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light seeped through the curtains, giving a sunkissed look on taehyung's face. he fluttered his eyes open, rubbing it with his hands. he yawned and tried to sit up. keyword: tried, he hissed in pain. his bottom is hurting because of the activities last night.

he looked at his side, expecting that his boyfriend is there but to his dismay no one was there. he sighed he was already used to it so why expect?

he again tried to stand up, his legs trembled and he tried walking well limping to the bathroom. he filled the tub with warm water. he then sat there, his tense muscles relaxing. he cleaned himself wanting to get rid of the sticky feeling. he scrubbed himself and washed his hair.

when he was done he took his bathrobe and tied the ribbon to keep it in place. he walked to the mirror near the sink.

he looked at his reflection, hickeys littered his soft skin. bite marks were also seen around his neck and near his collarbones. he sighed and just brushed his teeth.

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"hey jihoon" taehyung said as he walked inside the shop. "hello hyung! it nice to see you here" jihoon said. "it is my shop so why not?" taehyung laughed and jihoon laughed as well.

"where's irene noona?" taehyung asked as he looked at the flowers. "oh she's at the back looking at the deliveries."

"hmm okay, i'll just be at my studio upstairs. knock of you need me!" taehyung said as he went upstairs holding his canvas.

taehyung actually owns a shop. they sell coffee and cakes as well as flowers. the whole theme of the cafe is flowers anyways.

jihoon and irene are taehyung's helpers around here. when his not around they manage the whole shop for him.

he entered his studio and sat down on the couch. he took out his phone and looked at his messages.

march 11 at 9:36

taehyung
bby where are u?
i woke up and ur not here
i hope ur okay ilysm<3
sent 9:38

taehyung sighed and turned of his phone. he stood up and placed his canvas on the easel. he took a stool and sat on it. he used his pencil and started to draw what he didn't finished last time.

he played some music in the background so he could immerse himself on his own world.

he dropped his pencil, done with the sketch. he stared at it for awhile observing it. he then averted his gaze to his piano.

he actually loves music. he plays the piano and makes a few pieces.

he walked to the piano and sat down. he opened it and removed the cloth that covers the keys.

he starter pressing some keys and he started singing the lyrics he made.

I’ve been hiding it
I tell you something
Just to leave it buried
Now I can’t endure it anymore
Why couldn’t I say it then
I have been hurting anyway
Really, I won’t be able to endure it

he thought of all the moments with jungkook. all the happy times they used to have.

Now cry
It’s only that I’m very sorry towards you
Again, cry
Because I couldn’t protect you

now he thought of how cold and reserved jungkook is. how many times he cried because of their arguments.

Deeper, deeper, the wound just gets deeper
Like pieces of broken glass that I can’t reverse
Deeper, it’s just the heart that hurts every day
You who was punished in my stead
You who were only delicate and fragile

Stop crying, tell me something
Try saying to me, who had no courage
Why did you do that to me then

he tries to be strong, strong for himself, strong for jungkook, strong for them. but is it worth it? he's trying his best but it seems like it isn't enough.

taehyung didn't notice that tears were already rolling down his cheeks. he wanted his jungkook. he wanted his warmth, his comfort, his attention but most of all his love.

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