tw: Unsymphahetic Patton (I swear he's just doing what he thinks is right), manipulation.    If you don't get the title look up Laganja Estranjas entrance on season 6 Someone has to teach these younglings culture!

1 May

The candles on the table illuminated the resturant making it look cozy. In the background a slow piano rendition of 'running up that hill' by Kate Bush could be heard playing and the deep red curtains made it all look regal. Logan and Ethan was sitting at a table for two in one of the corners of the big room.

They were currently located in the dream theater. Over in the middle of the room Thomas was dreaming that he was on a date with Idris Elba who was slowly turning into a fox. The dream would end when fox Elba eats him in an alley way. 

When the waiter who fittingly was Brendon Urie because dream logic you know came over to take their orders Logan ordered a black coffee (as dark as his soul so with milk in it) and a cup of crofters. Dee ordered an omelet filled with the Jörmungandr's (world serpent's) tail. During the second picnic they had gone on he realized that he could summon any fantasy animal and make them taste like normal food and since he's very extra unicorns, dragons and many more have been slaughtered. 

Ethan was wearing his new fancy full length cape because he's dramatic and capes are romantic damnit! Just ask Dracula....Anyway. As the dream slowly morphed into another one this one being set in a dark cave they left the diner continuing out into the mindscapes hallway while holding hands. 

It was quite late  so they assumed all the sides were sleeping which was the only reason they even dared not to teleport. Still they tried to sneak as quietly as they could. As they walked by the kitchen whispering about how half fox Elba matched with Ethan's half snake face the lights suddenly turned on.

"Logan? Great! You can hel-" Patton stopped mid sentence when he saw Ethan, accidentally dropping the mug he was holding. The snake tried to let go of his boyfriend's hand but he held on giving him a reassuring look "Ehm I hope you know Deceit is with you" The dad said with his usual smile.

"He is accompanying me to our room" He answered putting extra umph on our "He is my boyfriend, Patton"

"Oh.....I'm so happy for you!" He pulled Dee into a tight hug intentionally being too tight. The side of lies gulped as his hands tingled meaning that what the dad had just said was untrue. Quiet enough so that no one else heard Pat whispered into his ear "If you ever hurt him I will lock you in the cellar and tell Logan you went back to the dark sides"

After 2 awkward pats on the back Patton let go. Even with the obvious warning signs Dee shook what had just happened of as some sort of joke thinking that he was just paranoid. "Please keep this only between us right now. It is our choice if we want to tell the others" Logan said.

"Of course kiddos. You can trust your pappy Patton" Once again his hands tingled.

After entering their room Dee took a harder grip of the others hand pressing him lightly against the wall and snarled, his fang showing "You could have just said I was attacking you" The last time another side had seen them he had gone back to the dark sides. He was so afraid it felt like someone was pressing a knife aginst his neck. He would much rather continue lying than being forced away. Logan opened his mouth to answer but immediately got shut up "And don't tell me that I'm overreacting because you have everything to lose unlike me"

"I have you" 

"Shut up" He responded letting go instead crossing his arms to try and make his flustered cheeks less obvious.

"Patton is harmless surely he will not do a thing" The words echoed through Ethan's head. If he was so harmless then he shouldn't take the threat seriously. The worry that if he told Logan he would laugh at him started bite through his vocal cords not letting him tell what had happened. "Everything will be alright" He gently pressed a kiss against the others forehead "Besides he already seem to enjoy your company"

He wished he didn't know that was a lie. 

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2 may

When Patton knocked on the door the next day Deceit let him in even though the thought of being with him while his love was away made him anxious enough to start scratching at his scales. Soon after they were sitting on the carpet in the middle of the room. The side of morality showed of some of the cool stuff he had collected over the years saying that none of the other sides ever had time to listen to his rambles.

Dee had to admit that it was nice to talk to someone who wasn't Logan it made him kind of miss Envy. He hoped he was okay. 

"So how long have you two been a couple?" Patton from out of nowhere changed the subject.

"Not since 30 February"

"So you have been lying to me for soooo long" A melancholic look came over his face as he stared down onto the ground twisting the item he was holding "You do know that lying is wrong right?" He said with a small sad smile.

"Wha" It felt like he had figurativly just gotten punched in the gut.

"I mean that's why you're a dark side because you influence Thomas in a bad way. No offense but I never thought you were so selfish so you would start influencing us light sides badly too" The harshness of the words seemed more innocent when the person who said them was smiling eerily.

"yes I mean to do that absolutely isn't like I actually like being h" He tried to explain himself but when he saw how absentmindedly the dad look at him he realized he wouldn't get no where if he kept telling lies since it seemed like he didn't listen to them so his words died off.

"Don't look so sad" He pulled the snake into another hug but it felt more like he was being suffocated "If you just keep on trying I'm sure you can be a good person. I know! you can stop talking then you can't make Thomas or anyone else lie"

"Patton that is almost more idiotic than what you usually say"

"Sorry I don't mean to hurt your feelings but my idea is pretty good if I do say so myself and I do, so think about or I will be so worried so I accidentally say something about you while chatting with Virgil"

"Did you just threaten me"

"Maybe I should say something anyway" He continued on completely ignoring what Deceit said.

"Don't you dare"

"But you see Roman and Virge didn't solve their problems until they had an open and honest discussion about them"

"I will shatter you like glass" He protested once more not even noticing that he had put on his villainous fake smirk to seem more threatening because he sure as hell didn't feel like it. It felt like he was standing on ice and Patton was holding a hammer. With one word he could force him down into the cold dark water.

"And I think you two can benefit from it the same way"

"No" He growled forcing Patton to shut up not just by closing his fist but also by pushing him down under him. Holding him down by forcing his wrists down into the soft mattress. The ice was melting fast so so fast and Deceit did everything to keep on threading water.

"You won't say a thing" He snarled "Or I'll tell them what you've been trying to hide" He contiuned with a villanoius smirk. It made him shuder how easy it was to go back into the villain role. He actually didn't know if Pat had a secret but come on everyone has and they were so easy to exploit.

Patton did have a secret a very very good one that was partially the reason he was doing this. More than just disliking lies. He was in love with Logan and didn't want to see him fall into the hands of a dark side.

The side of morality kicked his legs desperately until Dee let of the silence as the hurricane of panic inside of him started dying down.

As fast as Patton could he jumped up on his feet walking towards the door. With his hand on the doorknob he turned around and stared the side of lies right in the eyes and said "See this is why you're a dark side"

Then he left and the dark side stayed sitting with shaking hands and a head full of doubt. 

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3 May

After some time when you're in a relationship the moments when you're laying next to each other and doing absolutely nothing can be the best. The sun was coming in through the leafs  creating patterns on their clothes. They were laying hidden away in a forest in the imagination. Another one of Roman's usual places. Even if it was at most spring in the real world in there it was a warm summer day. 

When Ethan's thoughts got too loud he moved over to rest his head on top of the other's chest. Something about the way his heart always moved faster than his own since he was partially snake and therefore had less beats per minute than your average human was weirdly calming. Also warm human very good for cold snake much comfy. 

He hadn't said anything about what happened with Patton the day before. Patton was harmless after all would Lo really believe him?

Alexithymia. The inability to describe emotions verbally. Repression. The process and effect of keeping particular thoughts or emotions out of your conscious mind. Sounds like a certain nerd you know does it not?
Logan had thought about these things a lot lately and he thought about it right now as well as he was gently stroking Dee's hair.

"Hey Lolo" Ethan's voice took the logical side out of his thoughts "Sorry for taking my paranoia on Patton out on you. You have nothing to do with any of that" The snake mumbled. He wasn't the best at apologies.

"Honey your business is my business especilly if it is distressing you....Is it in these situations you say 'mi casa es su casa'?" He asked remebering one of his vocab cards.

"Not even close" Ethan replied.

Logan watched closely, admired if you will. As the other man's facial expression subtly changed. He wondered if Dee saw the same beauty when he looked at him.

"Emotions, what an incredible thing to have" He said almost inaudible.

Truth is Logan had thought about repression a lot because the more time he spent with Ethan the less he disliked emotions. Suddenly feelings transformed from big icky monsters that made you doubt yourself and cry to the surprised expression that quickly turned into a smile Dee had shown when he wasn't made fun of for liking a 'childish' cartoon. Or the small gestures of love like how sooner or later when he worked a blanket would show up around his shoulders. Or cold skin pressed against his own reminding him that life was made up of more than taking care of Thomas.

The more time he spent with him the less he wanted to run from his feelings.

"I love you" Logans said for the first time pulling his arms around the other man. If there was one emotion he wanted to acknowledge first it was love.

"Love you too. Always" But I don't belong here with you he thought.

My angst loving brain is very exited to write the next chapter ( ;