Rachel: Seb - cut off by Sebastian

Sebastian: Rach, let me finish, you of all people know how hard it was to open up to anyone or to love..heck I just embarrassed myself singing a song I wrote FOR YOU.i know you love me but if caring about they think more than me then where do we stand.. You know what..our date tonight is postponed til you figure out what you want. I'm out of here..

Sebastian turned and started walking out..Rachel just stood there frozen while the rest of glee club just shook heads or smirked. Kurt & Blaine just looked on saddened.

Rachel knew Sebastian was right.She never spoke up when she should have and stood up for both of them.

Finn: So Rach, what's your excuse now?

Rachel: You know what..Sebastian was right..iam so sick of you all dictating my life. Sectionals was not my fault though you want to blame me & Jesse when it was Santana,Brittney and yes even Quinn who spied on us then leaked set list. You always want to replace me but when you need M I'm always there. I can be professional. You can tell me who to love esp when he's the love of my life?! Thanks to you all I may have just lost him...

Kurt:* looking at Rachel* then go after him Rachel...

Rachel: *shocked* I will thank you Kurt..

Kurt :he loves you..

Rachel ran out of auditorium to find Sebastian but he was gone..

What am I going to do now? Rachel thought..Previously on If You Go Away...

Now continuing the story...

Rachel POV

Kurt:* looking at Rachel* then go after him Rachel...

Rachel: *shocked* I will thank you Kurt..

Kurt :he loves you..

Rachel ran out of auditorium to find Sebastian but he was gone..

What am I going to do now? Rachel thought.

I ran through the school to parking lot hoping that maybe Sebastian was waiting for her so that they could talk. I can't find him anywhere. So I got to my locker to gather my belongings and go look for him. I've tried texting him.

Sebastian,

Please honey Iam sorry. You were right. Please text or call me.

-Rach

I dial his cellphone but it goes to voicemail. REALLY?!

Where could he be??? Rachel wondered. Now I know how he felt when he was searching for me. Although this is an entirely different situation.

Damn it, Rachel sighed, why didn't I just tell the glee club about me & Sebastian?! It wasn't that big of a deal and if they didn't approve then they could simply kiss my A... Too harsh?!

Why should I have to sacrifice my happiness if the rest of the team aren't willing to do the same?! Its not like they've ever been there for me. It was always either Finn or Quinn. Heck why did she get songs sung to her just because she was pregnant.and tried to lie about paternity and dyed her hair trying to rebel?! When have they done that for me? Never. Sure Glee means alot to me but having my one true love by my side as i take the next step in my life would be epic.

Speaking of Quinn what is her deal and why is she sooo concerned about me and Sebastian?! She has what she wanted. Wait that text message "If you keep searching for that happy ending you will never get it right" it said. I've heard that before, wait who sent it? It can't. Be. It wouldn't be her..and if so why? Rachel's wondered.

As I thought it over, I drove to Lima Bean to see if Id get lucky. As I parked the car, I see a tall boy with bronze hair and green eyes.with a Warbler blazer heading to his car. SEBASTIAN?!

I hurried out of my car running to catch up with him before he could get away. "Sebastian?!" I yelled. He looked up and saw me, but the pain in his eyes killed me. Sebastian ignored me and tried to open his car door. So I ran to him, grabbing him by the arm.

Rachel: Sebastian please wait.

Sebastian: Wait for what, Rach? What would I be waiting for? How long?

Rachel: I-

Sebastian: I don't even think YOU know Rachel. Look, Iam sorry I put you I an awkward position. I get it, but I just couldn't Stan there and watch the woman I love, my "so called Fiancee", get bullied and pushed around. That's one thing about the Warblers..despite warning me to keep my head in the game & focus on.the Warblers and Regionals...they honestly don't care if we're together. They accept us. And frankly I don't care if.they approve or not. But I know you do.

Rachel: If you stop interrupting and let me finish my sentence?!

Sebastian: *sigh* Fine, proceed...

Rachel: Thank you. As I was TRYING to say is that you were right..about everything. If we're talking about marriage Someday then we have to be honest and support each other. I just wanted to avoid drama and try to be a team player. I am envious that you have such support around you. As for me, I want.to be a part of something special that makes me feel special. What I thought was glee club I failed to realize that we're special. What you did for me, the song, it was amazing. No one has ever done that before and I know how hard it is for you to express your feelings because you portray yourself as this self-righteous asshole. I love that you tried to show others.

Sebastian: Rach. The reason I'm upset Is not solely because I opened my heart to you in public, but that you just let people walk over you. You didn't believe in me or us enough. You never defend me to others. I don't know.. * running hands through his hair frustrated. He played with his car keys as if he was ready to bolt and put distance between us.

Rachel: Can you forgive me?

Sebastian: I can never stay mad at you, and always forgive you.

Rachel: Well that's great. So I guess now we can have our date..-Sebastian cut her off.

Sebastian: But Rachel, I think right now we should just postpone our date and have some space between us.

Rachel: *tears fill her eyes* Are you..are you breaking up with me?

Sebastian: *tears fill his eyes too* Break up? NO! I, uh, I just think we need space for a few days to cool down and.think.things through. Plus Regionals I I a couple weeks so we need to focus. Then maybe after Regionals we can talk about us more.

Rachel: *crying* If that's what you really want..then okay..I'm sorry for bothering you ill just go...* turning to walk away*

Sebastian: Rach, wait, it's NOT what I want, but I do think you need time to deal with everything like your PTSD, glee club, and priorities. I'm still here for you, I just think we need some time.

* he walked up to me, cupping my face,leaning in and giving me the deepest and most passionate kiss we've shared mixed with sadness. "I love you, Rachel. Don't think I don't. If you believe in us enough then we will work through this. Ok? "

Rachel: *kiss back* I do believe...

Sebastian: Do you trust me?

Rachel: I do trust you...

Sebastian: So if you believe or trust me as you say, then we will be ok. I've gotta go but we will talk soon. Okay? I'll respect you and give you space as well.

Sebastian got into his car, but before he drove I remembered something..

Rachel: Seb wait..

Sebastian: What is it?

Rachel: I am just wondering why Quinn is so concerned about our relationship lately. Do you know why?

Sebastian's face got pale but looked down at his steering wheel.and then back at Rachel.

Sebastian: How should I know. She's the Queen B and who knows why she's the way she is. Don't worry about her though. Believe in me..in us babe. *blowing her a kiss*

Rachel: *smiles* I do..be safe..I love you Sebastian Smythe.💋

Sebastian: I love you times infinity, Rachel Barbra Berry. 💋

I stood there as he drove away. I got back into my car and drove home. I held back the tears threatening to spill until I got into my house and ran to my room. I started to cry and I felt like a part of my heart is slipping away. How did we get here?

I get a text..its Sebastian..

Rachel,

Before I forget, check your email. I left a video message for you. I recorded it before today happened. I want you to keep it and think about us. This song is for YOU and YOU alone. I LOVE YOU ❤ I miss you already. But in the end, this will be good for us.

-Seb

I walk over to my laptop, logging into my email account. I open the message, and I was shocked to see Sebastian in his room with Nick, Jeff, and Thad. Sebastian had a guitar I his hand.

"Rachel, the love of my life, I wrote this for you. My first attempt actually. I asked my friends to accompany me. I hope you love it as much as I love you.

I love you beautiful.."

Rachel smiled and sat on her bed as music began.

🎶"(Thad)

Ever since you came into my life,

(Jeff)

Time after time

 Everything that I've tried

 Can't do nothing at all

 Everywhere I walk, nowhere to turn

 I was losing my way

 Crying every day

 I was givin' up and you walked into my life

(Nick)

 I never knew anything about love

 In the world that I know

 Lovers come and go

 Nobody anywhere, talk like you do

 Saying dreams can come true

 Then you made me feel just like a man should feel

[Chorus: ](Sebastian)

 Ever since you walked into my life

 All at once, I feel so strong inside

 Anything you ask of me

 I'll do it faithfully

 Since you walked into my life (into my life)

 Yeah, girl (Thad)

 You're the only one for me

 Oh, girl

 Oh baby (oh baby) (Nick)

 Now I've got a reason to live

 And oh darling

 How I love the sweet love you give (oh baby)

 And I wanna spend my life with you

 Wanna make your dreams come true

 Every step you take I wanna be with you

[Chorus ](All)

(Sebastian)

 I am learning that the touch of love is magic

 Feel it once, and you will see your world so differently

 Nothing stays the way that it was

 Everything begins again

 You're not who you've always been

[Chorus ](Sebastian)

 Ever since you came into my life

 I wanna be with you, girl

 Since you walked into

 Since you walked into my life

 Girl, nothing's ever felt

 Nothing's ever felt so right

 Baby, I wanna be with you

 Since you walked into

 Since you walked into my life

 I wanna be with you

[Repeat and fade ] (Sebastian walked in front of Rachel singing while looking right in the camera)

Rachel had tears in her eyes. Sebastian: Rachel, I know you maybe upset because I'm opening up about my feelings in front of everyone but I don't care. I want the world to know how much I love you and we will be married someday..

Gawd, I love him so much.

* front door opens *

????: Rachel sweetie, we're home.

Rachel: Daddies!!!

* running downstairs to greet her fathers *

She rushed into their arms.

Rachel: DADDY! PAPA: I'm so glad to see you!

*she held onto Leroy and his cried. Both of her fathers were shocked but held her.

Leroy: Rachel, sweetie, what is it?

Rachel: Nothing, just glad you're home. Every girl needs her dads. And in M case in lucky because I have two for the price of one.

Hiram: I think this may require hot cocoa and movie night.

Rachel: Really? Just the three of us?

Leroy: Unless you want to invite Sebastian..

Rachel: No,he's busy plus we're sort of on a temporary break..

Hiram: Did he hurt my babygirl??

Rachel: No, he didn't hurt me at all. He's busy with school and the Warblers and I am busy too. We're just giving each other space.

Leroy: Well okay then, how about that movie date at home with your dear old dads..

Rachel: Funny Girl?

Hiram: Of course...

Rachel: Yay! *squealing* I'll get the popcorn.

So for the rest of the night I enjoyed time with my dads until it was time for bed. No other message from Sebastian. *sigh* its just temporary. And he's right. And nothing will tear us apart.

As I get ready for bed, I hummed the song. I laid in bed crying myself to sleep. I got a text from Blaine and Kurt asking if I was ok. I messaged back letting them know I'll seen them at school. I look at the moon and stars as I stared at the window.

Rachel sent a message to Sebastian

For the rest of my life, I want to be with you.

I love you 👄

Rachel

She put her phone in the nightstand and drifted off to sleep.

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The next morning, Rachel got into her regular routine. She was sad but refuses to let anyone see her cry. She would not show weakness. All she wanted was Sebastian, but maybe this time apart will be good for both if them. As the saying goes, "Absence makes the heart grow stronger" or it can tear you apart.. "trust, Rachel" is what she reminded herself.

She had Glee first period, today, wow lovely. She got to the practice room as was greeted by her fave guys, Klaine.

Kurt: Hey Rachel, my Diva, *hugs*

Blaine: Hello Rach sweetie..wow you look as bad as Seb.

Kurt elbowed Blaine. "ouch!"

Rachel: How would you know?

Blaine: Well I may have paid visit to Dalton to visit the guys, and he.may have told me. Sorry.

Rachel: No, its fine. We're on a short intermission although still dating. I just hate that we have to do this. He was right, no one should control our relationship and feelings.He was hurt and I haven't defended him like I should have. He does so much for me.

Kurt: I see you're still wearing his sweatshirt.."

????: Yea Rach, why are you wearing Warbler dude's sweatshirt? You need to choose whose aide you're on.

Kurt: Mercedes, shush.

Mercedes: Oh hell to the No, if we lose Regionals its gonna be HER fault.

Finn: WE all know Rachel who You belong to and its with me even though I'm with Quinn.

Quinn: Man-hands knows her place and she's a loser.

Rachel had enough.

Rachel: * raises her hand*

Mr Schue: *sighed* What is it Rachel? We don't have time for thus we have to prepare for Regionals.

Mercedes: Yes for MY SOLO that I deserve..

Rachel: It will take a moment.

Mr Schue: FINE, the floor is yours Rachel.

Santana: No one wants to hear you defend your lover Dwarf..

Rachel: ENOUGH! You all have been riding my ass since day one! Its da how after the shooting incident and Dave K suicide attempt NONE of you have learned a damn thing.

Kurt & Blaine sat with jaws dropped.

Rachel: IAM SICK OF IT. And Mr Schue you're the teacher yet you are like the rest of them. You say you're my only fan, but you never defend me. You allow the bullying to go on. I'm tired of always being blamed for things not going someone's way. Always threatened to replace me, yet I can think of dozens of times I've sacrificed ir came through for the team. Mercedes, you had a chance for a solo but wanted me to do it instead even after I was insisted that you take the solo. Our set list had nothing to do with me & Jesse thing. That was Sue. My love life is none of your business. Yes I'm dating Sebastian. Yes he is my competition. But so was Kurt at one point and.we were still allowed to be his friend.

Finn: You're a selfish slut..(AN: Just a quick note ill always love Cory /Finn RIP. Just need him like this for story).

Blaine: Hey Finn, first let her speak. And you better be glad Sebastian isn't here. You think he was bad before..

Kurt: Continue Rachel.

Rachel: Quinn, why is it even you're business. Just keep Finm happy and.stop meddling in mine.Sebastian was correct. Despite how you all feel, the only opinions in our relationship that matter are mine and Sebastian's. Unfortunately right now we're on a break until after Regionals. But, better believe I will get my man back. *glares at Quinn

and mouthed *I know its you*.

Rachel: *sighed* taking seat back down next to Blaine and Kurt.

Kurt whispered:"Iam so proud of you."

Rachel: Thanks Kurt, although Iam shocked you have been supportive. I thought you hated Sebastian.

Kurt: Oh I hate meerkat, but and I repeat don't breathe this to anyone especially Craigslist, bit I see how he treats you and loves you. And you're my Diva. I want you to be safe and happy. If he does hurts you, bets are off. But honestly I'd rather deal with Smytheberry then Finchel especially in New York.

Blaine: I approve too, Rachel. I'll always be there. By the way I videotaped that and he may or may not see it.

Rachel: Thanks guys...

Mr. Schue: Okay time to get back to business.

Over the next couple weeks Rachel just concentrated on school and Regionals. No contact with Sebastian though, no matter how many times she has tried to call or message him. She's even called the Warblers and.asking Blaine. After a week, Rachel realized she was like a stalker and didn't want to push him further away.

Rachel: This sucks. Its like he's disappeared.

Blaine: Rach, relax. He's like you busy with classes and Warblers and Lacrosse. He hasn't forgotten you..

Rachel: *tears* I just miss him...

Finn: Well Rach, you still have me babe.

Rachel: Just..no Finn...* walked away*

Rachel decided to hell with waiting til Regionals. She needs to see Sebastian. SHOULD I go or just wait for him to come to me. What IS he doing anyway?

AN: Wow, drama is building. And what do you think about what Rachel had to say to New Directions and Mr.Schue? I love giving Rachel a true support group like Klaine. And I miss Smytheberry too by stay tuned you never know what may happen..please review & rate. I see tons of views but would love to read your comments & feedback. This keeps me writing. Love you all . I own nothing. Since you walked into my life is by NKOTB. (congratulations to NKOTB on.their HWOF Star! Its about time!)

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