They stayed at the park for almost 2 hours, Bella didn't want to play on the playground so they just walked around looking at other people passing by and ducks in the lake. It was calming and peaceful and Isabella loved it. She wanted to stay longer but it was almost lunch time and Emily told her she wanted to stop by the mall to get some things before lunch.

At the mall Emily went to the gap store for a new pair of jeans. As they were walking out of the store Isabella spotted a really big Disney store.
"Oh my god." She said as her eyes widened.

"What?" Emily asked confused.

"Can we go in there? Please?!" Isabella begged with a big smile on her face.

"We sure can" Emily said, as she saw the store, with a big smile on her face at the look of her excited daughter. She couldn't believe how excited Isabella still got every time she saw a Disney store. The kid sure always loved Disney.

Emily felt like they were in that store for hours and Isabella only went home with 2 tsum tsums.
They had lunch at the mall, at KFC. Bella wasn't very excited about lunch time and even tried the 'I'm not hungry right now' thing but Emily wasn't buying it. They got their food and sat down to eat.
Isabella had eaten half of her sandwich and she felt like she was about to throw up. She placed the sandwich down and drank some coke.
Her eyes filled up with tears.

"Bella" Emily said softly when she noticed the girl trying to hold back the tears. Isabella didn't look at her. The girl just suddenly looked so down.
"Let's go home" Emily said standing up and grabbing her bags.
Isabella got up and they went to the car not saying one word.

"Do you promise you'll have dinner?" Emily asked softly as she buckled her seatbelt.

"Yes" Isabella said and rested her head on the window, letting a couple of tears fall. Emily gave Bella's hand a squeeze and began to drive.

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When they got home it was about 2.
Isabella went upstairs to her bedroom without saying a word. She was feeling so tired and so sick of everything.
She liked there and she loved her mother very much but all she wanted was her dad and it was killing her, the fact that she would never have him again.

Emily went to take a shower so she could give Bella some time. When she was done getting dressed she went to Isabella's room to find her daughter laying in bed with a book on her hands.

"Hi" Emily said walking into the bedroom.

Isabella didn't even look at her.

"Are you alright?" She asked sitting on the bed.
All she got was a nod.
"Did you feel like that again when you were eating?" She asked and suddenly Isabella put her book down and got off the bed.
"Honey, where are you going?" Emily asked as Bella walked to her suitcase.

"I'm going to shower" Bella said serious and not looking at her mother.

Emily got up and walked to Bella who grabbed pajamas and tried to go past her mother.
"We need to talk" Emily said blocking the way.

"No we don't." Isabella said serious.

"Just sit down for a second, okay? Just talk to me" Emily said calmly but firm.

"I don't want to talk. Just let it go" Isabella said pissed off pushing Emily to the side so she could pass to get to the bathroom.

"Bella" Emily called as the kid slammed the bathroom door shut.

Emily knew Isabella was holding everything up because she wasn't really talking to anyone. Emily was scared that she didn't know how to deal with all of it. She wished John was there more than ever because she knew John would've known what to do.

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Bella took almost an hour to leave the bathroom. She already had pajamas on even though it was a little over 4pm. She went to her bedroom to find Emily there waiting for her.

"We really need to talk" Emily said serious.

"We actually don't" Isabella said sitting in front of her dresser and picking up a hairbrush. "Mom I know you're worried, okay? But don't be. I'm alright." The little girl said sounding much older than she really was.

"You're not alright, honey. And you know that" Emily said and Isabella didn't even look at her. "I know all of this is scary and its okay if you're upset with me but you can't shut me out. I already told you I'm not letting you do that, Okay?" Emily said.

"I just don't want to talk about anything right now, okay?" Isabella said heading to the door. Emily wasn't sure if she should push it or not, so she stayed silent.

"So do you want to watch a movie or something?" Isabella asked, stopping at the door and staring at Emily.

The girl was really nervous, pretty much about everything.

"Yeah...sure," Emily replied. She didn't want to let it go but decided to try again later.

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As the child scrolled through the TV guide, Emily went over everything in her head.
They sat in silence watching tv till almost 7 when Emily finally said "I'm ordering pizza. So do you want half pepperoni half margherita?"

"Sure. Anything is fine" Isabella said sounding a bit grumpy.

Emily knew at that moment it was going to be a horrible dinner.
She went and ordered the food while Bella just laid on the couch and didn't take her eyes off the tv. Emily set the table and a few minutes later the pizza got there.
"Dinner's here" she called.

Isabella got up and turned the tv off.

"Look. The deal is two slices, got it?" Emily said firmly but smiling at the end.

Isabella sat down and started eating a slice while Emily poured some coke for both of them.

Isabella had eaten just half of the first slice when tears started filling her eyes.
She was thinking about her dad.
She couldn't help it.
Everything she saw there she would always think how much her dad would have loved it and she wanted to know what he thought about her hair and her new bedroom. She wanted pizza nights and movie nights with him again. She just wanted her dad back.

"Hey" Emily sweetly said getting up and sitting next to Bella. "What's wrong?"

"I can't do this" Isabella said looking down.

"Bella, it's pizza you love pizza, honey" Emily said.

"It's not just pizza. It's all of this. I can't do it" Isabella said as the tears were streaming down her cheeks.

Emily hugged her.
"I know it's a lot and I know you're scared but I'm right here" Emily said running her hand on Bella's back.

"I wanna go to bed" Bella said sadly.

"Okay but look" Emily said as she stopped hugging Bella and stared at her eyes. "Tomorrow there'll be no leftovers" She said and Isabella nodded yes.
"I'm serious, alright? I'm not letting you get sick." She said and hugged Bella again.
"Let's go" she said getting up and Bella followed her. When they got to the living room, Emily asked "how about if we stay here for a while longer? It's early still and there's Doctor Who soon" Emily said.

Isabella shook her head no.

"Please" Emily said making a begging face.

"Okay" Bella said still sounding very sad.

Isabella laid down on the big couch and Emily sat at the end of it. About 15 minutes of TV Bella was out.

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After a while Emily found herself lost on the young girl still sleeping next to her. She couldn't deny that Isabella was more like her then she ever realized. It wasn't just the physical features but also the way they both acted and dealt with things was way too similar and that scared her.

Suddenly the peaceful look on Isabella's face seemed to disappear, replaced with one of fear.
"No....please," Isabella mumbled beginning to toss around the couch. "Don't" she cried.

Emily kicked into action right away.
"Bella," the older brunette called out, hoping to pull the girl out of her nightmare, giving the girl a gentle shake.

"Daddy...please...no mommy...." tears began to leak from the girl's closed eyes.

"Bella, wake up," Emily shook harder, the look of distress on the child's face breaking the profiler's heart.

"Ahh" Bella let out a loud scream and opened her eyes. When she felt hands holding her she pushed away not seeing who it was.

"Baby it's me" Emily said.

Isabella looked at her and the tsunami started. She tried covering her face but Emily held her wrists and pulled her into a hug. Isabella was sobbing and shaking so much that Emily pulled her into her lap and hugged her tight.
"it's okay. It was just a bad dream." Emily kept repeating.
Emily tried to talk about the nightmare but Isabella refused. She cried herself to sleep in about 4 minutes. She was so tired.
Emily carried her upstairs and decided to stay on Bella's room with her.

Thankfully that night Isabella didn't have any other bad dreams.