I'm pretty sure all people suffered from depression, even Seokjin, amirite? Haha. People can be pessimistic too, indirectly. If you're one hell of a visionary then you'd understand.

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Jagiya! You never know how happy I am, when you finally answered me. Its been a couple of months already and I have decided to ask you to finally be mine. And I succeeded! It was the happiest day of my life. Happiest day of my life so far though. I bet when I marry you, that'd be the best day of my life.

But it doesn't really matter, don't you think? What matters is that you're always there and I'm always here. And what matters the most is how we love each other.

Happiness? You know it's always been you, Ami. You whom is always there for me, specially when I needed someone to lean on. You were a really good friend from the start (and cute at that). I didn't think it would reach up to a point wherein we'll both love each other. You were so close yet so far back then. I thought we wouldn't even get along. The moment we first talked, I thought it would turn out awkward. But no. I was wrong. It wasn't boring at all. It wasn't a 'nonversation'. Everything made sense. The words we released feels something different. I thought it could've been just me.

But no, it was us. Our love sparks from the start. You then, started taking care of me, even virtually. I felt love and care. Someone whose deeply concerned about your physical health, that was sweet. I appreciate all of the things you said and clearly it motivated me to continue living.

You know how 'depressed' I am and the fact that my time's always been occupied. But you were there. You've always waited for me, no matter how long. No matter how many hours, or days, or even weeks. You are always there to support me. Help me in any way you can.

It seems too good to be true because you seem so perfect in every way.

You were everything I could ask for. That's the point wherein I realized, I've fallen in love. Though I feel the hopelessness.

"Who'd want someone like me? Yes, I do have the looks but, what if she didn't like the pessimistic me? My personality?" I'd ask myself.

And you are in love with someone too. I don't want to ruin such relationship. It hurts, but I don't have the right to do anything. I was too late to realize it all. I was too dumbfounded that time. But something keeps on telling me to 'not give up', either way. I kept my hopes up high evem though it was quite impossible.

And it led us to what we are now, Ami. It was too good to be true indeed but it is the truth. The unexplainable feeling the moment you answered 'yes', it was nostalgic. It was perfect. We've been through a lot of hardships together but I wouldn't mind if it is you.

I would spend all the time, just staring deep into those beautiful eyes that seemed like heaven.

I just wanted to say that I'm the luckiest man living on this planet for having someone like you.

I love you, Ami.