i didn't want to talk about this because i've been crying for the past two days but, i feel like i should. tw for suicide.

if any of you did not know, which i would be surprised if you didn't, linkin park is one of my favorite bands of all time. they were the band that got me into music, and have been consistently making amazing music since day one. chester bennington is the voice that got me through my preteen and early teen years, and even today pushes me to go forward.

and now he's gone. 

chester bennington took his own life yesterday on july 20th, 2017, what would've been chris cornell's 53rd birthday. chester was 41.  

despite not knowing him personally, it impacted me really fucking hard. chester was and still continues to be one of my biggest inspirations in life. and i'm pissed off.

no, not because he killed himself. that's not why i'm pissed off. i'm fucking peeved because people think it's okay in this time of mourning and grief to make memes about a person's fucking death just because they didn't like the fucking music they put out. 

"i can't believe chester bennington killed himself after hearing his own record" shut the FUCK up chester bennington killed himself because of people like you who are ignorant and ignored his fucking cries for help. you know heavy? the song everyone fucking hated? it sounds like such a fucking cry for help and i want to fucking answer that cry but i can't. 

also, call out to the people who said shit like "wow i can't believe chester's gone he was such a big twenty one pilots fan." yeah. people fucking say that shit. that's completely undermining everything he's ever done. chester bennington was a rock/metal legend.  you will NEVER find anyone like chester, that person just doesn't fucking exist. chester bennington was a father of six, a husband, and a legend. and he will be dearly fucking missed. 

a lot of this is really jumbled and doesn't make sense but i dont fucking care i'll probably end up deleting it anyway because it can't completely comprehend my own thoughts. 

r.i.p. chester. 1976-2017. keep rocking on.