[JAMES POV]

We're in a steak n shake parking lot, I look at him "Really?" He laughed. " It's cheap, come on James. My treat" I looked at him, I'm spending time with Jordan alone and he's paying for me. "Well I'm not gonna pass an oppurtunity like this. " I smiled at him, I want to kiss him so bad. We left the car and went inside the restaurant, we order and eat there, we were talking and I just, I felt so much better. We told eachother how many stupid comments we get, we laugh it out, then we were ready to leave. I felt so empty because I know if we leave we will just go our seperate ways. Once we got in the car we just sat there for a moment "Um, lets go watch a movie." Jordan said while starting his car and backing up. "What?" I was literally so confused, what is happening right now? "Can't I just hang out with you? The last time we hanged out was when- um, yeah." I smiled at him, "Sure." We went to the Alamo and got tickets at sat down, "Jordan we just ate-" He cut me off to defend himself. "It's just candy James." He giggled, and stuffed a few in his mouth. I stared at him for a bit, he looked at me. "Can I have some?" I asked. He laughed and gave me a handful, the movie started and we watched. I felt that i got a text, after the movie I'll check. Not now, Jordan is being a cute idiot. Once the movie was over I checked my phone, it was Seamus.

SEAMUS╘[◉﹃◉]╕:"So how are you doing? I got a text from Aleks that you were acting a bit off today."

Uh, how do I respond to this?

JAMES:"Uh yeah, I was feeling pretty awful in the morning but now I'm okay. Btw, I'm hanging out with Jordan ;)"

Jordan leaned close to me, "Who ya texting?" He laughed when I jumped and hid my phone, "Okay you don't have to tell me." He went on ahead. I sighed in relief, my phone vibrated.

SEAMUS╘[◉﹃◉]╕: "Ohhhhh, you finally asked him out,huh? Well now I owe Sly twenty bucks."

Oh, yeah. Forgot that he figured it out. Fucking Sly

JAMES: "No he asked me to hang out with him, it feels like a date though. But I know it's not."

I followed Jordan to the car, the realization of reality hit me, hard. Jordan is not my boyfriend, this is not a date. We are just friends, hanging out. Jordan smiled at me when I entered the car, I smlied back. He gave a concern look, "What?" I asked. He shrugged, his face was full of worry. "Who- uh. Who where you talking to? Because you look a little. Well, VERY upset." I tensed up, he could see it. "Oh uh-" my phone vibrated, I looked at Jordan. He was slightly glaring, I grabbed my phone slowly and read the text.

SEAMUS╘[◉﹃◉]╕:"James, please don't put yourself down like that. He'll realize that everything he ever wanted was right in front of him. You just gotta try."

I smiled lightly, I could feel Jordan leaning in. I looked at him, he smiled at me. "Heh, um." He moved back, "It's just Seamus, don't worry about it." He still looked at me with worry,He started the car and we drove off. I got another text.

SEAMUS╘[◉﹃◉]╕: Sorry, that was fucking cheesy.

JAMES: Nah, it's cool. Thanks for texting me Seamus, I feel a lot better.

SEAMUS╘[◉﹃◉]╕: Do I hear a little bit of sarcasm James?

JAMES: Wow.

I locked my phone and stared out the window, I didnt realize but music was playing.

"I keep on trying to let you go
Dying to let you know
How I'm getting on
I didn't cry when you left at first
But now that you're dead it hurts
This time I gotta know
Where did my daddy go?
I'm not entirely here
Half of me has disappeared."

I squeezed my stomach, that loneliness feeling came. But i'm with Jordan, why am I feeling like this? Oh because I'm not WITH Jordan. I could feel Jordan staring at me.

"You ask me what I'm thinking about
I tell you that I'm thinking about
Whatever you're thinking about
Tell me something that I'll forget
And you might have to tell me again
It's crazy what you do for a friend."

"James." Jordan's voice broke the silence, it was stern and calm. It's scary and sexy. I looked at him and bit my bottom lip, "Is something wrong? Is something or someone bothering you? Please tell me." I didn't answer, but if i don't answer then he'll never stop bugging me about it. "It's nothing Jordan. I just had a crappy morning." He looked at me, "Okay but if you need someone to talk too, face to face, not texting." He said while pointing to my phone. "Im always here okay James?" I looked at him and just nodded. We arrived at the office, fucking dreadful. We didn't talk when we entered, I felt sick, knowing me and Jordan will never be the way I want it makes the feelling of nothing stronger. We opened the door and saw intern Joe with artist Joe. "Jamesy and Jor-Jor!" Joe smiled and waved at us. I smiled and walked away while Jordan helped them on whatever they were doing. I sat at my desk and yawned, we spent the whole day laughing then it ended on a serious note. I just want to sleep.

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