Guys, I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel like this whole Corona thing is destroying my life.

I feel like I have so much pressure on me. I'm trying to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good student, get good grades, a good friend, a good girlfriend, and a good owner to my Guinea Pig Henry. But it all feels like so much.

Today, my mom forced me to do something with my sister. We finally agreed on something, dots and boxes. Well we were playing the game but my sister went to my mom for help and she just gave her the answer!

I got so upset and tried to talk it out with her because it felt unfair but I just ended up yelling. Well my mom always says to just walk away when I get upset, so I walked into my room to calm down. Well my mom sent me to my sister's room and her to mine!

I felt so alone in her room, I had nothing to calm me down, nothing to comfort me. She said we couldn't bring anything of our own in there so I had nothing. No music, no phone, no book, not even the familiar comfort of my own room! My mom wouldn't even let me come out until I had calmed down and I still had to finish the game with my sister!

I am tired of living with my family 24/7. I miss being able to escape them for the day and seeing my friends at school. I just want to escape my family, get away from it all!

I hate being isolated from everyone else, I already have to live with my mom and my sister for another three years at least! When my sister gets upset, she always lashes out and hurts me; whether that's kicking me, hitting me, scratching me, or digging her nails into me. I would go to my mom about it but she just wants us to work it out on our own. I try, but it's hard when she barely listens to me.

I try to be a good person for everyone. I try to keep my emotions under control so I don't cause problems for anyone else. The only place I feel safe and comfortable is in my room. When my mom takes that away, I feel like I have nothing left, like the mask I had built to hide my emotions has been ripped away and I have nothing left.

I just want everything to get back to normal. I hope it does soon. I don't want summer camp to be cancelled and I'm not completely sure but we might move over the summer and I want to see my friends while I can.

My room and everything in it are the only things keeping me from completely falling apart. I don't like change that much, and everything is changing. I can adapt, but it's hard.

Thank you for everyone who bothered to read my rant.