taehyung pov

I love jungkook

But

he doesn't love me

jin loves me

But

I don't love jin

Yet...

Why does life have to be so fuckin complicated. Why can't we live in a world filled with pikachus, ponytas, & jigglypuffs but no we have to be stuck in a world filled with no pokemons and lots of heart breaks

Speaking of heart breaks, the boy who broke mine is right next to me

yoongi told me we were going to hang out, which obviously was a lie since he is no where to be seen and jungkook is actually the one taking me to an unknown place. Could be Hogwarts but I shouldn't get my hopes up.

I shifted in my seat uncomfortably

he didn't even put music on making it completely silent in the car, only the sound of our breath was filling the air.

Having enough of the silent atmosphere, I grabbed a hold of the deserted aux cord and plugged it in my phone.

Suddenly the pokemon theme song blasted throughout the car, I sang along, not messing a single word.

" hell no, we are not listening to this shit " he yanked my phone and threw it onto my lap.

rude asshole

I pouted and crossed my arms
" jin would of let me "

" well I'm not jin and stop making that ugly face "

I sighed and sunk myself deeper into the car seat.

I just need to wait until I get my ice cream then I can go home

___

" this isn't the ice cream shop " I pouted and stomped around in circles, professional releasing all my emotions out.

" stop being a fuckin kid " he yanked my arm and dragged me into the small café

Once we enter the smell of coffee hit my face, there was variations of coffee flavor swirling around the air that it was like I was overdosing just by breathing the air.

I followed behind jungkook, he began to order our drinks without even my consent on what I want. I was about to say something but the order was already placed.

We sat near a window and waited quietly for our order to arrive. My eyes were focused on nothing else but my black converse. I didn't want to look at him at all. I fiddled with my fingers, trying to pass the time.

" sorry "

" huh? " I looked up, his eyes were already locked on me

He was about to say something else but a young lady interrupted, handing each of us our drinks

I took a sip of my drink and being the clumsy person I am, I burned my tongue in the process. I could feel my face turn red, my cheeks were burning and I honestly felt so embarrassed. I kept my head down trying to calm myself down.

" you're a complete idiot, can't you do anything right alien? "

I flinched at the name

Alien..

Everyone use to call me that when I was younger. I still remember all the 'accidental' trips, push, yanks, punch, and kicks the others would cause. They given me the name alien, not for my unique smile and behavior many adore now. No. They labeled me alien for my lack of normal they claimed they disliked. For my weird behavior of talking to animals, specifically the chirping birds. But the main reason they called me alien was because they have claimed I don't belong here, that no one wants me here. And I believed them

After I met jungkook all the name calling stopped. He would beat up anyone who dare say the word 'alien' to my face. And he made me believe they were wrong.

But now he's the one who speaks that word

no

this jungkook speaks it, not my jungkook

" anyways I'm sorry "
" so yeah "

After we finished our drinks he took me to a small carnival.

I was bouncing throughout the whole thing, going to each tent to see what game was provided. I didn't win any game resulting to my arms being empty with no stuff teddy bear. jungkook was laughing throughout the whole game, saying that I suck and that I throw like a girl.

Although he was making fun of me the whole day, I still had fun. I just wish I could of spent it with my kookie. My kookie would of won me all the stuff animals I wanted, go to all the rides that sparked an interest in me, and buy me so much cotton candy. We would eat the cotton candy together, some would accidentally stick to my face and he would peck it off.

I miss him

I suddenly had the argue to go to the bathroom, it had to do with the 5 bottles of water I drank. I quickly excuse myself, particularly running to the nearest bathroom.

When I finished doing my business I went back to the spot I have told jungkook to wait for me but he wasn't there. I started looking for him, which I honestly didn't feel like doing but he's my ride so the scavenger hunt begins.

It took awhile until I suddenly spotted him

But

He wasn't alone.

He was with a very pretty girl. Her black shiny hair nicely tuck behind her ears, contrasting so will with her smooth pale skin, and her eyes were very pretty, her eye lashes flickered as they eyed jungkook

Their lips were connected

she slowly closed her eyes, arms circling jungkook's neck as they went deeper into the kiss. jungkook held her securely in place, both hands glued to her waist.

I abandoned the scene as fast as I could and hid behind a tent. I buried my head in my arms. The tears wouldn't stop. They kept flowing down, each tear brought a light sting to my heart. Each tear blinded me from the world around me. Each tear reminded me that my life will never be the same.

I don't want to feel like this anymore. I no longer want my eyes painted red, all puffed up against my skin. I no longer want to know the sensation of wet substance drizzling down my face. I just want all of this pain to disappear.

And to think I thought this small date would change the way this jungkook looks at me, hoping to find a small glimpse of my jungkook in him but it never happened and I was an idiot for believing such miracle could occur.

jungkook doesn't need me in his life. He can go along just fine without me

So I have to go on with my own life without him

___

" there you are I was-

" take me home "

" huh? "

" I said take me home!! "

" what the fuck is wrong with you?! Why the fuck are you yelling?! "

" I want you to take me home! I want jin! "

I could sense all the wondering eyes on us, watching as the scene unravels in front of them. I bet they can see how broken I am. How lost I am. And how small I feel.

I held my head down, avoiding jungkook's gaze on me. His index finger suddenly came up to me, lifting my head up by the chin.

" were you crying? "

I advert my gaze, avoiding my eyes staying on him longer then it should. If it would to stay focused on him for more then 5 seconds I would snap and cling onto him.

But that's something I can't do

" j-just take me home "

jungkook finally took me home, not asking a single question of my suddenly outburst. The car was once again silent just like early before but I no longer find it uncomfortable, I find it actually comforting.

Once I got home I wobbled my way upstairs, talking off my shoes on the way.

When I finally arrived to my room jin was laid on his bed, reading some sort of cook book.

The moment I saw his face I couldn't hold my tears back, I ran to him. We both collided, falling down on his soft bed together.

" tae baby what's wro- DID THAT FUCKIN BUNNY TOOTH BOY TOUCH YOU!! "

I simply shook my head, knowing very well that if tried to answer my mouth would fail me.

" then what happen baby? "

I didn't say a word.

I placed myself in the crook of his neck, fitting perfectly like a puzzle pieces. He smelled like strawberries, he probably used my shampoo but he smelled to good for me to even care.

His warm fingers lingered throughout my hair, combing it so gently that it brought me warmth. Warmth that I was lacking just awhile ago. Warmth that I thought I lost for good.

I sighed of relief, feeling the warmth radiate through my body

" j-jin can i-i sleep with you t-today "

" of course you can, anything you want I'll do it for you tae "

He softly whip the remain tears that were stuck to my face. He then pecked my forehead, resting his chin softly on my head in the end.

We laid there in complete silent, bodies all tangled up with each other. Arms circling one another. Minds focused on only the heat of each other.

" j-jin? "

" hmm? "

" will you be my boyfriend? "

~~

Boom
This is what happened
Kookie going to have to work hard to win back tae.