RATED SPG: sexual content ahead!!!

When I said those three words that triggered his real flirt side, he grabbed me closer and kissed me full on my lips. I tasted the alcohol in his mouth. His lips moved as he kissed me, and that's when I kissed him back. I closed my eyes and let myself get drunk even more with his aggressive kisses.

Itinulak niya ako paalis doon sa dance floor. The next thing I knew, nasa loob na kami ng cubicle ng CR. Hindi ko na rin nakita kung nasa pangbabaeng CR ba kami o panglalaki dahil ngayon ko na lang naimulat ang mga mata ko. Ibinaba niya ang takip ng bowl at pinaupo doon habang siya ay nakayuko sa akin.

Naramdaman ko ang mga halik ni Rafael na bumaba sa panga ko, hanggang sa leeg ko. I can't help but to moan because of the feeling that he's giving me. It wasn't foreign to me before because I've been there . . . with Austin.

Napamulat ako ng mga mata sa naalala. Why do I suddenly feel like I am cheating on someone? Like, fuck. I don't even have a boyfriend so to whom will I be cheating, right?

Nakita ko na may kinapa si Rafael sa mga bulsa ng pants niya at napapikit nang mariin sabay mura nang hindi makita ang hinahanap. Tumingin siya sa akin gamit ang mga bigong mata.

"I forgot to bring a condom."

I almost laughed even though it's not even funny. His face is just so disappointed, like he lost from a billion-dollar lottery.

I held his face and kissed him. Maybe, he is right. Maybe someday, I will need his help. That . . . someday, I will use him. Maybe I should get used to his presence.

After we kissed, he parted my legs and stared at it for a while. Itinaas niya ang ibabang parte ng dress ko at ibinaba ang underwear na nandoon. His fingers quickly went inside of it, making me scream as I didn't expect him to act that fast! I thought he would kiss me on my lips again before sliding his fingers inside me!

Napapaliyad ako sa sensasyong ibinibigay niya sa akin kasabay ng mga pagdaing ko. After doing it, he kissed my peak that made my body arched as I moaned louder. Like, he was sending me thousands of feelings and it feels like I am fucking outside the universe.

"R-Raf . . ."

Muli akong napaungol sa ginagawa niya at napapaliyad habang mahigpit kong hawak ang mga kamay niyang mahigpit na nakahawak sa mga legs ko.

I screamed more when I feel like I already reached my climax. He pulled up my underwear back to its place before kissing my lips again. I grabbed a handful of his hair when he kissed me on my neck again, giving me small pleasures. Hindi pa pala siya tapos!

Pumunta ang kamay niya sa likod ko at mabilis na ibinaba ang zipper ng suot ko. He pulled it down and then his mouth quickly sucked one of my boobs, like he was so desperate for me, like he was so hungry for me, while the other was played by his hand.

"This is fucking never enough," he said in between his kisses on my breast. "But I fucking don't do sex without protection . . . so, I'll be contented with this, for now."

Napapaluha ako sa ginagawa niya sa magkabikang dibdib ko. It's been a year since I last felt this way. And it's because of Austin. He made me feel not innocent anymore. He got my virginity at the age of eighteen, but I had no regrets. I love him, and I will give everything for him. I just can't say it because it never feels right.

For me, it never felt so right that I love my best friend way better than what we are.

When he was done sucking both of it, he stood up and unbuckled his belt. He unbuttoned his pants and pulled down its zipper. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at inilagay sa pants niya. His looks are asking me to pull it down and so I did. I saw how turned on his maleness in front of me, Like it's pointing at me since his maleness and I are on the same level. Nakaupo kasi ako sa nakasaradong bowl habang siya ay nakatayo na ngayon.

"Suck it."

Tinanggal ko ang suot niyang boxer at sinunod ang gusto niya. He grabbed a handful of my hair as he guided me to do it. I don't know why I am obeying every command that he is saying, but I hope I am doing it right.

Wala pang ilang segundo ay naririnig ko na ang malulutong na mura niya at ang bahagyang paggalaw ng katawan niya dahil sa ginagawa ko. Napapikit ako sa sarili kong ginagawa sa kan'ya.

Now, this is foreign to me.

I don't know how long it lasted. Narinig ko na lang ang malakas na pag-ungol niya kasabay ng malakas na mura niya. And I think I did it right. He sat in front of me then kissed me on my lips. After that, he looked at me directly into my eyes.

"You really don't have any idea what I feel every time you're with Austin," he said in a serious tone. Unti-unti niyang ibinabalik sa ayos ang suot ko habang nagsasalita. "Jealousy and insecurity is gonna kill me."

Hindi ko alam kung lasing pa ba ako o ano, pero malinaw sa pandinig ko ang mga sinasabi niya, at malinaw din sa alaala ko ang mga nangyayari at nangyari kanina.

"Dumating ako sa point na hiniling kong . . . sana ako na lang si Austin." Napakunot ang noo ko pero hindi ako nagsalita. "He has everything that I don't. He has a happy life, a whole family . . . and he has you. How would I beat him?"

Gusto kong magsalita, pero pinangungunahan ako ng kaba. At hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko. Basta ang alam ko lang, nasasaktan ako sa nakikita kong itsura ni Rafael ngayon. He's different from the Rafael I used to know.

He laughed. "You think I hate him just because I hate him? No. I have reasons why I hate him. Reasons that you wouldn't and never—not in a million years—understand."

Isinuot niya ang underwear and pants niya bago muling umupo sa harap ko, like he's squatting on the floor so that our face will be on the same level.

"Hindi mo alam kung gaanong inggit ang nararamdaman ko kapag magkasama kayo, magkausap at masaya. Vanessa, you are killing me. And the day I found out about the night you shared with him, I was killed twice, I think." He held my face and caressed my cheeks, then looked at me intently in the eyes. "But I don't care. As long as I have you with me here, I know that I will never lose to him."

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko. It just doesn't seem right. Are they in a competition that made them think that I am their trophy?

"And from this day on, you will be the only girl that my eyes will only look at."