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November 7, 9:01 a.m.

Vi bakit?
Sorry ang hina kasi ng signal kanina
Hindi nagsesend replies ko

9:04 a.m.

Ano nangyari?

9:06 a.m.

Vina? 😔

9:10 a.m.

Hi it's okay
I'm just so mad :(

Ayos lang vi
Bakit ka galit?
Ano nangyari?

Can we talk later instead ja?
It feels like my head is spinning
And I want to pull my hair and throw something against the wall :(

Hala

Okay sorry
I wasn't supposed to say that
But I'm so angry it feels like something inside me wants to lash out 😔

Ayos lang vi
Ilabas mo lang

I'll just try to calm down here for a bit
Please give me a minute

Sige lang vi
Sabihan mo lang ako pag okay na ha?
Nandito lang ako

Yes i will
Thank you and have a safe trip

Salamat

9:15 a.m.

Vi?
Nandyan ka pa ba?

Yes i'm here

May sasabihin ako
Importante

Ano yun?

I love you hehe :)

Aww 🥺
I love you too

Hindi ko alam pano kita tutulungan kumalma
Pero basta nandito lang ako, okay?

Talking to you helps me calm down 🥺
I want you to know that even your presence alone makes me feel 10000x better

Grabe hahaha
Alam mo ba

Ano yun ja?

Wala naman
Mahal talaga kita
Di ko alam kung sapat na ba tong pagmamahal ko sayo para maging okay ka pero promise, nandito lang ako palagi vina.

Ja 🥺
I told you your presence alone is enough

Oo alam ko naman yun
Pero napaisip din kasi ako

Ano yun?

Pano kapag dumating yung panahon na hindi?
Na kahit pagmamahal ko sayo di na rin enough para maging okay ka. Medyo natakot saka nangamba lang ako

Do you want me to tell you a secret?

Ano yun?

You know when I pushed you away
I was in a deeper spiral than I am now
and I regret that :( I'm sorry for hurting you for making you feel na your love and understanding for me wasn't enough. But to tell you honestly, you were more than enough ja. Hindi ko man palaging nasasabi sayo, but thank you for being patient with me, for staying by my side even if it's hard to stay and even if also pushed you away.

9:18 a.m.

Although I also have to be honest na I don't want to take you for granted. I also want to assure you na I'm taking some steps to be better each day, kahit super small steps lang. Probably running away from home was the biggest one. Alam ko mali siya, but it's the longest time I have breathed without feeling like there's something around my neck choking me. And thank you for understanding that I had to do this for myself even if I got you all so worried.

9:21 a.m.

I know it's difficult to stay with me right now
And I couldn't thank you enough and ate van and devie and mac and jana and mama nat for being by my side at this moment

9:23 a.m.

So don't you ever think na your presence and your love for me won't be enough. Because I appreciate you so much. Bigger than all the existing galaxies out there, oki?

9:25 a.m.

I love you ja
And thank you

Wala na akong masabi
Saka wag mo ko paiyakin dito ano ba
Si kuya minamata na ako 😭

Hahahaha it's okay
You can tell me you love me 🥺

Mahal kita sobra

And then you can kiss me next time
And give me a tight hug
And date me hehe

Okay sige
Gagawin natin lahat yan

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Vina @vinanathalie
You are my calm. Always.
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