"The time that has been destroyed because of you. Save me, oh, save me, and I won't forget you, liar. I can't endure it anymore, leave me (save me)..."

-Save Me~B.A.P

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Kyung-mi had invited him in, no one else being home, her brothers both at school and her mother at work, the only one in the house was a little white poodle that ran around his feet, yipping and jumping up on him, seeming to be the kind of dog that liked to be held.

Kyung-mi led him into the kitchen, throwing her backpack on the dining room table and getting a chair and dragging it over to the sink before standing on top of it and reaching up to the cabinet above the sink.

"Are you supposed to be alone in the house with a boy?" Yoongi asked, raising an eyebrow as she wobbled on top of the chair.

Kyung-mi didn't look back, reaching up and feeling around until she pulled out a small key. "Are you going to take advantage of me?"

He sat in a dining room chair. "No, but I could."

She shook her head, slowly getting down from the chair, "You couldn't." She dragged the chair back to the dining room table and looked at Yoongi. "Cameras, my mom can see."

"That wouldn't really stop me. And by the end, you'd have enjoyed it too much to really complain." Yoongi said absently with a shrug.

Kyung-mi frowned, then took the key and went to a white cabinet in the corner with a note on the front, and Yoongi couldn't read all of it, but he could specifically see that it said do not open!! In bold letters across the top of it, which was a mute point anyway with the gigantic padlock on it.

"Someone is very full of themselves.." Kyung-mi said, unlocking the cabinet with the key she retrieved and opening it.

Inside was nothing but orange bottles, all of them full of pills, all prescription, which made the note on the front seem very strange. Prescription meant someone needed those, right?

Kyung-mi took a bottle and opened it, swallowing a pill or two, then slyly slid a empty orange bottle back into the cabinet, and then closed up the full bottle and pocketed the rest of it, closing the cabinet quickly and locking it.

"And you're supposed to be taking those?" Yoongi asked. "it looks like you were meant to be kept out."

Kyung-mi frowned at him, taking a moment to respond. "Y-yes...I'm insane...I have to take them to stay...me..."

Yoongi blinked. He didn't expect her to be so aware, but he supposed, she knew by now what her problems were, and had just accepted it. "Is that why you're skipping school? You started slipping?"

Kyung-mi didn't move or saying for a minute, then nodded slowly. "Y-yes...I was slipping..."

Yoongi tilted his head, "Is that what the ghost thing is about? When you get quiet?"

She shook her head, then went over to the fridge and pulled out a container full of leftover Pizza and set it on the dining table in front of Yoongi before taking out a slice and eating it cold. "You hungry? I kind of owe you...you saved my life...I realized how stupid I was being and I...I'm getting along with my new brother now... He's so perfect....but I think I want to be like him, I'm not mad at him anymore as much..." Kyung-mi cleared her throat. "Eomma trusts him so much...she lets him do all this cool stuff..."

Yoongi took a slice of cold Pizza, just because he was hungry, and he hadn't eaten all day, and it was better than nothing at all.

"She's your mother?" Yoongi asked before taking a bite.

Kyung-mi waited for a second, "Why would you ask that?"

Yoongi had taken a step too far with the questions, she wasn't going to answer that, that was too sensitive, maybe? She couldn't actually be her mother though, they looked nothing alike, neighbors said The Psychiatrist took in kids. Kyung-mi couldn't be her daughter. In that sense, her new brother didn't have any relations to her, the other brother? Maybe, but it was likely he was adopted.

Kyung-mi cleared her throat, "Anyway...that's a dumb question, I just called her mom...use your head."

Yoongi made a sort of grunt, and shrugged his shoulders.

"I heard you've been with Jae-hwa..." Kuung-mi started, "She's the devil. Why are you doing that."

Yoongi grinned and threw his head back, staring at the ceiling. "Ah...that's too personal."

Kyung-mi slammed her hand on the table, and it startled Yoongi, but he didn't take his eyes off the ceiling, "I asked why! I thought..."

Yoongi started laughing, and it more than probably scared Kyung-mi, he could hear her back away, the small gasp she let out of her mouth, but he still laughed.

"What do you know of Min Yoongi? What did you think you knew about him?" He looked at her evenly, a smile still playing on his lips, "I'll tell you something you probably don't know, just because no one will believe you anyway. When you sign your soul away, there's not much you can do to get it back. and I don't need mine back yet. I knew the water was poison, but I drank it anyway, because I was thirsty and it didn't matter either way." Yoongi stopped smiling. "I remember you, Kyung-mi, that doesn't make us not strangers. I'm not who you knew anymore, and I'm not in the mood to fight for what I lost, I'd rather run. That's not me being selfish, that's not me being scared, I just don't feel like it. That's who I am now, and that's who I'll be."

Yoongi raised an eyebrow at her, watching her stand there and shiver. She wasn't about to cry, wasn't about to punch him, he had scared her, put just enough ice in his voice to send a shiver down her spine, to put a sort of fear in her that couldn't be put into words. Just that sort of tremble when your brain is scared for you, when survival wants to kick in and your heart pumps blood faster and wants you to just run, and the denial is nothing but a shiver.

Yoongi got up, showing himself to the door without another word. I put too much on her again. a crazy person, I'll drive her to do something stupid.

He sighed. He wasn't going to save her again. She had a family, why didn't they just save her? Or couldn't they see how neglected she felt?

"Ugh, god, what a pain in the ass.."

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He came into Namjoon and Jin's apartment to hear the TV blaring, not white noise, but seemingly between channels, there just enough fuzz in the back to make everything on it sound like a growl.

"--Stock market is down this week, investors-- CRRRSSHH -ave taken the defensive on the matter."

Yoongi wandered over to the kitchen, opening up the fridge and digging through it, grabbing a dish with spicy chicken with a pink sticky note on it that said, For Namjoon <3 (Yoongi, if you touch it, I'll tape all your stuff to the ceiling, short-ass :)))) )

"--reports of a corrupt mental hospital and it's officials have been the talk of the town-- CRRSSSH --with the recent release of-- CRRRRRRSSSHH --aehyung, many things have now been put into suspicion, but the hospital has confirmed these are just rumors."

Yoongi hummed as he stuck the dish in the microwave, seeing Namjoon's phone on the counter and unlocking it and seeing he had 5 new messages from someone named Findmylosthope through a messaging app with things like:

You think? Really? Don't lie to me...

please, Namjoon...I can't keep going like this...

No one cares about me... whats the point..?

Even you might lie...Namjoon...?

Yoongi didn't read it with previews like that, then he'd be obligated to answer, and he couldn't really without making it worse.

"--rson, Min Yoongi."

Yoongi stopped, peeking out of the kitchen and at the TV.

"--Loving mother is still very concerned about her little boy, and is asking all in-- CRRRRSSHHH --given to the police through the news station, you can leave an anonymous tip, but please ask for ID fr--CRRRRSSSHH--one you ask, several have been saying there are thugs asking around for him saying they are from the news station--"

Yoongi tilted his head. "Thugs..." It seemed very strange to him. Didn't his mom have the news station and the police? She doesn't know people that do dirty work, does she?

Then he remembered, the car that chased him down, crashed into the building to get him, that sure as hell wasn't the police.

He tried to search his memory for every boyfriend his mom had had, but the list was too long, his mother was the type to pull one night stands, because she was a hoe, and he'd accepted that a long time ago. Lord knows how many guys she'd been with, what kind of backgrounds they had.

But would his mom do that? I know you didn't love me, but you didn't hate me that much did you? To send some vigilante after me? He couldn't even begin to understand why she was trying so hard to find him anyway. She'd wanted him gone, he was gone. What more to it could there be?

Besides the fact I burned her house. Because by now, she's probably living with one of her boy toys. No Yoongi to fuck things up and make her look bad.

Yoongi sat down on his knees in front of the TV on the floor, wishing he'd recorded it somehow, just so he could replay what his mother said, what she'd done, how she'd acted, he she'd treated him. Then, what claim would she have to him? Everyone could see how evil she was then...

"Why didn't you just get a goddamn abortion like every other teen mom? Why couldn't you...just...D-damn it..!" He felt one tear roll down his face, then another, then they were falling one after the other, dripping down to hit his clenched fists. His whole body had a constant shiver, and he could hear himself whimpering and sobbing and breaking down.

Min Yoongi, die! Damn it, Die!! Stop goddamn crying!!

But he didn't stop, he kept crying. He didn't even have the energy to wipe the tears away. It all hurt too much, all of it stung like a knife to the stomach, and it made it near impossible to move.

Then, he felt someone pull him onto their shoulder.

It wasn't quite a hug, because Yoongi didn't embrace them back, but he buried his face in their shoulder while they gently pulled him close.

"Shh...It's okay.."

Jin. It was Jin. Yoongi couldn't hear much over his own sobbing, but he could tell that voice, even in this soft tone he hadn't heard from Jin before.

"Don't cry, okay...? You're okay...you'll make it through..." Jin said, gently rubbing Yoongi's back.

Yoongi choked on a sob. He didn't know what he was talking about, no one did. But he let Jin try to comfort him, because it felt better than nothing, and he could hardly think enough to push him away or think of some other way to stop being a weak little bitch.

"I...I just want to be loved....it's all I want...! I just want someone to care!! It's not goddamn fair..!!"

There was a sliver of Min Yoongi left, and he was surprised, it was his weakest part of himself.

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A/N:

Hello~

It's mee~ (again) lol

if you read the last book, you might be seeing a theme with this ;~; and it's intentional, just like, it's sad :\\\

also, kyung-mi's meds :3 Why she being so sneaky? And why are they locked up :O Truth is awaiting hehehehehehe I'm feeling wicked again oml i just shdfjkghgfds I'm a sadistic person a little? Oopsieee~

Pls luv me anyways~? ^o^)/

Usually I get the lyrics on top from like, a random lyric site, (because i ain't got time for YouTube tbvh) but this time, I searched it and ended up on @OtakuKpop169 's BAP Lyrics book, so I thought I'd give them credit. idk if they just copied it down, or if they translated it themselves, but yeah ^-^)v

~Neri~ (is a giant teddy bear today~)