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Ate Van 🌷

October 15, 6:49 p.m.

Vina bakit hindi mo sinabi sakin
Wala na pala kayo ni Jalil?
Nalaman ko pa kanina sa Kuya niya mismo

Sorry ate
Di ko rin alam pano ko sasabihin eh
Si Devie lang actually nasabihan ko
kasi nakikipag change ako ng partners nun

Kailan pa kayo nag break?
And are you okay?
Sorry rin pala kanina bb
Inaya ko pa sila ng merienda. I didn't know :(

Oki lang ate
Siguro two weeks ago
Wala na kami before our 3rd anniv

Hala?
Tapos binati ko pa kayo?
Bakit di mo ko sinabihan agad 😔

Kasi di ko rin talaga alam paano ate
Sorry :(

Mas nauna ba yun kaysa nung nagpaalam ka
mag review outside? Tapos sabay kayo umuwi?

Yup

So you ended up on good terms naman?

Oo ate
We did

Oki oki

6:53 p.m.

Vinaaaa

Ate?

May I ask why :(
Bakit kayo nag break ni jalil
I was really rooting for the both of you eh
Grabe ever since you were 15?
Ang tagal niyo na rin 😔
Tapos ang cute cute niyo pa together please
Nanghihinayang din ako dito :(

Pressured kasi ako

Saan?

Acads
Kila papa and kuya
Pati si mama

Vina :(

Tapos may times na biniblame nila
si jalil sa shortcomings ko
Kahit mga friends ko :(
Sometimes I feel guilty kasi
alam kong hindi naman totoo yun
And I can't even defend them kasi
sasabihan nila akong sumasagot kahit hindi naman
Mas nakakainis pa kasi sila ja, devie, and mac pa
yung tumutulong sakin sa school kapag hirap na
ako pero sila pa yung napapasama

Haaay 😔
Sorry bb

And somehow, I'm beginning to hate myself din
Kasi bakit kahit anong effort ko parang walang
nangyayari. Hindi naman ako nagpapabaya
I'm doing what I can but sometimes....
I don't know :(

Ano yun vina?

Ewan ko ate
You may think I'm ungrateful
Pero sometimes naiisip ko na waste of energy
and space lang ako. Puro sakit ng ulo
nabibigay ko kay mama and papa, pati kay kuya
Minsan napapaisip ako what if wala na lang ako
One less disappointment siguro sa family natin
I mean, di naman kayo disappointment ni kuya
Actually kayo nga ata standard ni mama and papa
Ako lang talaga yung disappointment dito
If you cancel me out sa equation
ang perfect ng family ninyo

VINA!
Wag mong sasabihin yan please

Sorry ate
Minsan talaga di ko lang maiwasan isipin
Kasi lately parang wala na talaga akong ginagawang
tama. And it's not like im not trying
Frustrated din naman ako sa sarili ko kasi parang
walang napupuntahan yung efforts ko

Bb :(
I didn't know you were struggling that much na
I'm sorry :( if ever I contributed something to
make you feel that way, I'm sorry
Sorry rin for not being by your side always

It's okay ate. Don't say sorry
Ikaw na nga lang din kakampi ko dito 😔
Saka wala ka namang kasalanan. It's just me
Hindi ko lang talaga maiwasan isipin yun minsan
And I also hate myself for thinking this way
Kasi ang daming mas less privileged compared sakin
Tapos ako, ganito ako. I feel like I don't deserve it

6:58 p.m.

Sorry for dumping this on you ate van
And please wag mo to sasabihin kahit kanino
I haven't shared this with anyone else :(

Bb
I'll go up dyan sa room mo oki?
Let's talk nang maayos
Do you want some warm milk?
Titimplahan kita or hot choco

Kahlua 🤧

Okay okay
I'll make you some kahlua
Hot ba?

Yes ate
Yung mainit
And please don't be stingy with the rum 😔

Hahahahaha
Okay bb
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