♡Brendon♡

I found out that prom night is my last night in town.

I can't take Dallon out to prom and break up with him right after.

Dallon's been looking forward to prom because I told him we could go as a couple and that would basically be me coming out.

He's been working really hard to try to make it the happiest night of my life and I plan on leaving him.

I can't think of how he will be after. I've seen him broken and it hurt me a lot.

"We should just stay at home for prom." I suggest and Dallon rolls his eyes.

"We can't do that. You said that you were excited about it last week and I'd rather not be going without a date." He says and I feel incredibly bad.

Maybe I can go to prom and explain what I have to do?

I know he'll understand that I can't pass up the opportunity to go to that school so why am I scared?

Oh right, I lied again.

I have to stop doing that when I panic because it really fucks up my life.

I love him so much and I don't want to see him hurt.

I can't tell him but I have to.

I can't pussy out on this one. It will hurt him even more if I do.

"Hey Dal?" I say.

"Yeah Bren?" He asks back with that adorable goofy smile.

"I- I love you." I stutter and his smile grows wider.

"I love you too." He says as he kisses my cheek.

I don't want to leave him.

Dallon and I looked at suits for prom and I hated every second of it.

He was so excited and I was going to leave him that night.

He's putting so much effort into it because I was going to come out but I'm going to break his heart.

I'm praying to whatever's out there that he doesn't cry. Seeing him cry is one of the worst things I have ever seen.

It hurt my heart.

I sigh as I stand up from Dallon's bed.

"I'm gonna head out now. Bye baby." I say and he smiles and kisses me.

"Bye." He says.

I drive to Ryan's house and let myself in before flopping onto his bed.

"I did it again." I mumble into his sheets.

"Do you need me to pretend to be your boyfriend again?" Ryan says from beside me.

"No. I need a way to break up with Dallon." I say and then look up at Ryan.

He has a surprised look on his face.

"If he did something to you Brendon. I swear to god." Ryan says angrily.

"Dallon could never hurt me you dumbass." I roll my eyes as Ryan begins to calm down.

"Why are you breaking up with him then?" Ryan asks.

"I got accepted into the music school I wanted to go to." I say with a sigh.

"I got accepted too, what's the big deal?" Ryan asks.

"Dallon wasn't." I say and Ryan's expression falls.

"Is he not good?" Ryan asks.

"Ryan, he's the best bassist I have ever heard and his voice is amazing. He wrote songs for me and sings to me all of the time and sometimes his songs bring me to tears. He's amazing." I ramble.

"It was probably randomized then. I heard that Patrick Stump didn't even get in." Ryan says.

"Probably. I still need to find a way to break up with Dallon though." I say, feeling nothing but emotional pain after even thinking about not being in a relationship with Dallon anymore.

"Tell him everything. He should understand." Ryan shrugs like this isn't a big deal.

"Oh god." I say as I feel tears well up in my eyes.

I cry hard on Ryan's shoulder for the rest of the night.

I love Dallon more that words can describe and I'm throwing that away.

I want to give Dallon the best prom night of his life before I leave.

I want him to know that I still love him even though I'm leaving.

I get ready for school and I feel dead.

I'm tired, sad and broken.

I can tell Dallon knows that something is wrong.

I know that he'll wait until he can't stand the metiphorical distance between us to talk to me.

"I love you." Dallon says.

"I love you too." I hesitate.

I hear him sigh as the class starts.

Yup, he definitely knows that something is not right.

He keeps glancing at me in between doing work.

I have a plan.

I'll slowly distance myself so he won't be as sad when I'm gone.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" I snap.

Dallon looks hurt as he turns back to his math sheet.

I didn't like seeing that but I have to do this.

When the class ends I leave without waiting for him.

When he catches up, he hesitantly walks beside me.

I go talk to Ryan who obviously notices the hurt look on Dallon's face.

Ryan raises his eyebrow, silently asking if I broke up with him yet.

I subtly shake my head.

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Dallon was quiet for the rest of the day.

He seemed to be lost in thought a lot of the time and gave distanced answers.

I feel insanely bad for making him feel like this.

It's weird not seeing my calm yet bubbly Dallon.

At the end of the day he kissed my cheek timidly and walked to his car as fast as he could.

I just want to hold him and tell him I love him more than anything.

At about eleven o'clock, Dallon sent me a goodnight text. I know he's not actually going to bed but he knows that I fall asleep around this time and he never forgets to send it.

I always respond with a 'goodnight' and 'I love you' but I didn't say anything tonight.

I know he thinks that he had done something wrong and I hate that, but I have to break up with him.

I have no choice.

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A/N

I painted this a year ago and it has to be one of my best works.

The way you can see the pain inside his eyes really reflects on how I feel.

This hung in my locker for a year and confused a lot of teachers but I love it.

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PATRICK DIDN'T GET IN???