Welcome to the ninth rewritten chapter! This chapter really said fuck y'all I'm getting double as long

"I saw someone I really did!" Envy assured.

"Maybe the final piece of your brain simply broke" Janus replied before taking a swing from the opened wine bottle.

They were sitting on the couch of the dark sides commons. It'd been one of their usual third day meetings but since Rage was asleep and and Envy was lonely Janus had decided to stay for a while and have a good old drinking night.

"No really like Rage was mad like usual I dunno I'd been loud or something and he was shouting and I ran away to hide in a corner and closed my eyes y'know like waiting for him to hit me but no I just heard a big thud" Envy ranted "And when I turned around he was just like laying on the floor sleeping and I saw a shadow walking off into another room but when I turned to look no one was there. So I kinda rolled him into the kitchen and put a blanket on him"

Janus looked at him and slowly blinked "You've definetly lost it"

He stuck out his tounge at him while taking the bottle from him. It was quiet for a few moments as it usually was. Both of them knew it was safer to stay quiet. Making any sound brung the possibility of Rage destroying their peace.

Envy took a long sip from the wine bottle. He looked over at his friend and whispered "I'm thinking about killing Patton"

He could tell it wasn't a lie nor a joke "Let's calm down for a moment before murdering an essential side for Thomas' wellbeing"

"You don't get it!"

"I...I'm not getting why you would want to murder a side...?" Janus scoffed.

"Patty is the reason my life is like this!" Envy put the bottle down on the table and started moving his hands around while talking "Rage? Anxiety? Deceit? Those are all traits of jerks! No offense. But envy? What has envy ever done to anyone? I'm harmless! I think the only reason I'm a dark side is because envy is a deadly sin or whatever AND who's the jerkass christian side who runs this whole shithole brain?"

"Patton" Janus muttered while grabbing the wine because oh boy did he need it.

"Exactly! I was meant to be a light side! But Patton fucked me over! I deserve to kill him!" Envy exclaimed.

"Yes because you definetly deserve to kill anyone at all. With your thinking you could use some morality"

Envy grinned at Janus while poking his elbow into the snake's rib "Come on we've all wanted to murder a side! Lemme guess for you it was-"

"Rage" Janus mumbled out.

"Anxiet- WAIt what?" He let out an awkard chuckle "Ehh okay I was really expecting you to say Anxiety I mean he's- he's a dirty traitor who deserves to get his lungs taken out and dipped into wax while Rage y'know he's literally anger he can't help it- You-You're not siding with Anxiety r-right?"

Deceit calmly placed his hand on Envy's shoulder and said in a just as calm tone "Trust me, I'm really really siding with Anxiety"

He let out a sigh of relief "Okay. I just I don't want to be left here. I would probably kill a bunch of pidgeons and make wings and fly into the sun if I was left down here without you"

"Damn. Now I kind of don't want to see that" He chuckled out which earned him a playful shove.

"Hey wanna hear a SSSSSsssecret?" Envy said, mimicking his snake hiss.

"Ssssshut up but please go on I am so very interested to hear whatever you have to say" He lied while rolling his eyes.

"I was happy when Anxiety left"

Janus froze up at his words. He slowly looked over at Envy who was casually slurping on the wine as if he hadn't said something unfathomable. "How could you ever be happy over him leaving?"

"Well" He ran his finger over the label on the bottle, keeping his gaze down on it "Before he left you two were so close and you were always together and Rage was so angry and he was yelling and throwing things all the time. I was alone. You barely ever talked to me before Anxiety left y'know"

While he talked Janus looked away. He couldn't really deny it. When they were young 8 Envy would always be quiet and hide from everyone, he and Anxiety wouldn't even try to talk to him. When they were 12 the quiet side mumbled something every now and then but mostly sat and drew, he and Anxiety would look through his drawings when he wasn't looking and whisper behind his back.

When they were 15 Envy suddenly turned loud. He would yell out gross ideas and torture methods, wake up the other sides with bug facts and destroy furniture as jokes. Janus and Virgil shut him up at every opportunity, insulting and yelling at him when his gruesome thoughts made the anxious side go into panic attacks and shutting him out if he tried to be with them.

"Aside from my brain probably exploding if I didn't let my gory thoughts out...I...I wanted attention...I yelled them out to get attention...I was afraid I'd turned into a ghost since no one ever looked at me except for Rage when he wanted to yell at me"

Envy looked over at Janus. His hand was clenched tightly around the bottle, shaking slightly.

"You barely ever said anything except like telling me to shut up until Anxiety left, Of course I'm happy he's gone! Even if Rage...Rage hurts...At least now we're friends! Right Janny? We're friends?"

He nodded. Too afraid of accidentally lying and saying they weren't if he opened his mouth.

"Okay...OKay..Good...Would have to cut off your head and make you into a doll to agree with me if you didn't agree" He let out a short giggle "Sorry it slipped out" He forced a smile while hiting his hands against his head "Those thoughts keep slipping out. They're not me! It's so scary to hear them when no one is paying attention to me. It starts to feel like they are the only ones seeing me and I will disappear comepletely and they will take over my body"

Janus took the bottle away from him and put it on the floor "It totally doesn't sound like you've either drank too much or need to sleep. So sleep?"

He did grabby hands while pouting "Cuddles?"

".......No" He sighed out the lie.

Envy laid down on the couch and cuddled up under a thin blanket. Janus laid down close to his side. He moved his hat on top of his face so no lights would wake him up before closing his eyes. After a few minutes he felt arms wrap around his waist and a few tentacles holding onto him as if to protect him. He fell asleep smiling.

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Virgil one day never coming back to them, instead starting a new life with the light sides was a lie Janus had told the others. Around 1 month after the darks last saw him and 2 weeks before he ducked out, he sneaked in while everyone was sleeping only waking Deceit up. He grabbed his friend's hand to lead him into the kitchen so they could talk without anyone hearing them. "Where have you been?Do tell me the others suspected you so had to lay low for this long" Janus yawned out.

Virgil jumped up on the kitchen counter. He sat with his legs dragged up to his chest like usual while Jan leaned against the counter. The emo was zipping and unzipping the arms of his hoodie out of nervousness.

"I-I.....I'm not coming back to the dark sides.....ever. I ehm....I'm not saying goodbye to the other two. Only you"

It felt like someone slowly carved a hole right into Janus' chest with every word his best friend, his only friend said. The wound dug deeper and deeper as the cold reality that he wasn't lying hit him. He was losing everything if he lost Virgil.

"Where are you going?" He asked already knowing the answer.

"The same place I've been for a while, the light sides. This, how things work down here it's not normal like what Rage is doing it's wrong. Every time I have to lie to them I hate it, what if they find ou-" He stopped mid sentence realizing what he just said "I-I didn't mean it like that like lying isn't bad I just I-I Patton says it is but I don't think so I just I don't like lying"

"I get it. You've finally done it huh! You've finally found a way to get away from me! Because I'm just so horrible to be around! I Can't wait until you tell your new friends that really you were the backstabbing villain they thought you were all along. After they throw you out don't think that we will let you back"

Virgil's eyes went from looking nervous to looking absolutely devastated. "De-e-"

"They're only being nice to you because they know you could hurt Thomas if you got too anxious, good thing I don't have to pretend to be nice to you anymore since you're leaving" He hissed out with venom on his tounge.

"Dee This isn't like you... I never meant to leave you. You can come too" He backed closer to the wall since Janus had unkowinly moved closer to him.

Janus imagined living with the light sides. Them making fun of his scales and never trusting a word he said. Never ending ridicule.

"Oh my dear Virgil can't you see you will never be one of them and neither can I. The only way they will ever listen to you is if you keep on playing your part which is hurting Thomas"

Tears filled Virgil's eyes "I can't keep living like this. Rage...H-he what he does isn't normal. He's not supposed to yell at us like that. I-I'm scared of sleeping because of him! Hell I'm scared of existing!"

"He is literally anger he can't help it! If he was really bad he would have hit us or something, but he doesn't!" He didn't at the time "It's fine! Stop being a oversensitive baby!"

"I saw him pull off a piece of Envy's hair the last time I was here!"

"WHO THE HELL CARES ABOUT ENVY!" Janus yelled out.

His hands were shaking. All he wanted was too hold onto his friend, to desperatly keep him like they'd always been. Would it really hurt him that much to stay here? Janus could protect him if Rage ever tried to hurt him.

"Were you just with me until you could find someone better?" He continued, nearly whispering it out "I thought I could always tell when others were lying but apparently I couldn't when you said we would always be together"

Virgil looked at him, unsure of what to say. Suddenly he moved forward, putting his arms around Janus' shoulders and pulling him close into a tight hug. He wrapped his legs around the other side's waist and all. Janus stayed unmoving with his arms dangling along the side of his body.

"I'm sorry" It was the last thing Virgil said before sinking out and never returning.

The week after when the other sides noticed that he didn't come back they slowly realized he would never come back. The moment Rage realized that his plan to take the control away from the light sides with the help of Virgil had failed the red veins on his body that showed how angry he was went the entire way from his cheeks to his feet. Envy got in the way of his anger, he wasn't able to walk in 3 months.

Virgil had left his best friend behind in a home that fell apart more and more with every day that went by. With Rage's anger turning more physical with time. Afterwards during every argument Janus thought about that night, thought about how everything could have been different. Would have been different. He blamed Virgil for every tear and every bruise, He still does.