Mark's Pov..........

I felt disgusted, I wanted to throw myself off a bridge. How could Winwin do that? I fucking trusted him. This how I must have made my innocent 15 year old best friend right? I hated my self and a part if me knew I deserved all this. You gain what you saw right.

"Donghyuck did not deserve this." I punched the bathroom window, slicing all those ugly disgusting hickeys that bitch of a Chinese put on my body.

I honestly felt nothing, I made up mind. Winwin was really going get killed. And then with that I'm leaving Donghyuck for good. He doesnt have to look at a rapiest like me who ruined his whole life. Let Sarang stay with her mother, thats where she'd grow into a good citizen.

"D-Daddy you smell weird." My daughter yawned from her sleep when I walked out the bathroom with dripping blood and black hoodie.

"Go back to sleep baby." I smiled at her as I my room.

"Mark!? What are you doing!?" Donghyucks voice from the kitchen stopped me from my tracks. He's seen the blood, I washed it but I guess I must have cut a vein.

He fussed around me and pulled my hoodie away staring at me horrifingly. He looked up at me with brimming tears, a stubby finger on one off the cuts on my neck. Thats it, He immidiatly called Jaehyun. I gritted my teeth loosing my mind.

"Why are you doing this!? Why do you care!? Now I know what I made you feel, how it felt to loose trust on a person I trusted. Leave me alone. Go!! Never come back!! You deserve to live or see your rapiest for the rest off your life. Get married, have children and live Haechan!!" I pushed him away from touching me, he was too pure and precious to be tainted by a monster like me.

"S-Shut up!! You arent a rapiest stupid. Shut it!!" He slapped me, his tears falling in fat blobs of water. "Whats wrong with you!!! Winwin did nothing to you!! Stop being like this, Like how I was when you did that to me!" Donghyuck then caressed my bruised cheek falling on his knees as he started crying into his palms. I turned away walking to the door but before I could open it I felt dizzy.

"Woah Mark!!" Jaehyun walked through the door opening it and held me just in time before I fell.

"H-He's behaving just how I did. I'm scard hyung." I heard him say.

"Relax he'll be fine soon. Its just the trauma thats affecting him." Jaehyun sat up from the bed, the weight lighting. I squeezed my eyes open staring first thing into Cornflakes big cat eyes.

"Cornflakes Daddy is hurt. You are heavy." My daughter carried the ginger cat away and I sneezed gaining Donghyucks attention.

"Mark no more cutting yourself idiot. You are an idol. Save that body." Jaehyun chuckled going away and Donghyuck followed him to the door.

"Daddy? What is love? I heard one of the big kids taking about it? Were the taking about me?" Sarang snuggled next to me after switching onto one of her favorite shows.

"He's love." I pointed at the gorgeous boy who came back to my room with puffy red eyes.

"Mommy is Love? Weally?" Sarang kissed my cheeks and giggled. "So are you Daddy sweet." She hugged my neck.

"So are you sweetheart." I smiled hugging her tight. I'd give up my life in order to protect her from the shit her mother and I have gone through.

"Mark please. Stop cutting yourself." I heard him whisper and sit next to me.

"Leave me Hyuck. I dont want to see you!!" I snapped really feeling guilty and horrible. I feel like a piece of tainted paper.

"W-Why!?" I strangley didnt want him to tear up.

"Cant you just fucking leave!?" I tried to push him away but thats when he pulled my hands up and crashed his lips on mine. I pushed him away away yet he seemed stronger since I felt lifeless. He kept slaming me on the head board evertime I pushed him away where at the end I just gave in and let him do what he was doing. I knew Sarang was watching, then again she's seeing nothibg bad or dirty.

"Please. Stop hurting both of us." Donghyuck pulled away not completely, our lips still brushed against each other.

"I'm sorry." I looked at his big dreamy eyes as he bit his puffy red lips. Something sparked there, on my left side.

"Those hickeys would disappear, Please stop it Hyung." He connected our lips again, soft, slow, and satisfying. Not like what Winwin did to me. Donghyuck?.........Donghyuck felt like home, warm and pleasing.

"S-Stop it H-Haechan!" I forcefully stopped the kiss but he sat on my waist like a motorbike and pushed me further back reconnecting our lips. Before that,

"Baby go to your room." Donghyuck ruffled Sarangs hair and our girl nodded running off.

"What are you doing!! You should be disgusted if I touch you!! I tainted your body! I might not remember anything yet I touched you in ways I shouldnt!! I dont love you! Stop doing this Hyuck, We dont love each other! We shouldnt be giving each other our first kisses or the kisses after that." I pushed him away successfully.

"I dont feel disgusted dumbshit!! After I saw what happened to you I was selfishly glad it was me! You love me god damn it!! You love me with all you have!! Give up on lying, Please! If ever there was a day I should do it again. It will be you!!! Its non of our faults. Not even yours. Please give us a shot." Donghyuck was crying so was I, pulling him into my embrace I screamed for Sarang and soon she came down.

"W-Wanna go out?" I smiled at both of them. Maybe I should see the bright side of things. Like the sun before me and the big bundle of love next to me.

"Y-Yes!!!" Donghyuck slightly blushed sitting up as he played with my shirt buttons.

"Of course Daddy!!" Sarang seal clapped running off to get dressed.

"I dont love you Donghyuck. I really dont." I whispered he only scoffed getting off to go change.