Khun's Pov

   We were doing our second to last question when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. Huh? Only so many people have my contact to my personal number.. I'm also in the middle of a Q&A. Who could it be? It's no one of the crew, there right here. I don't think Dad, Jinsung or Yuri would text me. Wangnan? What would he even need though?

   I slipped out my phone out of my pocket, a text message.. I glanced up at Shibisu, gesturing to him to take it away and focused back onto my phone. I pressed onto the text message, typing in my password. The text message popped up, it was..
Bam?

Bam: Hey baby, I'll be right back. I love you so much, so never forget it

   I whipped up my head, only to be met with Bam's empty chair. I don't like this.. I brought him here so he would stay within my sights, not to disappear.. Where would he have even gone? The bathroom? But he made it sound so much like a goodbye.. I scanned over everyone, catching Endorsi's gaze. I mouthed 'Bam gone.' She flickered up a eyebrow, shifting her attention to Bam's chair. 'Where is he?'

   I shrugged, where did he go? I couldn't help my fastening heartbeat, my pumping adrenaline, he couldn't help but make me worry. I- I don't know where he is.. And it's killing me.. Why can't we just finish up the Q&A already.. He said he would be right back, made it sound like a goodbye, and didn't tell me where he went. God damn it Bam! God damn it..

   "Thank you so much everyone for coming, you can exit through the way you came, and have a great rest of your day!" Shibisu announced, waving everyone goodbye. I jumped out of my chair, heading out into the rest of the small building. There wasn't much, it had the smaller room we were in, a receptionist desk in a small lobby and a bathroom. He couldn't be lost.. I jogged into the lobby, only to see fans leaving, no Bam.

   I sprinted towards the Bam, rapidly knocking on the door. "Bam, are you in there?" No reply. Where the fuck is he? I dashed out the building, yelling coming from behind me. It felt as if they we so far away, but I could sense them only a few feet behind. I scanned the road, no Bam. "God damn it!" I shouted, to no one in particular. Where the fuck is he? I'm not playing any fucking games anymore..

   I searched down the sidewalk, scanning through all the cars. No Bam, no Bam, no Bam. He couldn't have disappeared again.. No. He couldn't have.. Right? He wouldn't do that right? He wouldn't leave us.. He wouldn't leave his family.. He wouldn't leave me.. Right? Thoughts stained my mind, but I could only come up with one answer. I'll kept fucking chasing my baby then..

   I glanced over to see that everyone had caught up, but I ignored them, closing my eyes. If he didn't come back, he wasn't in the bathroom, said practically a goodbye, it meant that he had encountered F.U.G? But.. At my fucking Q&A? I'll fucking shot a bitch.. I snapped my eyes opening and was going to tell the group what had supposedly happened.. When I heard a slight yell? I whipped around narrowing my eyes into a dark alleyway that had been right behind me.

   Could it be Bam? I let my curiosity get the better of me, and silently snuck down the alleyway, sticking to the sides in the dark. I glanced back, seeing Shibisu and the others sticking close behind me. I'm saving Bam, even if I get shot again.. I ducked, hiding behind a dumpster, it's back facing us, being able to hide us all. I peeked over the dumpster to see.. A white haired male, a red head.. And Bam! I mentally cheered but froze as I heard Bam growl.

   "I'm not a killer like you, I don't kill kids for the fun of it! You think I want to be there? This time you wont get to have me.." He lifted a gun? What the hell is going on. I focused intently, my heart shattering into millions of pieces as he placed the gun to his temple. "And if I don't go?"

   I couldn't help but let a small tear fall down my cheek.. He wouldn't actually do it right? He wouldn't right? He had me, Shibisu, Endorsi, Rak, Anak, Hatz, Lauroe, Jinsung, Yuri, and even my dad. We all loved him, I don't want to let him go again.. I-

   "Viole, put the god damn gun down, now." The white haired man snarled, his face transforming as if he was the devil, his eyes piercing through everyone, it was as if he grew fangs and was thousands of feet tall, towering over everyone with just eight words. It took only a few words for everyone to quiver under his gaze, but Bam only looked more furious.

   "Why do you try and play as if I'm the fool? I could, no should pull the fucking trigger. I've thought about it a lot.. As a kid I thought I shouldn't be here, I was going to die anyway. I was lonely and useless. I had seven years to plan out multiple suicide attempts in F.U.G.. What happens when the world collapses on you and you can't take it anymore?"

   His finger was shaking on the trigger, "You pull the trigger.. And my world collapsed a long time ago.. So I'll see you on the other side? I'll see you in hell, you fucking demon.." My vision blurred, silent tears falling down my damp cheeks, myself falling to the ground.

    I got to save him, I- I don't want him to go.. I want to stay.. I want my baby to stay. I tried to stand but my head pounded and everything was spinning, my legs were heavy and I couldn't move. I pressed my back against the dirty brick wall, sobbing into my hands.

BANG!

...

   "YOU FUCKING ASS! I SWEAR TO GO-" And everything went silent. My tears rushed down my face, I- I don't wanna see. I want him to still be here. He's here.. He can't leave. He'll be with me tonight, we'll cook dinner and snuggle and possibly invite the gang. Everything will be fine. He'll sing another one of his songs with his angelic voice and he'll flash me the one of the many perfect smiles of his.

   He won't leave us. He'll stay with us, he go someone in life. He'll get a great enjoyable job with good pay like he should have, he'll be surround with the people he loves and we'll help him grow, and we stay together. He can sing me the song he wrote for me when we get home. It'll be just great.. I couldn't help my sobs as I hid my face in my hands..

   But the thing is, he isn't coming back to the house. He isn't coming back to our home. We won't be making dinner together, he won't cuddle with me tonight, he won't give me anymore loving kisses, he won't sing me the song for me. Because he won't be there, and it's all my fucking fault. If he didn't feel the need to protect me, he would have never gone to that stupid fucking gang. If we never met, he would have had a better life. It was my FAULT. I'm so sorry baby.. I love you so god damn much, I love you. I'll always love you forever and always my love.

"Fucking shit, I didn't move fast enough. My fucking foot hurts like mother fucking hell. God fucking damn it. Stupid little bitch. I should have moved the gun faster.. Ow.. "

   I whipped up my head, peeping over the dumpster. What the fuck! Bam was clutching onto the gun, his foot bleeding. "You fucking bitch!" I couldn't help but yell, stomping out from behind the dumpster. "You don't just pretend to commit fucking suicide.. You- you bitch! You stupid idiot!" I whacked him in the back of the head. He needed to try and get sense through his dense skull.

   Bam turned around, his eyes bulging. "Eh- wait WHAT? Khun what are you doing here? I- I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! How much did you see? I didn't think you were watching.. I would have found other way to freak them out and confuse them.. I-" I tackled Bam into a hug, not minding anyone else.

   "Your a fucking selfless bitch. Next time I rather you shoot them," I turned towards the red head and white haired man. "Fuck both of you. You'll both be going to jail, and if it wasn't for the police, I'd make your life a living hell and skin both of you while you were wide awake and watch you wail in pure excruciating agony and laugh mercilessly at your shouts and frail body. Don't even come near him again unless you want a slow, painful death. "

   I glared at them, ready to snatch the gun out of Bam's hand. They both seemed to try and stay stoic, but I could see there act slowly crippling. "And don't worry, the police is already on there way! They'll be here any minute! Any second!" Shibisu smiled, standing up from behind the dumpster. Bam smiled at him, them both nodding.

   I wrapped Bam in a hug, glaring over his shoulder, flipping off the white haired guy. He can go eat shit. I'll fucking tear out his throat. Someone hold my fucking earrings.

   I sighed, placing my head into Bam's shoulder. I closed my eyes, focusing onto the noisy sirens that came closer and closer. Everything was going to be alright. I couldn't help but hug Bam a little closer, we were going to be alright.