Khun's Pov

  I was getting worried.. Bam abruptly got up and left about 10, 15 minutes ago. People just thought he needed a drink, or needed to use the bathroom, but I couldn't help the doubting feeling in my stomach. I don't think it was any of that.. He had already kinda been off, he was extremely tired after talking to Wangnan and Ewha. He was fine before, begging to get ready, but all of a sudden he got extremely tired.

   Not that I minded snuggling, more the merrier, but it was abrupt. He wanted to get up and ready this morning, but then he was hit with a wave of exhaustion. I gripped at my sheets before swiftly getting out of my bed. I can't just sit around until I know where he is, I don't care if I'm being overprotective. I need to be with him. "I'm sorry, I need to go.." They all shot me looks before Jinsung spoke up, "Him too?" I nodded my head, him sighing in return. "He was, sorry, is a tricky one.."

   I laughed before heading towards the door. How he dealt with him as a moody teen, it's beyond my imagination. Everyone looked confused, but I honestly didn't care. I'll explain after I know he's ok. Jinsung began to explain but I had already opened the door and headed down the hallway. Where would he be..? Hmm.. I'll start off by seeing if the receptionist saw him walk by.. That could help narrow it down..

   I strolled up to the front desk, a woman peering up at me. "How many I help you?" I cleared my throat before talking, "I was wondering if you saw a guy with really really long dark brown hair? Maybe you mistook him for a girl?" She shook her head before answering, "No sir, no one with really long hair.. Sorry,"

   I clicked my tongue before heading down the hallway. If he's not in my room, didn't pass by the receptionist, which is in the way to get water, where did he go..? I slowly treaded back towards my room, until I came to a sudden halt. Is he in the bathroom? It's The other way and right next door.. The light was also on.. I walked up towards the door, slightly knocking. But it was silent, no reply.

    "Excuse me, is anyone in there?" No reply again. I began to bang on the door a tad bit harder. "Excuse me, is everything alright?" I stopped banging, and placed my ear up to the door. There was faint breathing.. Someone's in there.. I jogged back down towards the reception desk. "Ma'am, someone's in the bathroom, but they aren't replying.. I can't tell if there ok,"

   She shot me a concerned look before jumping out of her chair. Must get this a lot.. There some dedication for just being a receptionist. She rifled through keys before heading down the hallway. I quickly caught up with her, I wanted to make sure the person was ok. Especially if it was Bam. But if it was Bam, what happened? Did he pass out? Did he have a wound we didn't know about? Scenarios rushed through my mind, good and bad. We made it down to the bathroom, her shoving the key into the keyhole.

   She unlocked the door, swinging it open. There laid on the ground, rested up against the toilet, was Bam. I rushed up towards his side, lightly shaking him. "Bam, Bam wake up.." Is he ok? I checked his torso, he was breathing and I couldn't see any blood.. What's going on? The receptionist peered down at me, "You know this man?" I nodded, checking his pulse. He was fine?

   "I think he's just.. Sleeping? I think he passed out or something.." The receptionist looked down at me as if I was crazy. "I'll go get a doctor, just to make sure," I nodded and she bolted down the hallway. I turned my attention back to Bam. I wiped away his bangs, looking at his face. He.. He looked exhausted..

   He had large bags under his eyes, his skin looked pale.. How didn't I notice? His bangs shouldn't have hid how tired he looked.. Why was he so tired..? Baby..

    I placed a soft kiss on his forehead, leaning him onto my side. I don't want him leaning on the toilet.. Jesus, what an I going to do with you? I placed my chin on his head, sighing. He so adorable, and I love him with all and everything I have, but no more drama.. Why can't we live a peaceful life together?

   The receptionist and a doctor soon barged in, concern plastered on the doctors face. "Good Morning, I'm doctor Arie. I'll be taking care of him," He had white hair and white eyes, with a dark skin tone. He shuffled over, bending down. "Do we know what happen?" I shook my head, "I think he's just sleeping.."

   He lifted a eyebrow before turning towards Bam. He checked his pupils, pulse, breathing and turned towards me. "Has he had anything that has caused any stress lately?" I sheepishly smiled, nervously chuckling.. "Well I did kinda get shot.."

    He whipped towards me, eyes bulging. "Oh my god.. This poor boy.. I think he hasn't gotten enough sleep because of stress and passed out due to stress and exhaustion. Do you have a bed we could lay him on?" I nodded my head, and began to pick him up with the help of doctor Arie.

   We both picked him up, walking next to my room next door. The receptionist helped open the door, and we walked in, everyone   turning their heads toward us and gasping. Me and doctor Arie laid him into my bed, once he was laid down he turned towards me, "He'll be fine, just make sure he gets rest.." I nodded, and the two of them exited the room.

    I waved them goodbye and went to get Bam situated. I threw the blanket over him, tucking him in, and placing a small kiss on top of his head. He's so much work.. I chuckled before turning around. Everyone was staring at me, concerned.

    Oh.. I forgot they were all still here. They all looked at me, mouths hanging open. Jinsung was the first one to speak up, "So what's with Bam?" I sighed before sitting at the foot of the bed. "He got really stressed out, couldn't sleep, and passed out from exhaustion.. His fine, just needs to rest.." Everyone nodded, calming down. It must have been quiet the scare to see me and someone else carrying him in, passed out.

   I turned towards Bam, focusing on his face. He should get a haircut.. I didn't like how tired he was.. That wasn't happening under my watch ever again. But he did look calmer when asleep, I wonder what he was dreaming about..?

Bam's Pov

His Dream

   I was back at the base. I was in my little steel ridden room with my mattress on the floor. It wasn't much, no windows, the walls were made out off steel, the floor cement. And all I had was a mattress. No dresser, no nightstand, no nothing. Just a mattress and a light thin blanket. I shoved myself of the bed, checking the time on my phone. 3:30am, just in time for training.. I slipped out of my room, heading down the wooden oak stairs. I crept by people's rooms, heading towards the training room. I crept in to see Hansung Yu standing there, waiting for me. Today we were working on hand to hand combat. I tip toed over towards Hansung, bowing. "Thank you sensei for the lessons this morning." He didn't bother saying anything, and I stood straight up. Hansung suddenly threw a punch at me, which I barely dodged. Guess were getting right into this morning.. He continued to throw punches, kicks, elbows, anything to try and knock me down. But he wasn't, after training with him for years and years, I could read all of his moves, even his surprise ones. We continued at it for hours on hours end, until I threw a heavy blow at his face, taking him and me both down. I was panting and heaving, I was exhausted. My head was pounding, my throat ached for water. I was about to get up when the alarms began to go off, making me jump out of my skin..

End of Bam's Dream

   I was jolted awake, sweat streaming down my face. I groaned in pain, as my body resonated in pure agony. It felt as if I had been hit by a truck, that was made of pure cement, that was on fire. I whimpered, bringing down the blanket over my face. Shit, everything fucking hurts.. I opened my eyes, awakening to a white blanket. Wait.. What? I was in the bathroom..? I tugged the blanket down a bit, peering over the top to see Khun staring intently at me.

   Did he find me? But.. I locked the door? "H-" I began to cough, hacking up my lungs. Shit, I think I cried a little bit more than I thought. I slammed my head back into the pillow, coughing. I wanna get up though.. I tried to shimmy my way up, till the point were I was partially sitting up. "Are you ok? Do you need water? Do you have a headache? Do you want medicine? Do you want me to sing you a song?"

   I couldn't help but let out a distorted laugh, it silencing the room. "I'm ok.." Jinsung came out from the back, standing right next to me, shooting up a eyebrow.  "Can you please be honest with us, with me for once?" I could feel my smile falter, myself sinking back down only to stare at the ceiling. "What do you want me to say then? No I'm not?"

   He looked down at me, his eyebrows knitting. "No, I want the truth.. Please..?" I sighed, looking at the ceiling. It was bright white, no dirt, not even dust. The lights from above shined down, illuminating the room. "First of all, I feel like I was hit by a truck. My headache isn't as bad, I'm not dizzy at the moment, and my stomach doesn't hurt as much.. I think I'm just hungry," I laughed, everyone was silent as I continued.
  
   "But mentally, I don't know how many times I've survived myself without telling anyone. I get exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel. I get exhausted from always stressing about others than myself. People do crazy things when there hearts are broken. Sometimes I just want to scream and cry and break things. I just want people to understand my pain. But I don't want people to exactly experience it.. never in a million years would I ever wish that onto someone.. I just want someone to be there, to understand it, I guess support me in a way?" I peered up at everyone before rambling to my own content.

   "My life it's like a book, that one edgy side character with that tragic backstory," I couldn't help but laugh again, "I'm still learning to go back and re-read my chapters without wanting to burn those pages on fire. To see it light up in the night sky and sparkle with the burning stars lighting up the sky."

    "I do really love the stars. At night, when I was all alone on the streets, when Rachel wasn't there, when there wasn't any old men creeping around, I liked to look at the stars. I was never afraid of the night, of the dark. I'm still not, I welcome it. I loved the stars, how they shined so bright. It was a beautiful sight that comforted me. But I didn't like the monsters that came with it. Those nasty slimy people that came with it,"

   "I guess I really just always wanted someone. I never really had someone, for the majority of my life anyway. I didn't want any part time people. I just wanted a hug. As much as I was skiddish and you couldn't even touch my hand or shoulder without me ready to stab you.." I laughed, Jinsung huffing. I shot him a small smile, I still don't know why he dealt with me. "Sometimes a hug speaks more than a thousand words.. " I sat up, lightly groaning. Everyone stared at me, but I didn't really want to look at them. I kinda just went on rambling, I don't even know how they feel.. Ugh, I'm probably bring so inconsiderate! "I'm sorry.. Did I say to-" Oof!

    I looked down to see Khun tackled me into a hug. I couldn't help but get a little teary eyed and hug him back. We just laid there in the bed, in silence. No one moved, no one spoke, everyone's breathing the only sound in the silence. Khun eventually broke the hug, placing a small kiss on my lips before falling back onto the bed. I couldn't help but smile, but now, I do have someone who's here for me that I love with everything I have.

   Everyone was silent until Shibisu came running at me. "I'M SO SORRY MY SON! D-DADDY WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!" He came sprinting at me, knocking me back. We hugged, laughing our asses off. He was such a good guy.. Always a good hugger, since day one. I couldn't help but smile, he was always there in his own way. I He eventually let go, sniffling up a storm. Rak came stomping over, standing in front of me.

   "Your a good turtle. The best pray I got, so keep getting stronger! Although, your a pretty strong turtle. You got heart, just like the almighty Rak! Your worth keeping black turtle!" I couldn't help but laugh as he gave me a hug. I eventually gave everyone a hug, and we were all content..

But what do we, I exactly do now?

   I don't exactly have a place to live, I don't have a job, I have money in my account from Jue Viole Grace, but I shouldn't spend it so hastily. No one else disappeared, they all got homes and jobs..

   I groaned, falling back onto the bed. Shoot.. This is going be a pain. I turned to my side to see Khun staring at me, one of his eyebrows perked up. "What's up now?" I clicked my tongue, "I kinda disappeared from the planet so I don't have a job, a house, and all I have is Jue Viole Grace.. " I sighed out.

   He shot me a questioning look which I fired back. "A what?" He sat up, titling his head down at me. "Who's Jue Viole Grace?" I- What? I looked at everyone else, they were equally confused? Wait.. "Did I not tell you, any of you?" Everyone shook their heads, oh, well that kind of explains it. "He's me. I'm Jue Viole Grace."

   They all tilted their heads, so I continued to explain, "Well F.U.G couldn't just call me Bam, only a few knew my actually name. Jue Viole Grace became my new name.. But anyway, even though I wasn't there for a long time compared to everyone else, I was resourceful so I got some money. So all I really have is money.. "

   Oh's and Ah's were heard throughout the room. "It was so no one would recognize me, but that didn't work out.. " I turned towards Khun, who had a cheeky smile on his face. I couldn't help but shake my head, his such a sly brat. So fucking cute.

   "How couldn't I recognize you? Plus I had a fun night at the party anyway.." I snickered lightly, turning towards Khun. I leaned into his ear and purred, "I know you did~" He flashed me a smile before whispering to me, "Of course, didn't you?~" I giggled, nodding my head. "Your so lucky that their in the room~"

   "Is that a challenge? Because I'll kick them out," We both laughed. "As much as I would love it, you'd probably be to loud," I whacked his leg, "Says who? You?" He nodded, smiling triumphily. Yeah sure, believe whatcha want. We eventually both turned back, acknowledging everyone else in the room.

    "Hey lovebirds, came back to reality? I'm really questioning if I even want to know that you two were saying.." Shibisu cocked his hip out, wiggling his eyebrows knowingly. Yuri spoke up, "So, how long have you two been a thing?" Huh? What!? I went to speak, but nothing came out. I felt like I was being interrogated, and by my old boss and good friend at that. I didn't no what to say.. I peered over at Khun. We both looked at each other clueless.. It wasn't official, like I asked him to be my boyfriend or he asked me to be his, but we definitely weren't just friends..

   We didn't really establish it, I kinda just kissed him while cradling him in my arms with the thought he wasn't going to make it. So I wasn't like 'hey babe, while your dying in my arms and stuff, wanna be my boyfriend?' That would just be obnoxiously stupid on my part, I was more focused on keeping the blood in his body. I put up one finger before grabbing Khun by the wrist. I tugged him out of the room, closing the door.

   We moved a bit away from the door so they couldn't hear us. It would kinda be awkward I guess.. I spoke up,

"I never got to ask, would you like to be my boyfriend?"
   

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