen,why would Jen continue to be friends with him even after what he did? Maybe she still has feelings left for him...am I jealous ?! I can't be..not because of Jen. I wanted to hug her at that moment but I knew that if I did that she'd move away from me so instead I placed my had over hers and laced my fingers and held her palm but she doesn't return the grip.

Jen's P.O.V
I don't know why I'm even telling Ed all of this,keep this up and I might even spill secrets that go even deeper into my past. The thing about people with secrets is that there's always a side of them that wants to talk...that needs to reveal their secrets,no one is an exception. I look at Ed and I can't help but wonder if I'd found just one exception to this rule. But no one can survive alone forever at least one person needs to be their confidante, that's human nature, no matter how strong you are or how timid you are there's always at least one person who you can share your secrets with and not be judged. Sometimes this kind of person doesn't appear for years through your life but when they finally do..it makes them all the more special....what are you thinking Jen? You want to make Ed your confidante? Your special someone? Once he finds out more and more about you he'll start to hate you."your turn" Ed says,I realised just then that Ed's hand was on mine but I couldn't think of a reason to hold him back..I don't want him to pity me...like a rainsoaked puppy of some sorts,so I dont hold him back, instead I shift my body to face him and ask him my question "why did you react so strongly when asked about your mom?" Ed's hand on mine stiffens "a deal is a deal" I remind him he brings his impossibly green grey eyes that somehow show even though the room is dark to meet mine and nods.

"two years ago my mother dissapeared from our lives, my sister and myself moved in with my father and he hated us..for some reason he hated me specially ,a few weeks later I received a letter from my mother telling me that we probably would never meet again and that she wanted me to continue doing what I loved, we weren't famous back then but we were a boy band and my father was the entrepeur of a very big company so we did a few concerts and had a few fans...my father told me I was the reason my mom left..he told me she'd hated me ,at first I didn't believe him but after being told so over and over again I started realising maybe I'd cost her her freedom maybe I was why she left. Georgie,my sister, moved out quickly after getting a job and when I made it big I moved out too but I can't help but think and hate the fact that I may never see my mom again," he looked away from me and my hand automatically gripped his, simultaneously he brought his gaze back to me " your mother didn't hate you," I blurt out "how do you know?" He asks me angrily. I just knew his mom didn't hate him but I needed a reason..

"In her letter she told she wanted you to do the things you love" I say with more confidence

"So?"

"She wouldn't say that to someone she hated Ed...no one can tell another to go on with their life even without them in it if they didn't truly love them,"

Ed remains quiet but his grip tightens on my hand

"And I don't think that the connection between mother and son is so weak ....you...will ...definitely see your mom again..I guarantee it!" I exclaim

Ed places his hand on my cheek and whispers "thank you" then in even more hushed tones he says "that guy who said that to you..was a complete idiot...how could anyone not see just how important you are..?" I close my eyes and smile ...I don't know if I've been able to help Edward but he has definetly helped heal me.

So the solution to those people with secrets...when you find that special someone tell them everything and you'll find a weight being gently taken off your chest.

Edward's P.O.V

Her words...I want to believe them because they fill me with hope. But what am I thinking ...letting her into me so much? Jen is already asleep I untangle my fingers from hers and gently pull her towards me before resting my head in her hair and falling asleep..just for tonight...

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Jen's P.O.V
I wake up in the morning in an unfamiliar room, on an unfamiliar bed but with familiar hands wrapped around me..familiar..? Ed! How the heck did I end up in this position with Edward ?! And how dare I think its familiar?! I wriggle out of his arms ignoring the urge to pretend to be asleep and enjoy the feel of being hugged by him just as I manage to get off the edge of the bed, Ed says groggily "morning" . I probably have morning breath right now ugh! I reply to him and look over my shoulder to catch him staring at me "breakfast?" He asks quickly I was about to reply when my phone starts buzzing..I pick it up and my eyes widen at the caller ID and I stiffen "who is it?" Ed asks ,detecting my reaction "its him" I answer, Ed's eyes widen and seem to reflect anger and....jealousy ? Nah can't be. I answer the call "hi Cameron " I say,happy to talk to him after awhile . We were really good friends now and now that Ed had helped me get over what he said to me I have a feeling I can completely star over with him. "Jen! Hi! I've been calling since yesterday...I'm at this freezing cold airport and I need someone to pick me up!" My eyes widen and I glance at the calender..today was the thirteenth ?! Cameron said that he would come visit us for a few months on the thirteenth "I am so sorry Cam! I'll be right there!" I exclaim. I look at Ed "that was-" I start to say "your ex" he says narrowing his eyes at me. I nod, "I need to get to the airport! I'm sorry Ed" I say whilst grabbing my jeans and rushing into the bathroom.

Edward's P.O.V

Well isn't she in a hurry?! After all he did to her..I can't imagine why she would want to set him again! And why on earth should I care about what she does..am I jealous ?! No way! I absolutely should not care! But despite all of the completely logical thoughts I had in my head I couldn't stop feeling angry at Jen for wanting to meet this guy...and I couldn't help feeling angry at myself for caring...why was I feeling unnecessarily jealous? Snap out of it Ed! But I didn't ..I spent the entire day wondering about Jen and Cam.

Jen's P.O.V

"Do I look okay?" I ask Ed whilst hurriedly brushing my hair. He nods and I bustle about the apartment before grabbing my boots, I'm about to rush out of the door when Ed grabs my arm and pulls me towards him , I look up at him quizzicaly he opens his mouth and closes it again then his eyes harden and he says "go out through the back...dont let any reporters see you," I nod and grin at him I swing myself around to face him and place my hands on his face "thank you Ed...so much for last night " I say and his eyes widen ,then spark but I catch sight of the clock and hastily pull myself away from him and rush out letting go of his hand.

Ten minutes later I see Cameron...its been nearly three years since I saw him last, he doesn't look different ,his dark hair and plain eyes he hasn't grown much taller since I saw him last, I am suprised that my heart doesn't flip when I see him instead I feel indifferent..I silently thank Edward for helping me move on..if nothing was to come out of my impossible feelings for Ed at least I forgot about Cameron..and even after I suppress my feelings for Ed I know old feelings for Cam won't resurface . I walk over to Cam and tap on his shoulder he turns to me and his eyes widen in surprise "Jen...? Is that you..? Wow" I grin, I had lost my nerdy glasses and my hair had grown out since the last time he saw me. He hugs me and I hug him back..no spark...I really was over him.

"So in Africa I was bitten by a poisonous viper! I nearly died! Jen!" Cameron exclaimed, for some reason I sensed he was trying really hard to make me care...but that was just a stupid assumption on my part. I laugh, no tourist dies from poisonous viper bites in Africa so I wasn't really worried "well your alive aren't you? Oh grow up Cam!" I exclaim, I find him to be much like an attention seeking kid,was he always like this? Why on earth did I ever like him? Can continues to rant on and on about his adventures in Africa until we drive to the hotel he'd be staying at." So...?" I say trying to reduce the awkwardness "so..I guess I'll see you later then" I nod "call me" I say before giving him a quick hug and walking towards the car "Jen!" He yells after me and starts running towards me ,he puts his hands around me and hugs me "I am so sorry for what happened all those years ago...." he whispers ...when Ed hugged me I'd felt my entire body come alive but now with Cam I felt nothing..I pulled away gently "I told you didn't I ...I got over that ages ago!we both realised we only liked each other as friends and now look how close we are," I say smiling. Cam edges closer to me and I instinctively pull away. I pat his back and grin "Cameron don't worry about all of our past and let's focus on the present!" A few days ago I would not have been able to say that...but a few days ago I hadn't known Ed or taken him into my confidence .

I waved at Cam and drove away..feeling completely free. When I got home I was surprised to see my sister camped out on my drive way. The moment I got out of the car she came running towards me in tears "E...E...dward's ge-tt-ing married!" Meg wailed. My entire body stiffens and my brain blanks out for a few seconds wait wait! Calm down! Meg made a mistake before I pulled my baby sister and shook her "Meg..I was with Ed this morning you must have made a mistake" Meg shook her head wildly "I cross checked it a million times and now its all over the news!" She wailed showing me her iPod ,I draped my arm round her shoulder and took her inside and forced her to sit on my couch ,then I entered my kitchen and made us both hot chocolate , then I grabbed a bottle of alcohol I had and quickly took a sip..it burnt my throat but it still removed some of the numbness from my body.

Meg and I sat in front of the television as the screen as Edward and Kate's faces filled the screen. The Casanova of the popular boy band casters, is finally settling down with beautiful model and singer Kate..fans you did not see this coming! A reporter boomed through my speakers yes we are incredibly happy Ed and I ,he proposed out of the blue and I of course agreed..we arent getting married immediately but we are going to throw a huge engagement party very soon! Kate gloats to the reporters showing off a large emerald ring, Ed stays quiet just smiling. I feel suddenly very trapped in my living room with those huge speakers booming about a huge marriage ! I mute the television set and sigh, my heart is in my mouth and I'm feeling really scared and ...I feel like I want to cry..."see?!" Meg exclaims why does she sound so distant? I wonder Jen hold it together! You knew this would happen sooner or later! That single thought brings me back to reality and I begin to comfort my sister.

When Meg finally leaves I sink to the ground and fight back tears..DONT CARE! DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO CARE JENNY! I inwardly scream at myself...I was with him last night and this morning ..why didn't he tell me?! I thought he cared! I believe that in those moments I felt more upset about the fact that he didn't care to tell me more than his engagement to Kate . I gathered up my feelings and pretended that I was a seperate person looking at myself from outside my body I laughed at myself for caring so much and after an hour of inwardly slapping myself I forced myself to believe that I was only upset because Ed kept the truth from me even after what I told him about my past and that I was in no way jealous. But I still had this nagging feeling that I needed to talk to him so I flipped open my iPhone and dialled his number ....engaged well how ironic he's engaged and now his number is engaged! I sigh angrily and try his number again ...and again. After fifty six tries I give up and angrily toss myself on the bed,my leg hits the iron rail and I hear a tingle. After a roll of my eyes I placed my hand in my jean pocket ,my hand came out with an unfamiliar object I stare at it not registering it for awhile and then I see it and all of a sudden I realise what it is.....Edward's duplicate room key...

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