I pushed my way thru, and went to my room, closing and locking the door. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now. Jimin could fill them in. I was going to lay here, and stare at the ceiling until morning.

~♡~

JIMIN'S POV

They all looked at me, waiting for some kind of explanation. I took a deep breath, hoping it wasn't going to end up being a long night, because we all really needed to get some sleep.

"What happened Jimin?" Jin asked me, concern lining his face.

I looked at the other three, wondering if they'd tried to get Jungkook to tell them.

"Is Jungkook here?"

RM nodded. "He's in his room. He asked us not to bother him."

"I just wanted to make sure he came home, and wasn't out wandering around somewhere."

"So what happened? Why were he and Laney both crying?" Yoongi questioned, arms crossed over his chest.

I pushed my hair back off my forehead, sighing.

"Apparently, Tae and Kook got Laney into a car with them after the shoot today, and asked her to help them figure out a way to remember her name. She acted like she didn't want them to remember, and Tae questioned her, not understanding why."

"Why is Tae even planning to try to remember her name, if he isn't supposed to be able to?" RM asked, one brow raised.

"So that he can find her."

His mouth opened, then closed. He held up his index finger, brows drawn together.

"He plans to find her?"

"That's what he's been saying since he found out she only has 30 days." I answered, chewing on my thumb nail.

"But she's married. She's 51, and has kids. Why in the name of Namjesus would he want to find her?"

I laughed a little. "You do realize who we're talking about, right? Kim 'Heart of Gold' Taehyung... he knows her reality is anything but happy. He wants to know that she's okay. He wants to be able to check on her, be there for her if she needs someone to talk to. Are we going to judge him for that, or try and make him feel like he shouldn't?"

"You know there's more to it than that Hyung."

The five of us turned collectively to see Jungkook standing at the end of the hallway, looking sad. He came forward, stopping in front of us.

"You know he loves her. He can't stand the thought of losing her." He was looking right at me, his eyes full of pain.

"You're right Kookie, he does love her. But he knows that nothing can come of it. I think he really does just want to keep her in his life, any way that he can, even if it's just friends."

He nodded, looking at the floor, then back up at all of us.

"Ya know, at first, I was all for him trying to find her, and more than willing to help him. But after tonight, after hearing how she feels, and realizing that he loves her, I don't want him to. I don't want to see him sacrifice his own happiness, just to know that she's okay. And that's exactly what he'll do. He'll spend every spare minute he has, checking on her, being there to comfort her, even if it's only thru texts, or a phone call. He'll put his life on hold, because he loves her, and he'll put her needs above his own. You all know it. We can't let him remember her name."

There was silence in the room, because after hearing it, we all realized that Jungkook was right. That is exactly what Tae would do.

Jin looked at him, and asked the question everyone had been wondering.

"Jungkook-ah, why were you crying earlier?"

His big brown eyes glazed over, sparkling as he gazed at all of us.

"Because, love isn't supposed to hurt, it isn't supposed to make you cry. But it always does, and if that's the case, then I want no part of it."

With that, he turned and disappeared back down the hall, the bang of his bedroom door closing sounding very loud in the silence hanging between us.

"What are we going to do?" Hobi finally spoke, looking upset and confused.

Jin took a deep breath, looking  at each one of us before glancing towards the hallway.

"Right now, we aren't going to do anything. We have a music video shoot we need to concentrate on. Tae is going to have to do his best to focus on that, and if anything, we need to help him keep his mind off all of this. I know it'll be hard, with Delaney being right there. But we don't have a choice. Two more days of shooting, and then we can try to figure out how to help him."

We all nodded. Jin was right.

"Oh, and I don't want to see anyone treating Delaney any differently than what you've been since she got here. She is not to blame for any of this. She's as much a victim as Tae is. Am I understood?"

The nods continued, but I felt the need to add something.

"Delaney told Tae that making her wish was a mistake. She said that she never should have done it."

"Well that explains why Tae looks like he's already lost her."

"In a way he has. She doesn't want him to find her, because she loves him, and she knows she can't, not once she is back to her life. She doesn't want to have to pretend she's okay with just being his friend. She'd rather just have her memories, without him being a part of her life in a literal sense."

Namjoon looked thoughtful for a minute before speaking. "She's doing the right thing, for herself and for Taehyung."

"Tae knows he has to let her go. I'm just not sure he's accepted it yet."

Jin looked at me, a determined look on his handsome face. "Well then we are going to have to help him see that accepting it is the only choice he has, and that we'll all be here for him to help him through it."

"I have a feeling that's going to be easier said than done." I said, worrying for my best friend.

DELANEY'S POV

I couldn't sleep. It was midnight, and I was wide awake. I couldn't stop thinking about Taehyung, about how sad and broken he'd looked before I'd walked out of that room, leaving him there with Jimin like I didn't care that my words had hurt him.

But that wasn't true. I cared so much. But I couldn't take away the hurt that I'd caused. I meant what I'd said. I'd made a mistake, making this wish to be here, be with him. It was a mistake, because it was doing nothing but causing pain to him. It wasn't going to get any better. So yes, I did regret making my wish.

But I didn't regret knowing Taehyung. I didn't regret the moments we'd shared. I never would.

Why did I feel like God had abandoned me? I'd seen him twice since I'd been here. Twice in 16 days. Now that I needed him, now that I needed help, answers, advice, where was he?

I suddenly felt an overwhelming need to remember the last conversation I'd had with him since arriving here. There was a voice in my head telling me that my answers would be found in that conversation.

I closed my eyes, thinking back, trying to remember.  I could feel a headache coming on, a dull throbbing pain behind my eyes, and I squeezed them closed tighter. Suddenly, as if someone had pushed play in my brain, I could hear part of that conversation loud and clear. All my thoughts, everything, all playing back to me.

"Taehyung needs you, Laney."

I shook my head, doubtful. Taehyung had so many people who loved him, that I was sure he didn't need me.

"I just don't want him to be hurt. Can't you make it so that he forgets me once the 30 days ends, make it as if I was never here?"

He shook his head. "Taehyung made a wish too, Laney."

"Well I'm sure it had nothing to do with me specifically..."

"It wasn't specific to anyone. Taehyung just wants to be able to help someone, to be someone's reason for not giving up."

I narrowed my eyes, not sure what he meant.

"I don't think I understand. Taehyung helps so many people everyday, just by being himself."

"He does, he is one of the most beautiful people I have ever had the pleasure of creating. He is honorable, pure, and worthy of every bit of love he receives. But he feels like he's failed, as a friend, and as a person."

"But...why? He's the kindest, most considerate person I think I've ever known."

"Taehyung lost a friend not long ago, he took his own life."

I felt my heart twist, and I couldn't imagine the pain that someone must be feeling to cause them to take their own life. 

"He feels guilty. He believes he could have saved his friend, had he only spent more time with him, instead of always being so busy. Since then, he has been making the same wish over and over."

My heart ached for Tae, for the torment I imagined he must be feeling, and I wished I could ease it somehow.

"So how do I fit in?"

"Taehyung  wants to know that he's made a difference in someone's life."

"But he does make a difference...for so many people, every single day."

"I know that, and you know that...and deep down, even Taehyung knows that. But making a difference indirectly isn't the same as helping someone who's right in front of you, someone that you can see, and speak to. Wouldn't you agree?"

I  nodded slowly, still not sure what any of this really had to do with me.

"He knows that as a group, BTS has helped countless people in so many ways. But he wants to be the difference for one person. He wants to know that one persons life has changed because of him, that he's helped them in some way. If he can accomplish that, then he might be able to let go of the guilt he holds over not being able to help his friend."

"Okay, that makes sense. But again, how do I fit in?"

"You are the person whose life will be changed by Taehyung. No matter what the future brings for you, you're life will be better after having known him."

It made sense. How could my life not change for the better. I would have the memories of my time with him forever. But he would have the memories too.  I still worried about him being hurt.

"Okay, I can agree with that, my life has already changed for the better, just by being here with him. But I still don't like the fact that he's going to get hurt."

 "Might I make a suggestion?" His smile brightened, and I felt a glimmer of hope.

"Please."

"Don't forget Laney, that it's up to you if you tell Taehyung why and how you ended up here, and that you only have 30 days."

I nodded, understanding that he was suggesting I tell him.

"If I tell him, then when my 30 days are up and I'm gone, he'll remember that? He'll know why I'm not here anymore?"

"He will. He still won't be able to remember your name, and he will still want to look for you, but he will also know that you didn't have a choice. He won't think that you just left him without a word, and he will eventually realize that he has helped you, and that he has made a difference in your life."

I closed my eyes, sighing deeply.

"If I tell him, he's going to believe me? He won't think I'm crazy and have me fired?"

He chuckled lightly. "Taehyung is a smart boy. I have faith in him."

That didn't tell me if he was going to believe me.

"Laney, you're here because you were unhappy, and you made a wish that you believed would bring you happiness. Have you been happy since being here?"

I smiled, thinking of Tae, and all of them, really. I was happy here.

"Yes, I have."

"Then continue to be happy. Let Taehyung love you. Let him make a difference. Don't stress over what might happen at the end of your time here. Focus on the now. Don't waste your wish. Things have a way of working out just how they're supposed to."

He smiled brightly, and turned, walking towards the door, fading with each step, disappearing into nothing before he actually reached it.

I stared at the door, thinking about what he'd said. Let Taehyung love me? Don't waste my wish? 

Oh my God. Why had I forgotten this conversation? Why had I forgotten that Tae had also made a wish? I had been more focused on the fact that I only had 30 days, and that he was going to be hurt, and had somehow forgotten that I was apparently going to help him get his wish.