I'm crying on my birthday. I don't know what to do with my life. I had another anxiety attack. I went to Celina's Halloween party today I saw Gavin there and he said happy birthday very quietly. But what ever. Its Gavin. Gavin is gavin. So anyway it was boring there was nothing to do all the popular kids were separated from the non popular kids. I didn't know if ethan was invited. But kaci was there and ruthane was there to. I wish Cory could of made it but she didn't come :(. Kaci left early. And I was stresses out and I don't know what to do with my self now. I've been trying to starve myself but I have failed so I'm going to try again to marrow and maybe I will be more successful. I miss seeding my friends I really care about like my sister Jennifer and my bff ethan those are the people. I can trust. I have hunger pain but I don't give a fuck at this point. So anyway my birthday didn't turn out the way I thought it would and that is the sad thing about it.