I know i just came back
but i gotta get this of my chest.

Its a fear so deep
its been leaving me unrest

Rather it isn't a fear but a realisation
A reality check that has left me shaken

Not many of you know bit i got a way with words.
I can twist em around , but only when it hurts.

I only share them out loud when it needs to be
But other wise i just keep to me.

But this is not a fear of which i speak
Its an introduction, its just the peek.

U see i've realised that i'm deep in pain.
But have masked it so long that its just left me lame.

U see i've been falling but not in love.
I've been falling for that puppy love.

It was a simple thing, its called attraction.
But i've mistaken it for affection

So i've left my heart to
be swayed and wooed.
To be swooned and to be moved.

Not by u but many others too.
Cuz i became dependent on them boo.

Their time , i treated like gold.
Their words , like gems and stones.

Jades , rubies , sapphires too.
Diamonds and emeralds
U can name them boo.

Thats how precious i treated them.

So when they left , you can imagine.
The sadness and nostalgia

Most will think it was boys.
Well them too, but its not just them.
Its many others, both sexes alike.
Blood and water , no matter the side.

So whats the realisation that i've checked?

Theres a reason roses grow thorns.

Written 9 August 2021 at 21:19
By a 14 yr old , aka mee🤣.