As requested part two!

I WAS DESPERATE for an answer, how could he just break up with me and act like we weren't in love just last week? Nothing was adding up and I was going crazy I needed to know why he ended things, I needed some sort of closure.

I sigh heavily raking my hands through my hair, another restless night. Ever since seeing him at the country club I haven't stopped wondering why he did it with no explanation. I hadn't gotten a whole night sleep in a week and I was paying for it, dark under eye circles had become a normal, as well as my puffy cheeks from all of the crying I had been doing. After a years relationship and no closure as to why it ended had effected me mentally. It made me wonder if he was going through the same as me. Probably not knowing he was the one to do the deed.

I huffed as I rolled over, flipping the pillow to the cold side. I sat staring at the wall for a good fifteen minutes before tearing the sheets off of my body and  grabbing a hoodie from my closet. I was going to get closure.

Anxiety was pumping through my veins as I grabbed my car keys sneakily off of the kitchen counter and crept out of the door. It was three, maybe four in the morning? Not that I cared, I wasn't going to get any sleep anytime soon and any sympathy for Rafe was gone out of the door. If he was going to breakup with me with no explanation I believe I am completely obligated to wake him up at four in the morning demanding he give me an answer.

I drove five minutes down the street watching as the big houses looked eerily empty at the early hour. I shivered pulling my sleeves down to cover my cold hands. The thing about living in the outer banks was that in the sunlight it was scorching hot and in the night time it was freezing cold, talk about unfair. I park my car just at the end of the Cameron's drive way, "here goes nothing," I whisper to myself as i clamber out of the car.

I had snuck into Rafes room plenty of times before to the point where I knew exactly how to get to him. I climb up from one of the patio tables onto the roof shimming across until I reach his window. I tossed between knocking on his window and waking him or climbing straight in to wake him. Fuck it.

I pull the window open, thankful that's it was unlocked and silently close it behind me. Rafe stirs in his sleep from the gust of cold air. He looked so innocent and I couldn't help but want to climb into bed and cuddle him like I used to. I sighed walking over to his bed and shaking him softly. He stirred a little more before him eyes flickered open. They flew to me instantly as he sat up in bed, placing his hand on his heart. "Jesus y/n you scared me." I held my laugh in at his relieved face, I had to be serious.

Realization struck him as he quickly grabbed my arm "you can't be here," he tries ushering me out pulling me back towards the window. I snatched my arm away from him. "Are you kidding me Rafe, no I've had enough," I looked up at him, he was breathing heavily and the same terrified look from that night was creeping onto his face. "Please just tell me why you ended it." I begged, tears beginning to brim my eyes.

"It was me not you-"

"Don't give me that half ass bullshit Rafe, I just want to know god please." I cut him off wiping at my tears angrily, I had come here for closure and all he was doing was giving me stupid lies.

"I can't," He sighed tugging at the ends on his bed hair in frustration "you'll hate me and never look at me the same."

My heart dropped, he cheated on me was all that was going through my head. I scoffed "who's the girl."

Confusion took over his face as his eyebrows scrunched together "wha- no there isn't another girl I didn't cheat on you." He sighed, rubbing his tired face.

Relief suddenly washed over me "Then what did you do Rafe?" I whispered. He looked at my torn face sadly before pulling me back towards the bed sitting down beside one another.

"I regret what I did so much, god y/n if I could take it all back I would, i-it haunts me everyday and I can't sleep and," tears were falling down his cheeks as he wiped them away, one after the other. I wanted to comfort him but I had to keep my ground, other wise I know he would slip his way out of it.

"John B didn't kill Sheriff Peterkin," he croaked, his throat running dry from all of the tears "I-I shot her, she was trying to arrest my dad and all I wanted to do was make him proud of me, I just wanted him to see that I wasn't a useless piece of shit but," he drifts off choking back more tears.

I cover my mouth in horror, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably, he did it. My boyfriend, Rafe Cameron killed Sheriff Peterkin.

Rafe didn't look at me, he didn't dare see what my reaction was as I silently broke. I wanted to hate him, I wanted to walk out of the door and yell at him for taking someone out of this world, for ruining John Bs life and for being a monster. But I couldn't, I loved him before and I still love him now. As much as I wanted all of feelings for him to vanish I couldn't. The Rafe I knew could be violent at times, sure but he just wanted his dad to love him and that broke my heart.

We sat in silence as I processed every word he said "I didn't mean to kill her I just wanted to save my dad." He silently stared at the floor as the tears ran down his face. The same fear in his eyes were swirling pools of darkness. I could tell he regretted it with everything in him. "I'd rather have my dad not love me then you not loving me," He laughed coldly  "I ruined everything."

I shook my head, catching his eye. He looked over at me for the first time, he looked as if he was terrified of my reaction. "Are you scared of me, do you think I'm a monster." He sobbed searching every bit of my features.

I shook my head again, no I wasn't scared of him. "I know you have a good heart Rafe, you've been through so much in your life something like this was bound to happen, I just wish i was there to save you," I spoke truthfully "god I'm still in love with you, I want to be mad at you but I'm not." It was now my turn to laugh coldly and wait for his answer.

"You don't deserve m-" I cut him off shaking my head and holding my hand up in a stop position "no, you don't get to decide what I deserve."

"Y/n I-"

"Rafe I'm in love you okay don't you get it? I can't go from being madly in love with you to hating your guts, so let's just live in the moment and spend what little time we have together." I shrugged wiping at the numb tears slowly falling down my cheeks.

Rafe hesitantly leaned in lifting my face by my chin, our lips connected as he kissed me softly and hungrily, as if it was our last. Our tears merged together tasting salt on my tongue. Rafe deepened the kiss pushing his tongue into my mouth with desire. I bit his bottom lip causing a groan from the back of his throat to escape.

I pull back gasping for air, my lips tingling from his touch. He smiled pulling my by the waist under his covers. The warmth instantly consumed my small frame as he laid his arm over me, spooning me as he played softly with my hair.

"I missed you." I whispered softly closing my eyes and listening to the sound of his heartbeat.

"I missed you more." He whispered back kissing the back of my neck.

My eyes slowly grow heavy, pulling me into a deep sleep, the first time I had been able to fall asleep in a week.