hello

I know I haven't updated in a while so here's a few things

1. School started 4 weeks ago? And it's been pretty good! I have very high grades in all of my classes (I hope they stay that way) and I like my teacher pretty well

2. BTS Album dropped yesterday!!! I was awake at 4:30am to watch the MV and it was SO FUCKING GOOD I cried and laughed and screamed, they looked and sounded so good and the album is GREAT. 12/10 good bop

3. Today, a sister of one of my friends (technically my sisters friend) passed away. She had been in the hospital and in surgery this past week, and today during my band class we heard that she died. I didn't personally know her very well, but I knew her sister and it was painful to think about losing someone that close to you. I was in a classroom with a teacher after school with people I was supposed to be having a meeting with. My teacher is an ex-Air Force chief. He looks tough and acts hard but he cares very much about his students, and about other students. He started talking about how her death should affect us. He said that if her death made you conscious of your actions and the love you don't tell others about, then it wasn't in vain. He said that if she had passed so early, she has fulfilled her purpose in life. Maybe her purpose was to touch and influence one person who would touch a thousand people. We'll never know.

It made me think of how many people we take for granted. I always try and let my friends know I love them dearly, and I hope they love me in return. I always put forth effort to let people know how much they mean to me and everyone else and how important they are. It made me think about how it would feel to lose someone that was very very close to me, and it physically hurt to imagine that pain.

My love and prayer go out to this girls family, who has lost so much in the last couple of years.

My final note is one that may be redundant and overused: do what you want to do with your life. fulfill your purpose. tell the person you love you love them, because you never know when that chance could be taken from you.