alright so i haven't made a vent chapter in some time now so you knew this was coming whoops

i'm trying to stay positive and everything and i'm trying to do everything right but every time i make a mistake it feels like i'm stabbed and all my efforts go away and i just??? what's the point then???

hhhhh i've given up on so many things that i used to care a lot about and now i'm sad because i still do care about them i just don't have any motivation to keep them up sad

i keep telling myself to do things but i keep forgetting literally everything like??? brain pls

that's it for now thanks for listening lmao

good news: i'm on a winning streak in ow, i got my hair trimmed, mom bought me a beautiful crown, mom hasn't seen me cry yet, only going to flunk one test this week (hopefully), slowly getting my novel ready

alright, goodnight!