Illegal (14) A Lie

"S-sceven..."

Suddenly I hugged Sceven and cried on his shoulder.

"It's okay... Everything's gonna be alright."

He caressed my back. He put his head on my shoulder and hugged me tightly.

"Leave it to Auntie, Cassy. Maybe Uncle Patrick and Auntie Maki are together now."

Maybe it is. What are they doing now?

Have they met already? Do they still love each other?

How's Kirk?

Sceven helps me to stand up and helped me walk.

He put me in his car and he turned around.

My life is so funny.

No one will be able to attend my debut.

Daddy is gone...

Mommy is gone too...

Who is left for me?

Why is life so complicated? Whoever is kind, they are the ones who suffer!

"Are you okay now?"

"I don't think so..."

I rested my head to the car window and surveyed the houses we passed.

Squater Area...

I smiled. Even though they live in a small house, they are a complete family and they're living happily.

While me?

I have everything? No! I don't have everything! A mother? A father?

I don't like dramas... I don't want to cry right now. I'm strong!

I will also pass this catastrophe.

"We're here."

When we got home, mommy's coffin is being fixed.

Wait! Why it's so fast? Who organized these?

"Cassy..."

Sceven and I turned to Kirk who's now standing in front of us.

"You should go now, Scevy! I'll just text you."

I kissed Sceven on his cheek first before I entered our house.

I'll just walk straight while not looking at Kirk.

"Cassy--"

"Not now, Kirk. I'm tired."

I removed his hand that's holding my hand and stared at him.

But he was really persistent to talk to me because he pulled me again and hugged me tightly.

"Hey! What? Let go-"

"Cassy... what can I do so you can forgive me?"

I stopped because suddenly there were tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry for what happened to your mother..."

"I don't want to! I'm just leaving here!"

He immediately held my hand again when I spoke.

"Stay away from me!"

"No! No Cassandra! You'll stay here."

"What do you think of me?! A Child?! God! You're not even my father!"

"I am now your father!"

"Do you think that I'll consider you as my father? You wish!"

"What's your problem about me, Cassy?!"

"You! You're just going to break my moms heart then after that? What? Huh?! You're going to leave us! I won't consider you as my father but I'll consider you as my enemy! Nothing less, leave me alone!"

"No! I can't do that Cassy. You know I love-"

"You love my mother? Oh god! I forgot, you didn't broke my moms heart because she's now dead. So, she's dead now and you have no rights to dictate me, father."

"Cassy! Will you listen to me ?!"

"What? Just leave me! I can defend myself. I don't need your help. I can live on my own."

"You can't Cassy. You can't."

"Oh come on, Daddy Kirk! I don't need you. I don't need all of you!"

"You need me, Cassy!"

"You sure?! For Pete's sake, just leave me alone!"

"No Cassy!"

"Why? Give me enough reason!"

"Because... Because... I promise to your mom that I'll take care of you."

"I'm not a child anymore!"

"I know! But please, will you just listen Cassy?"

"...."

"Okay! I love you-"

"No one cares!"

"Tss! I love you Cassy! Yes! I don't love your mom because I love you-"

"You jerk-"

"Wait! Please! Believe me Cassy. I love you more than my life! I will do everything that you want."

"I want you to leave me! That's all that I want."

"I can't! I love you! How many times do I have I to tell you that I love you! Clear?! Understand?!"

"What did you just say? You love me?!"

"Yes, Cassy! And no one can apart us."

Suddenly I was stunned by what he said...

What? He loves me?

"Are you insane?! We can't be together!"

I still can't get into my brain what he's saying.

He brought his face close to mine so I stepped away.

What is he doing?

"K-kirk..."

I just stepped away until I felt that I was leaning now against the wall.

"For true... I don't really love your mother--"

"Fuck you!"

He just smiled at what I said and put his two hands between me.

"All right. Hurt me! It's okay. I won't be angry."

I was stunned by what he said.

What--

"I know it's wrong to have a relationship with you. Hmmm. Even though the two of us knew each other recently. I don't care. You're the one I love. I've wanted you for a long time. I've known you for a long time..."

That's when I looked up when he said the last thing he said.

Has he known me for a long time? Whereas now I just met him?

What's that?

"I wanted to be close to you so I endured... I flirted with your mother? Even if we didn't really became in a relationship."

"WHAT'S NOT TRUE?"

"Our relationship. That's not true. This, your mommy's letter before she died. Read it out loud..."

Dear baby Sandy,

Hi hija! I love you. By now, if you read this, maybe mommy is dead. I didn't commit suicide because Kirk and I broke up... I don't want to suffer anymore hija. So, I just killed myself. I have a breast cancer. It’s not true I went to Dubai to meet my co-workers Cassy, ​​I was treated. But, no. There is really no cure for my illness. I didn't tell you because I knew you would be angry... you would feel sorry for me. And the picture of Patricia, that's not true again. Patricia Valencia. He is Kirk's sister. And baby, Kirk just asked me to get close to you. Boyfriend? All right, it's okay baby. Just don't get married first. He really loves you baby and I know it. Again, I love you so much and mommy will miss you. Iloveyou Cassy. Don’t let yourself down. I'm sorry if mommy became selfish but I can't really ease the pain anymore baby. Sorry. Iloveyou.

~ Mommy

I cried when I read mommy's letter.

Now, I miss her...

"Cassy..." Kirk touched my two cheeks.

"If being with you is mistake, I don't care. But for me... You're my beautiful mistake. I love you."

He slowly brought his face closer to my lips. I closed my eyes and touched his lips.

Kirk Valencia... I don't know what to do.