I stayed in Enzo's room for a few hours to take a nap because crying that hard really took all my energy left in me. He was just there, using his laptop to communicate with his clients even on Sundays.

Typical workaholic Enzo. He never really changed.

Nakatulog ako after ng lunch at nagising sa sunod-sunod na pagba-vibrate ng phone ko. I received calls and texts from Grayson and now, I started to feel nervous.

"Oh, kanina pa tumatawag 'yan. Sagutin mo na't sabihin mo, aalis ka na," he said as he rubbed the towel on his wet hair.

Hindi ko siya pinansin. Binuksan ko ang mga text na na-receive ko galing sa kan'ya. Do'n ko lang din na-realize na 7:30 p.m. na pala. Ang una niyang text ay kanina pang 5:40 p.m.

Grayson:

I'm home, my love. I drove Jenna and Love to the airport. They are on their way back to Manila now.

Grayson:

Hey, where are you? I'll come and join your little trip. :)

Grayson:

Summer, why are you not answering my calls?

Grayson:

Hey

Grayson:

Summer, where the fuck are you? You're scaring me.

Grayson:

Can you please just pick up the fucking phone?

I was resisting myself from breathing as I read all of it, until I read his one last text message that made me feel so nervous.

Grayson:

Go home. We will talk.

I gulped as I turned my phone off. I looked at Enzo who's watching me now.

"I . . . I need to go."

He smirked. "Aalis na tayo bukas. I already bought you a ticket, Summer."

I bit my lower lip. "N-Nandoon ang mga gamit ko."

He sighed. "Okay. Hatid kita. I will pick you up tomorrow kapag hindi ka umalis doon mamaya."

Wala na akong magawa kung hindi ang tumango na lang at pumayag sa lahat ng sinasabi niya. Tumayo siya at kinuha ang wallet saka nagbihis sa harap ko na parang palagi niyang ginagawa noong boyfriend ko pa siya. I quickly looked away as I felt my face heated.

He's not making me feel the same way anymore, really. I really moved on.

After that, we went out of his room together. Since he doesn't have a car here, we rode a tricycle on the way to Tagbilaran. In thirty minutes, nakarating kami sa harap ng bahay ni Grayson. Enzo didn't went out of the trike anymore since he said that he and the driver will wait for me.

Pagkababa ko ng tricycle at pagpasok ko ng gate sa bahay ni Grayson, do'n ko lang na-realize na nakapatay ang lahat ng ilaw dahil sobrang dilim. Gabi na pero hindi pa rin niya bnubuksan ang ilaw kahit na kanina pa naman yata siya nakauwi.

For some reason, I am so scared to enter the front door. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang takot ko ngayon. Is this because I am guilty of meeting my ex-boyfriend, which Grayson despised the most? I took a deep breath before I opened the door.

Inside of the house was so dark, I had to turn on the lights. I looked around the place but he wasn't there. Parang wala namang nagalaw. Even the kitchen looked the same way as I left earlier today. So, I realized, maybe he is in his room.

I went upstairs and when I'm in front of his room's door, I became more nervous. My hands are cold and shaking. I couldn't even hold the doorknob properly.

Fuck, what is going to happen?

When I turned the doorknob and opened the door, I saw Grayson sitting on the edge of the bed, crouching while his hands were on his face. He looked at me with his serious eyes that made me scared.

Fuck . . . I have never seen Grayson this way. Why does he look scary now?

"Close the door," he said.

I gulped as I closed the door. I walked towards him but he stood up and took something under his bed. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang makita ko kung ano ang bagay na 'yon.

"Care to fucking tell me what this is all about?" he asked in his angry tone.

I gulped as I looked at him. "Y-You know that I only have t-thirty days—"

"You were only here for twenty eight days, Summer!" he shouted that made me jump on my position. "I still have two days but why are you so fucking eager to fucking leave me?! I still have two days to fucking show you reasons to stay with me!"

I took a deep breath as tears began to fall. I hate to see this frustrated, angry and hurt Grayson. This is the last thing that I wanted to see from him before I leave.

"You know, I told you, right? I can't stay," I said in my broken voice. "This is not the life I had. This is not the life for me. I-I don't belong here."

"Who fucking told you that you don't belong anywhere, huh?! As long as you are with me, you belong anywhere that you want to be!"

I cried more as I watched him unzip my luggage and remove all those clothes and other things inside, making it scattered on the floor.

"You are not leaving me!"

I sobbed continuously as I covered my mouth with my right palm. A few seconds later, he went to me and held both sides of my arms, asking me to look at him.

"Summer, you will stay with me, right?"

I slightly shook my head. "Hindi p'wede."

He gulped. "T-Then, you will leave then come back to me, right?"

I cried more. "I'm sorry, Grayson. Hindi na."

He heaved a deep sigh. "But . . . why?"

I shook my head. "Mahal mo si Jenna noon. May anak kayo. P'wede n'yo nang ayusin ang pamilya na nabuo n'yo noon."

He shook his head as his eyes went red. "So what if I loved her before? You were the one I love now, Summer. Ikaw na . . ."

I looked down, sobbing, as I tried to remove his hands on my arms. "Grayson . . . you have a daughter with her."

"So what?! I can be a father to her while being a husband to you! What's so hard to understand about that, Summer?!" He tried to hold my arms again but I took a step back. "Summer, fuck, what are you doing to me?!"

I sobbed as I wiped my tears. "Grayson, why don't you take this chance to fix everything you had with her? Love doesn't deserve to grow up in a broken family!"

"Jenna can find another man—"

"Pero kailangan ka ng anak mo! You need to be there for her all those times that she is growing up! You need to take responsibility for something that you did with her! May anak ka! May anak kayo! Hindi tayo p'wede, Grayson!"

He sighed as he turned his back on me, wiping his face in frustration. After that, he looked at me again. "Dahil lang may anak ako, hindi mo na ako matanggap?"

My eyes widened at his remark. "Hindi 'yun 'yon!"

"Eh ano?!"

"You need to take responsibility for Love!"

"Gagawin ko naman, ah? Kailangan ko bang bumalik kay Jenna para lang magawa ko 'yung responsibilidad ko sa anak ko?"

I gulped. "Oo!"

He scoffed. "Tang ina, si Jenna hindi ako pinipilit bumalik sa kan'ya. Tapos ikaw, pinagtutulakan mo ako palayo?" He laughed sarcastically. "Summer, taking my responsibility is never limited to being with someone I no longer love anymore. You are not young anymore to not know about that!"

I gulped as I looked away. I wiped my tears before I picked up all my things that were scattered on the floor and put it back in my open luggage. Grayson kicked the luggage so hard, it moved far away from me. I glared at him.

"Stop doing that!" I shouted. "Will you just let me leave?"

He shook his head. "You can't leave me this way. You love me, I know."

I pursed my lips. "I don't."

He shook his head once again. "You do. I love you, Summer. And I know that you do too—"

I sighed in frustration. "Grayson, wala pa tayong isang buwan na magkakilala. Gano'n ba ako kababaw sa tingin mo? Para magmahal ng isang taong nakilala ko in less than a month?"

His mouth parted. I know I hurt him with what I said butI never really meant that. I just needed to say these things so he would let me go.

Please, my love. Make this thing easier for me, please . . .

"What are you saying?"

I gulped as I looked away. "Hindi kita minahal sa isang buwan na magkasama tayo. Hindi ako gano'n kababaw para magmahal ng gano'n kabilis." I looked at him once again. "Do you really think it's love? Not because I let you fuck me everyday doesn't mean I loved you too, Grayson. I am a woman with needs too."

He smirked. "I never fucked you, Summer. I made love to you everyday! All this time, did you think of that as fucking?! I never fucking did! I never fucked you! I made love to you everyday because I truly loved you! And I am not naive to not know and feel that you feel the same way towards me—"

"Hindi nga, eh!" I shouted, cutting him off, making his mouth parted. "Hindi nga gano'n ang nararamdaman ko! Huwag mong diktahan ang nararamdaman ko dahil ako ang may damdamin dito, Grayson!"

I watched him gulp repeatedly, unable to say a word. He looked so hurt right now. I couldn't continue watching him so I turned my focus on the floor and picked my things up.

"I am not that shallow to fall in love with someone in less than a month. For me, you're just a stranger that I let to fuck me everyday. You're just nothing to me. I never loved you, Grayson. Not even once in all those days that we're together. I never did!"

I walked to my opened luggage and put all the things I picked up inside. I continued picking things up as my heart continued to shatter on this floor I am walking on while I kept on telling lies just so he could let me go.

"Kung ikaw, mababaw ang pagtingin mo sa pagmamahal, ako, hindi! I literally had a six-year relationship with someone back when I never knew you yet. And you really think I could fall for someone like you that easily? Gano'n ba kataas ang tingin mo sa sarili mo, huh, Grayson?"

I was stopped by his both hands when he held both of my arms and made me face him. He was looking at me like he's watching me lie in front of him but the pain is very evident in his eyes.

"Why are you shaking?" I looked away. "Why are you sweating in this cold room? Why are you avoiding my gaze, Summer?"

I pushed him away as I forced myself to look at him. He was not clear to my sight since my eyes are filled with tears I've been holding for a moment already.

"I am not." I blinked and tears fell voluntarily. "Aalis na ako dito ngayong gabi kaya ako umuwi. I just need to take my things since I have a flight back to Manila tomorrow morning."

He sighed as he cupped my face. "Summer, no, please. Let's try again. Baka kulang pa ang isang buwan para sa 'yo. Do you want me to come to Manila with you? We'll figure it out! We'll be together for a long time until you realize that what I said was true! I know you love me, Don't leave me, please . . ."

I took a deep breath as I removed his hands on my face. "Enzo is waiting for me outside. I need to get my things quickly."

I looked away as soon as I saw his mouth parted as his eyes started to cry.

"Is this why you made me meet Jenna and Love? Did you already plan for this? To leave me and come back to your fucking ex?!"

That's the right reaction, my love. You need to be angry at me. You should be.

"Oo."

He laughed sarcastically. "Fuck, I even saw this coming because I checked your phone and you're talking to him!" I looked at him, shocked at what he said. "I saw this fucking coming but I still believe and trust you! That you won't leave me for that asshole who calls you names—bad fucking names—and you're still leaving me for him!"

I gasped at all of the things I just heard. "Who told you to do that?! Why are you using my phone without my knowledge?!"

"I am your boyfriend, Summer!"

"But it doesn't mean that you can do that!"

He scoffed. "I actually know that you went to Jenna's room but have you heard anything from me? No. Because you're my girlfriend and I am giving you rights to everything I own!"

I couldn't talk anymore because I felt guilty.

"You left the lights on a few days ago! My box containing that family picture was not in its right place! Sa tingin mo, hindi ko mahahalata na pinakikialaman mo ang gamit ko?" He chuckled. "Alam ko lahat! Kilala ko ang lahat ng gamit ko, at alam ko kung kailan pinakikialaman 'yon at hindi! Pero wala kang narinig sa akin, 'di ba? Kasi ikaw 'yan! Mahal kita kaya lahat ng sa akin, sa 'yo na rin!"

He looked away as he wiped his tears. After that, he looked at me again.

"Ngayon, aalis ka? Iiwan mo ako? Hindi ka na babalik kasi sasama ka na sa ex mo?"

I didn't talk. I don't have the heart to talk back to him because I know that I've been hurting him the moment I entered this room. I don't want to add another reason to hurt him because seeing him this way right now hurts me more than I've ever hurt in my whole life.

I love you so bad, Grayson, that I did all these for your daughter.

"Umalis ka na! Tanggalin mo lahat ng gamit mong 'yan dito! 'Wag na 'wag ka nang babalik at magpapakita sa akin kahit kailan! Umalis na kayong lahat!"

After he said those words, he walked out and left me alone in his room. As soon as I heard the loud bang of the door, I cried all the tears I tried to hold on for so long as I sat on the floor.

Everything I planned is happening.

Now, why am I feeling so . . . awful?