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Ry @aziahsbaby
Mga kasalanan sa akin ni Princess Aziah Florencio - Adeva [AKA REDACTED]
1 Walang support sa anak naming dalawa. 😤 Pangit ugali kahit masarap siya!!
2 May sampung anak kay Jahiel who the fuck is that na pending!!!
3 Dinaan lang ako sa kiss at heto ako patay na patay pa rin sa kan'ya 🤬😡🤬😡🤬
4 Ayaw pa ako pakasalan 🤬🤬🤬
5 Binibitin ako 🤬🤬🤬

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Chapter 38

I woke up with my head feeling a bit dizzy, my head was being bombarded with scenes last night. Maybe because someone fucked me out of my brains. Ang sabi n'ya pa ay hindi kami masyadong magtatagal dahil halos madaling araw na.

"Ry," I started to call him. Inalog-alog ko siya upang magising na. "Baka hinahanap na ako nila Ate Ai."

Hindi ako nakapagpaalam sa kanila kagabi. Dito na rin kasi kami dumeretso ni Ryker sa hotel room n'ya. Ang gago lang dahil yung pang-honeymoon na hotel room ang kinuha n'ya. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung uunahin ko bang mairita dahil ibig bang sabihin no'n ay may ikakama siyang babae kung di man kami nagbati kagabi?

"Dito ka na muna," mahimbing n'yang bulong. He started to move towards me and embraced me more in his arms. The faint smell of his body made me close my eyes. Amoy essential oil talaga siya. A mixture of being calm and manly exudes from him.

"Pauwi na sila," I told him. "Ang alam ko ay hanggang after lunch lang tayo."

"Then let's stay here for a bit," he suddenly opened his eyes and focused his visage towards me. "Magpaalam na lang tayo na maiiwan tayong dalawa."

My cheeks reddened. "Then they'll know. . ."

"They'll know what?"

"Na pinasok mo ang sandata mo sa bulaklak ko," I deadpanned.

Humalakhak siya at binaon ang mukha sa aking dibdib. His laughter reverberated and I could feel it against my chest. I feel like it was made for me. The way his heart would make sure that I could hear every beat and know that it's for me. . .it magnified the intense longing I had for him.

"Sex lang, Ziah," tawa n'ya. "Grabe naman."

We both fell into silence, we enjoyed the saturated feeling of not having to think about what comes next and enjoy the current warmth of each other's arms. Ako na ang naunang tumayo at tiningnan kung nasaan ang damit ko. . .damn this one great fucker.

"Sinira mo damit ko!" I hissed then threw a pillow on his face. "Grabe naman performance mo kagabi dahil nanira ka pa ng damit!"

"Gigil factor lang 'yon, 'te," halakhak n'ya at unti-unting umupo na rin mula sa pagkakahiga.

"Ry," I groaned as I picked up my torn clothes. Inangat ko pa ito at halata pagkasira nito, it was multiplied into two! Akala mo si Wolverine ang kasama ko kagabi eh! Sirang-sira yung damit ko!

"Palitan ko na lang. . ." He chuckled nervously, at talagang na-guilty pa siya.

"Wala akong susuotin palabas!" I glared at him, sharply. Naiinis talaga ako dahil buti na lang kahit paano ay hindi nadamay ang underwear ko.

"Bilhan kita," he said, then slowly got up from the bed. "Wait for me here. Magpadala na rin ako ng food sa room service."

"Pupunta pa ako kina Ate Ai," I told him, almost whining. Nakabusangot na ako dahil alam ko na baka kanina pa ako hinahanap ng mga ate ko. Hindi pa kasama sina Kiran at Lotte sa listahan pero alam ko na baka nagaalala na rin ang mga iyon sa akin.

"Ako na," he craned his neck as if he was massaging it. He glanced at me. "Sabihin ko na lang na nakitulog ka sa kwarto ko kagabi."

"Aba naman!?" I groaned inwardly. Wala talaga akong kawala sa kan'ya!

Nagulat ako nang hatakin n'ya ako sa aking balakang upang patakan ng halik sa labi. His lips on mine almost made me melt. And I knew at that moment, our feelings were finally speaking for each other. We didn't need the confirmation of words because our actions were able to speak for us.

"Hanapan lang kita ng t-shirt," he rasped as his eyes landed on mine. "Pahinga ka na lang muna ulit."

"Sina Ate Ai. . ."

"Ako na magpapaalam."

"Nakakahiya."

"Ate ko naman," he sighed. "Naghubaran na tayo't lahat, nahihiya ka pa rin sa akin?"

"Gago!" I hissed at him as my eyes narrowed. "Hindi sa 'yo! Bakit naman ako mahihiya sa 'yo? Nahihiya ako kina Ate Ai!"

He chuckled harmoniously. His big hands cupped my face to give me a lasting kiss once again. Bahagya akong pumikit nang tanggapin ang halik na iyon.

"See you later," namamaos n'yang saad bago tuluyan akong iniwan. Kita ko ang pagkubli ng isang ngiti sa kan'yang labi.

I touched my lips as I looked at him as he left the room. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ipapaliwanag sa mga kaibigan ko ang nangyari. Kung paano kami nagbati kahit walang humihingi ng paumanhin sa aming dalawa. I wasn't sure if this was all right, I just know that I couldn't push myself to break it once again.

This time, I want to treasure his feelings. I want to embrace it, accept it, and keep it with me.

Sinunod ko ang bilin ni Ryker sa akin. Nang magising ako ay halos tanghali na. Sumakto lang na may room service kaya naalimpungatan ako. I went to the center table and saw a neatly folded shirt. Agad na sumilay ang ngiti sa aking labi. I went to grab it and saw that it was newly bought. Mabango naman ang amoy nito, tila bagong laba.

What made me cringed and cursed at Ryker was the design itself. Napamura ako nang makita ito pero wala naman akong choice dahil wala akong ibang damit!

Sinuot ko na ito habang tinatadtad ng mura si Ryker sa utak ko. I really don't get him sometimes! Matalino naman siya! Pero baka gumaganti ang isang iyon sa akin kaya naman pinagtitripan ako ngayon!

I huffed as I answered the room service. Hinatid lang ang pagkain namin at ang ilang mga necessities para sa bathroom. I politely thanked the person who delivered the food. As soon as I closed the door, I texted Ryker if he's about to come back. Nag-reply naman siya na mauna na ako kumain. Yet, I waited for him.

Nang dumating siya ay nagpapatuyo siya ng buhok gamit ng isang maliit na tuwalya. His lips parted upon seeing me while I was pouting. Hindi pa naman ako gutom pero hindi ko talaga alam ang mararamdaman sa damit ko ngayon. I'm being soaked in embarrassment.

"Ang cute mo naman," he chuckled as soon as his eyes landed on my shirt.

"Salamat ha," badtrip na sagot ko sa kan'ya.

He went beside me and helped me arrange the food. Nagulat ako dahil halos mga paborito ko pala. Nakatakip kasi ito kanina kaya hindi ko nakita ang mga laman. It was as if it was tailor-made for my stomach. Lahat ay gusto ko!

"Kain na tayo," anyaya ko sa kan'ya. Pero nakatitig lang siya sa akin. Nailang ako nang bahagya dahil pakiramdam ko ay titig na titig siya sa ginagawa ko. It was fascinating to watch.

"Iba gusto kong kainin eh," halakhak n'ya at tinanggal ang ilang hibla ng buhok na sagabal sa aking mukha. "Kumain ka nang marami."

"Bwisit ka, Ryker!" I hissed but then slowly sliced the meat on my plate. "Susubuan kita, bawal na hindi ka kumain."

Binigyan n'ya lang ako ng isang ngiti bago ibuka ang kan'yang bibig upang tanggapin ang isusubo kong pagkain sa kan'ya. We ate in silence, pakiramdam ko ay may gusto siyang sabihin pero di na lang n'ya sinasatinig.

I want more days like this one, kung saan hinahayaan lang namin na tangayin kami ng ideya na masaya kaming dalawa. We didn't need to put fences around us. We could freely be affectionate to each other.

Nakatanggap ako ng mga mensahe mula kay Ate Ai at Ate Rita. Both of them were gushing, I could practically hear their squeals and giggles.

Ate Ai:
Gudluck sa loving nyu ni dacs

Ate Rita:
may asawa ka na pala
di mo sinabi agad!
nagpakilala si dax sa amin kanina

Ziah:
sinong putanginang daks yan
ay hala sorry

Ate Ai:
purkit di ka namin intern ah!
hahahaha

My forehead creased as soon as Ryker's nickname was revealed in our group chat. Yet, it also managed to clear my head for a bit. At least, hindi na namin magugulo si Kuya Jahiel. Nakakahiya rin dahil nadadamay siya sa mga ganito! Ang inosente no'ng tao!

Ang sunod kong pinuntahan ay sina Kiran at Lotte. I was able to track them immediately because they just posted on Instagram. Sa story ni Kiran ay nahulog si Lotte sa mismong surf board. Rinig na rinig ang malakas na tawa ni Kiran sa clip na iyon.

Nang makarating ako ay halos patapos na sila. Pinipiga na lang ni Lotte ang maikli n'yang buhok upang matuyo. She glanced at me and smiled teasingly as if she knew something happened last night.

"Saan ka galing? Pinuntahan ka namin kagabi sa room number mo," puna ni Lotte. "Wala ka raw?"

"Nanghuli ng Ratatouille," I scoffed, then tightly held onto my big shirt. Size pa yata ni Ryker ang kinuha n'ya para sa akin!

Humalakhak si Lotte at napailing. "Grabe naman sa patronism? 'I Heart Elyu' talaga ang t-shirt mo ngayon?"

I groaned as she stated the obvious. Kitang-kita sa print ang nakalagay na 'I ❤️ Elyu' sa puting t-shirt na binigay ni Ryker sa akin. Gusto ko sana magpalit pero nawala sa isip ko na ganito nga pala ang suot ko!

"Shut up," I hissed, then crossed my arms across my chest. Sinipat ko si Kiran na busy sa pag-surfing.
He's good, para lang siyang nakikipagkarera sa mga alon! Umawang ang labi ko nang umahon siya upang puntahan kami ni Lotte.

"Nag-sex kayo kagabi?" Kiran asked as his forehead creased.

I scoffed, "Ayan talaga ang pambungad mo sa akin?"

"Sabi ni Lotte eh! Ang sabi ko ay malabo dahil magka-away kayo," hinawakan ni Kiran ang buhok n'ya. He suddenly wiggled his entire head to shake off some water from his hair.

"Make up sex nga! Mga bata talagang tulad mo ay di pa alam 'yon," Lotte rolled her eyes then spare me some glanced. "Hindi pa ba halata sa corny n'yang t-shirt?"

My cheeks reddened. Sa sobrang inis ko ngayon kay Ryker, parang goal ko yata ang mapasuot sa kan'ya ang isang crop-top!

Matapos namin magusap nang sandali ay bumalik na rin ako sa room number namin upang kuhanin ang gamit na naiwan ko kagabi. Yet, the room was already emptied. Sinabi na lang sa akin na kinuha na ito ni Ryker, Ate Ai and Ate Rita confirmed it for me. Pagod siguro sila mula sa byahe kaya naman hindi na nila ako naabisuhan.

Ryker and I were able to patch things up. Although, we were still not seeing each other. Iniiwasan ko rin na lumabas kami dahil takot pa rin ako na baka siya naman ang isunod.

My mother's killer was still on loose. She was still keeping track of me. Hindi pa rin talaga ako safe. It's also not good that I might know who she was but I don't have solid evidence that it's her.

Lumipas ang mga linggo na nagtataka na rin si Lotte kung bakit hindi nagpaparamdam sa amin si Kelsey. Hanggang isang araw ay nagulat na lang ako nang halos kaladkarin n'ya si Kelsey patungo sa akin.

"Aray!" Kelsey whined as she was dragged by Lotte in front of me.

Napapitlag ako dahil sa ginawa ni Lotte. Pinagpag pa ni Lotte ang kan'yang mga kamay na tila ba nahirapan siyang dalhin si Kelsey sa harap naming dalawa.

"Kelsey, ayan na! Sabihin mo na lahat ng gusto mong sabihin! Hindi iyong ako ang kinakausap mo tungkol kay Ziah," Lotte said. "Tell her everything that you told me."

Hindi makatingin sa akin si Kelsey. Her eyes were shoved down on the floor as if she refused to acknowledge my existence. Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang kinamumuhian n'ya ako. I don't know what I did to her. Hindi ko nga alam kung tama ba ang kutob ko sa kan'ya.

"A-ano?" I asked, completely puzzled. Alam kong hindi kami okay ni Kelsey. Pero ano itong close pa rin sila ni Lotte pero sa akin ay pinutol na n'ya ang ugnayan naming dalawa?

"Totoo naman ah?" Halakhak ni Kelsey bigla. "She lied to us!"

"Anong 'lie' ka d'yan?" I slackened my jaw. I can be a villain, alright! But lying wasn't my forte. Kaya ano iyon?

Sinipat ako ni Kelsey. Her eyes were filled with disgust. "Anak ka sa labas 'di ba?"

My head slowly went dizzy as if her words managed to knock out the walls that I've built. Hindi ko inaasahan ang mga salitang lumabas sa bibig n'ya.

"Tinago mo sa amin. Pinagmukha mong malinis ka. You were a child out of wedlock and your mother is a whore!" She screeched at me, as if she was ready to go for my hair.

"Kelsey!" Lotte hissed at her.

"At ikaw!? Enabler ka naman! Proud ka pa maging kaibigan ni Ziah na muntik na manira ng isang payapang pamilya!"

"Wala akong alam d'yan," giit ko sa kan'ya. All the words coming from her mouth are gibberish to me. It translates to almost nothing to me.

I wanted to validate her feelings but doing so would also invalidate this pain that I feel. Okay, tama naman siya, hindi ko sinabi sa kanila na anak ako sa labas pero mali siya dahil wala kaming sinirang payapang pamilya.

She raised an eyebrow. "Talaga lang ah? Oh edi bakit sabi ng Tita ko, yung nanay mo raw ay naghahabol sa tatay mo na may asawa na? May anak na? His wife got a miscarriaged because of you! Because of your family! Kasalanan mo iyon, Ziah! Buti nga namatay na mama mo!"

Lotte slapped Kelsey's face. Umalingawngaw ang tunog ng palad n'yang lumapat sa pisngi nito.

Kelsey was beyond shock, she looked at her with horrified eyes. "Lotte!?"

"Don't be a one-sided bitch," Lotte glared at her, halos kwelyuhan n'ya si Kelsey pero kita ko ang pagkuyom ng kan'yang kamao. "Hindi mo alam ang mga pangyayari. How dare you judge from only one perspective when you have two fucking eyes?"

Kelsey laughed hysterically. "They're the evil ones! Si Ziah? Malandi! Parang nanay n'ya lang! Sana nga sumunod na siya sa nanay n'ya—"

This time, ako na sumampal kay Kelsey. Her eyes flamed with anger as she stood. Gusto n'yang gumanti pero alam n'yang dehado siya dahil dalawa kaming nandito ni Lotte.

"I was a good friend to you," halos pabulong kong saad. "I defended you, I trusted you, and even when everyone says otherwise. . .I believed in you. . ."

Her eyes widened as she heard those words from me. The realization that everything I've said was true rendered her speechless. Hindi ko alam bakit mas masakit na malaman na totoo nga. . .Kelsey does know something about what happened to my mother. The reason why she was distancing was probably to cover up some tracks.

Biglang naging manhid ang pakiramdam ko. I know that what she said was partly true. . .yet it hurt that the knife came from her who was once someone I recalled as a friend.

Pumatak ang luha mula sa aking mga mata. "So why couldn't you do the same for me? Wasn't I your friend as well, Kelsey?"