Tsuki's POV

Everything black with nothingness, I felt my head only muddled with negative thought as I repeatedly flashback from my past life. It's soo frustrating, extremely entirely frustrating whenever I thought about it.

I keep asking myself in darkness is this my life was going to be? Born to die, without having my time spent at least with my family..my little brother..?God, what did I do to make my life wasted like this...why..why...WHY!?

Is it because of my fault? My fate? OR IS IT BECAUSE THE FAULT OF THE WORLD I'M LIVING IN!?

I'm internally screaming through the space that soon echoes with my shrill voice, I've been holding this feeling way too long, WAY FUCKING TOO LONG!!!

"Your 'long' are mere minuscule in my description."

The euphoric voice abruptly echoes around me, I frantically look around as I was surprised plus unexpected knowing that I'm not alone in this silent space, is that mean....that person has been watching over me like all this time!?

"But the thing you said is a truth, though." She said again. Her voices seem to be everywhere, so I cannot pinpoint where is she.

"What do you mean?" I said nervously. Who is she anyway? A spirit? God?A DEMON!? 0A0''| !?

"You dare call me lowly as DEMON?" There was a hint of anger seeped from that beautiful voice, so scary. "Look up you low creature and tell what am I to you."

I felt a pressure setting on top of myself, even though I know I don't have a real body currently, but this pressure still...making me anxious to another level. I look up slowly to the sky, seeing a huge eye, it beyond bigger than I ever thought...IT WAS MASSIVE THAN HUMANITY EVER IMAGINE!

An eye with long eyelashes that seem to let a rain of starry glitter each time it blinks at me, the iris was color of the amethyst nebula that gleaming beautifully in space. And now it was blinking at me impatiently, I wonder if that eyes also belong to a facial, it does belong to a face right? 

Now I'm sweat dropped spiritually.

"G-g-od, or something?" I stuttered.

That eye suddenly squints as if it was grin at me, I don't know whether it was true or not, but let just play safe first. The same voice giggling and I tell you what, that giggling vibrated through my soul. How badly I want to run right now. TTwTT

"Unfortunately your answer is yet close, yet far. But some random fanatic believer calls me Goddess of Fate."  She said gleefully as suddenly the darkness around me was a sweep and filled the world I was in with galaxy scenery and I realized this galaxy together with endless sparkling stars are actually belong to the hair of that person. I amazed while trailing my eyes at wavy galaxy hair, it so majestic... When my eyes found her face, I can see a maiden face with her skin is jet blue as a sky night but it wasn't gloomy as the stars constellations decorate across her skin. I can't see what her dress, unfortunately, because her...well...size being are already cover all my view sight.

"Previously you were asking what is your fault, isn't?" 

I blink to process at her word then suddenly remember that currently I'm supposed throwing tantrum about blaming on everything, but I don't know who I should blame too. I sigh in defeat and nod, I just feel..this is not fair...or am I just too selfish?

"My you lowly creature, in my opinion, your brilliance way to bright in this darkness. You are too pure to taste that greed yet." 

"Then whose fault is this..? Is it you...? fate?"

The goddess in front of me fell silent with her lips still cast the same smile like before,  out of nowhere I felt something carried me upward as I look down to see a pair of same blue jet palms was open widely beneath me. 

"I supposed my fate are not suit with you to live in that world."

"What world?"

"That world. The world that once called your name, Tsukina."

I look at where her eyes gaze too, and see a blue and green planet, floating in the midst of space according to orbit line. How did I never saw before? The Goddess chuckle at mine reaction and let me float randomly without any direction. 

"That world is not going to take you in anymore, you are an abandoned soul, Tsukina."

"What?" I look up at her.

"That's mean, you will never live or reborn again in the same world anymore. That world must be hating you soo much or maybe so blind." The goddess said with taunting gaze landed on the earth.

Hearing that instantly hit me realization, ahh..now I know who am I supposed to blame too, but, does it worth it?

I don't think so.

My eyes that always filled with tears since I was here, was now replaced with coldness. Should I hate or just ignore? Should I forget it? But..but Shin-chan still living in that world. I cannot just forget him like that...his my precious little brother. The goddess who perhaps hear my wishes suddenly make my view flashing with a bright light that blinding my sight.

As I open my eyes, I was standing in an unknown place while raining downpour heavily. I look around to see many stones crave with many people names, I had to realizes I was standing on cemetery right now. That was spooky to see the dead being myself was walking around here.

Could it be there is my grave somewhere? I walk around aimlessly until I heard a familiar sniffle sounds, those sniffles sound...could it be? I hurried my footsteps to stop far away and see a boy who looks like in teen. I walk slowly at him from behind and I saw he was holding a bouquet of lily in his right hand. 

The youth still sobbing as I can see his shoulder jerk everytime he tries to control the urge to let out a cry. When I finally stood next to him, I can see him clearly. He has baby smooth skin that anyone could envy, short fluffy blonde hair that soo irresistible to rub and pair of..ara, ara, blue eyes that seem puffy red right now.

"Nee-chan, it's been 5 years, sis...even though...five years have passed I still worst at holding this tears...sob" My dearest little brother kneeling in front of my grave that was clean without any offering till he put the lilies. After that, he still continues telling everything with endless tears that still spilled, like he was a little child back then, always eager to share his adventure. But I pretty worried because it still raining and he is still stubborn kneeling on the ground. So maybe I can try to shield him at least?

Like this maybe? I cling myself around him, ara, ara, look how big my little cinnamon roll has been. I heartily laugh, strangely he suddenly stops crying and frantically look around as if he was searching for something. 

"N-nee-chan?"

"..." I was taken a bit, but still did not move from the posture, I don't want my Shin-chan drench in wet after all. Does he know I was here?I guess not. Ara, ara, my cute little one. My pitiful cute little one, I patted his head at the same manner that I once did on him a long time ago.

"It's not good staying so long, Shin-chan."

"You know how worried am I when you sick later on."

"Mother and father will be worried after all." I said bitterly from the last part, still calling them respectfully even though they are the one who ending my life. 

"I DON'T WANT THOSE FUCKERS." Suddenly a 'bleep' coming out from my little cute bun's mouth. 

I was stunt at his word. Good gracious, I'm not the one who teaches him, right?

Wait a second, who is he talking too anyway, I look at him to see my eyes meet with his precious blue one. Is he looking at me or looking through the air? He blinks at me and I blinks back at him. It was such a funny sight that I blurt out in laughter again.

"You could not be seeing me right now, aren't you?" I half-joked while poked his puffy cheeks.

"Nee-chan," He looks at me helplessly. "This is not funny."

"You're right, this is not funny," I said with a serious gaze and that we slowly but surely laughing under this weaken gloomy weather. Sigh, I miss my Shin, I hug him entirely while patted his fluffy hair. He who seems stunt again for a while, hug me back with his face buried in my neck, his warmness envelops over me as I enjoy the temperature of it. And then abruptly, there was bell sound ringing in my ears, my eyes instinctively trail into open split sky that seems to brighten after raining. I can feel my times is running out, Goddess is waiting for me, what impatient one.

"Shin-chan, promise me for few things will you? " I push him as I was cupping his face. Yep, at least I can rest in peace when it was marriage matter. No one can resist this cutie pie.

"Nee-chan..?" He confused at me, he tried to squint it eyes hardly, it sure because I'm getting loose my visible figure, I'm a dead person, a ghost after all.

"It seems you hate mother and father but never forget they are your blood relative, my dear little one."

"They killed you!" Oh, so he knows, is that mean they got arrested? Ara, ara, now I should get this thing seriously. 

"Shin-chan knew?"

He did not answer me back, only replied at me with a painful expression, strange little one, I'm supposed to be the one in pain. Sigh, the bell ringing really fast right now.

" Shin-chan, if you want to redeem something, promise me you will do those rightfully. Don't be like those who choose the dark path or I'm not will be happy." Now I sound like some cons who like to give fortune teller, marvelous. 

"I promise, I won't." 

"Good, " I peck on his tip nose and softly smile. "And lastly,"

I can feel myself being pulled away, so I wrapped my arms around his neck dearly. Wishing at least I can take this remaining warm into my last moment, the rain stopped replaced the sky with clear bright sky.

"Shin-chan, be strong, be happy. My Shin-chan is strong right?" 

"Nee-chan..human are weak, it's impossible..."  He said while buried his head deeper but I won't give up to encourage him.

"You may not realize today but someday, I'm sure someone will say that to you. " I let go of him as I felt myself getting drag away from reality. "I have to go now. "

"No.. Nee-chan!"

Don't be a worrywart, silly.

"I wished for your happiness, my little brother. "

With that, my presence finally erases from this world as I open my eyes to meet the same beautiful lady again.

"Which path are you going to choose, you, a lowly creature not to mention... An abandoned soul?" she said with godly aura gleaming at our surroundings, she's gonna say a cliche part I bet.

"Will you return to nothingness? "A black hole appear and swirling terrifyingly on her left shoulder.

"Or living in another world?" she said calmly as another science fiction phenomena occurrence such as bright white hole twisting the light at her right shoulder.

I gulp at the sight on Goddess' left and felt doubtful seeing the chance of my survival on her right. What's with this choices!? 

Let us see, whether a decision will come at the right hand or the opposite.