WARNING: Explicit content

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Chapter 12

Hawak-hawak ni Ryker ang cold compress sa mukha n'ya. I was guiding him since half of his face was covered. Ngayon ko lang napagtantuan na hanggang balikat n'ya lang ako. . .actually between his shoulder and elbow. Ang tangkad din talaga ni gago eh.

"Babe? Wala ka na class later 'no?"

"Yes," tumango ako saka sinilip siya. "Wala naman na. Binigay na yung oras para sa intramurals lang saka nakapag-attendance naman na ako. Bakit?"

"Wala lang. Papagurin lang kita."

I hissed at him and playfully punched his arm. "Ulol! Saka ka magyabang ng ganiyan kapag hindi na namamaga ilong mo. Did you break your nose?"

Natawa siya at umiling. "Di ah! Nakakahinga pa naman ako."

Someone was in the hallway. Naka-green jersey siya at halatang hindi mapakali. He was pacing back and forth while trying to have little breathing exercises. Our steps halt as soon as we encountered him. Ah, si Marcova pala.

"Sorry!" Marcova bowed down his head. "Hindi k-ko talaga sinasadya iyon! Hindi ako marunong magbasketball. . .s-sinali lang a-ako kasi matangkad ako s-saka ano, sorry talaga."

Ryker cocked his head before smiling. "Okay lang, bro. Di naman pala sadya."

Tinitigan ko lang si Marcova at ngayon ko napagtantuan na hindi nga siya. . .athletic. Siguro dahil sa kilos n'ya at halatang isang siko lang sa kan'ya ay baka tumumba na siya agad. Maliit din siya kumpara kay Ryker. He peered in my direction and the heat rose on his ear.

"Ah K-kio nga pala," pakilala n'ya sa akin. His hand was shaking as it attempted to reach mine.

"Aziah," I said, then smiled at him. Hindi ko tinanggap yung kamay n'ya kasi nakakaramdam na ako ng selos mula katabi ko.

Ryker slackened his jaw. Mas na-offend pa yata siya na nagpakilala si Kio sa akin kaysa sa tinamaan siya nito ng bola sa mukha.

Umangat ang tingin ni Kio sa akin at nag-abot muli ng kamay, this time there was a paper on his hand. Nangunot ang noo ko pero sinubukan ko pa rin na huwag ipahalata sa kan'ya.

"P-p'wede ba tayong textmates?" tanong ni Kio. "Naririnig kita k-kanina. Thank you sa cheer."

I bit my lower lip in guilt. Hindi ko alam na magiging seryoso pala siya sa pinagsasabi ko. Kinuha ko yung papel na nasa kamay n'ya at napilitin ngumiti. Kio smiled at me like a kid finally getting recognized. Mga lalaki talaga eh, hilig ako gawing nanay. Yung isa rito na katabi ko, naka-breast feed pa!

"Busy siya eh," Ryker's arms snakes its way on my waist. "Papagurin ko rin mamaya kaya di ko lang alam kung makapag-reply siya sa 'yo."

"Ryker," sita ko sa kan'ya.

Kio only smiled. "O-okay lang. Maghihintay na lang ako sa reply n'ya."

My lips pulled apart. Sinubukan ko na ngumiti pero kitang-kita ko ang namumuong inis sa mukha ni Ryker. Napailing na lang ako.

"Thank you, Kio," I said, then pulled Ryker by his hand.

Ryker stuck out his tongue at Kio. Tinapakan ko nga sa paa! Ang mapagpatol talaga kahit kailan.

Hindi na ako lumingon pang muli. Pero ramdam ko ang titig ni Kio dahil para itong tumatagos sa balat ko. It felt. . .weird and also invasive for some reason. Hindi ko na lang ito ginawang big deal dahil siguro naman akong huling beses ko na siyang makikita. I wasn't serious with him. . .so I hope he's not that serious with me either.

"Saan naka-park ang sasakyan mo?" tanong ko kay Ryker na hanggang ngayon ay tahimik na sumusunod sa akin.

Lumingon ako sa kan'ya at kitang-kita ang pamumula ng kan'yang ilong. Mukha siyang reindeer dahil sa naging ilong n'ya. I giggled to myself as I interwined our hands. Napangiti naman siya nang maramdaman ang mga daliri ko. The small smile on his face made my heart double its beat.

"Seloso ka pala," puna ko sa kan'ya.

He squinted his eyes in response. "Ikaw nga itong nagpa-unfollow ng mga babae sa akin."

"You did that on your own," paalala ko sa kan'ya. Hindi ko naman sinabi na kailangan n'ya itong i-unfollow. It was only rational to have other girls in his following. . .hindi ko alam bakit naging big deal sa akin.

Napanguso siya at hinigpitan ang hawak sa akin. "I wouldn't want you to be jealous. Ikaw ang pinakamaganda sa lahat. Hindi ko nga alam paano itatago 'yang mukha mo kasi. . .deserve rin naman talaga nilang makita kung gaano ka kaganda."

My throat felt so dry after he said those words. Para itong binuhusan ng buhangin dahil wala akong masabi. I couldn't. . .even try to refute him because my heart beat was erratic all of the sudden.

Nanatiling kalmado ang pintig ng puso ko habang nasa sasakyan kami. Pero ilang beses akong nag-isip ng paraan para lang kumalma ito. . .I even resorted to watching funny videos to replace the weird feeling inside my chest.

Kaamoy ni Ryker yung sasakyan n'ya. Hindi masakit sa ilong o nakakahilo. Some air fresheners tend to do that. Ako nga noon dahil hindi sanay sa byahe ay may palaging dalang supot kapag nasa bus o FX. Nasanay na lang ako dahil kina Lotte at Kelsey na parehong malakas ang amoy ng air freshener na gamit sa kanilang mga sasakyan.

"Bakit mo pala tinatanggi na di ka nabo-bother sa followings ko?" tanong sa akin ni Ryker habang minamaubra ang sasakyan.

"Hindi naman talaga?"

"I want you to be honest with me," sabi ni Ryker habang ang mga mata ay nasa daan pa rin. "Ayoko kasi na may ginagawa ako na hindi ka na pala comfortable."

"It's not like following girls is a sin. . .at saka naka-follow ka naman sa kanila bago tayo nagkakilala."

It's weird for him to always bend to my whims. Hindi ko naman siya boyfriend at kahit na magkasintahan man kaming dalawa, ayoko na maging controlling sa kan'ya. It's normal to have other girls on his following list. Kaya nga kinakain ang isip ko ng konsensya ko dahil ginawa ko pang big deal.

"Pero nakilala na kita. . ." mahinang bulong n'ya. "There shouldn't be other girls anymore. Nawala sa isip ko mag-unfollow."

"Bakit ba kasi big deal?" naiiritang sabi ko sa kan'ya. "Okay nga lang!"

I hate how he's being heedful to my needs. Ni hindi ko kailangan sabihan; alam na n'ya agad yung gagawin. It's. . .making my heart go against my ribcage.

"Eh, sa akin hindi?" sabi ni Ryker. "Ayoko iniisip mo na may ibang babae. It's only you, Ziah."

"For now? Right?" sarkastikong sabi ko. Hindi ko magawang tumingin sa mga mata n'ya.

"For as long as you want," anas n'ya. "Are you still comfortable with our setup?"

"Ikaw nga dapat ang tinatanong ko n'yan. . .we haven't touch each other since last week," ngumuso ako sa kan'ya.

"Sorry," halakhak n'ya. "Finals kasi namin. Pero ngayon. . .I can attend to my Ziah for hours if she wants to."

My cheeks bathe in redness as he called me his. I believe that I belong to no one but myself yet when he calls me as his own. . .it makes my knees buckle and a certain sensation in my insides forms. It isn't because he's being possessive. . .but he's clearly making everyone know that I wasn't available for anyone else.

"It bothers me. . .pero okay nga lang."

"Nakakalito, Ziah," tawa ni Ryker. "Hm, you should demand more from me. I don't want you sitting in jealousy. Kung gusto mong ikaw lang—ikaw lang naman talaga."

Napalunok naman ako. "Bahala ka."

I don't mind being labeled as one of the girls or like the 'other girls' because it's not offending me. Wala naman akong problema kung maarte o kung ano man ang tingin nila sa akin. It. . .it just feels weird to see someone who doesn't mind being possessed by someone. We are human beings. . .we tend to rebel for our freedom. Pero itong si Ryker, parang matutuwa pa siya kapag nakakandado siya sa akin.

Loko-loko talaga.

Pumunta na kami sa Tower A nang makarating kami sa condominium n'ya. He asked if I wanted to get some coffee first but I declined. Sa pagkakatanda ko rin ay marami siyang pagkain sa unit n'ya. There were vegetables there. Magluluto na lang ako para sa kan'ya mamaya. I can even create some fruit juice because he had a blender in his kitchen.

"Ry," I called his name as soon as he opened the door of his unit. Itatanong ko sana kung ano ang gusto n'yang putahe na kakainin dahil magluluto nga ako para sa meryenda sana namin o early dinner.

Hinaklit n'ya ako at agad na hinawakan sa batok. He started to kiss me passionately as his hands traveled down my spine. Rumaragasa ang bawat halik n'ya habang sinusundan ko ang ritmo nito.

"So needy. . ." I whimpered against his hungry kisses. He was guiding me towards his bed. His hand carefully lifted my thighs and so I kept them locked on his waist so he could lift me easily.

"I hate examinations," his nose crept on the nook of my neck. "They take you away from me. Isang linggo akong walang Ziah. . ."

Hindi ko alam kung paano n'ya nagagawang maglakad habang hinahalikan ako. Siya ang gumagalaw pero ako ang hinihingal sa ginagawa n'ya. My heart kept thudding against my chest as I spread my arms around him, leaning closer so I could basked in his warmth.

I chuckled as he continued to feather kisses on my shoulder blades. "I was here. . .ah? No'ng nag-re-review ka?"

"Yes, pero wala tayong sexy time," he rested his head on my breasts. "Sobrang hirap mag-review habang iniisip na sana magkatabi na tayo sa kama kung di lang talaga hardcore magpa-exam yung professor na iyon."

"Bad sila," sakay ko sa pagpapa-baby n'ya. "Pinapahirapan nila ang baby Ryker na iyan."

"Sobra," he bit the lace of my bra, he pulled it downwards by using his teeth. "Pero mas bad ka."

"Hmm?" I kissed his earlobe. "Bakit naman? Anong ginawa ko?"

"You know it well. . .but I don't care. Kio wouldn't fuck you on the spot," he said as he finally brought me on his bed. Sinalubong ako ng lambot ng kama n'ya. "But I would. Only if you've given me the permission. You cheering for another person and giving your attention to them makes me. . .want to remind you whose bed you'll be on."

He started to kiss me more aggressively, his tongue ravished the corners of my mouth. I cupped his face as I started to move along with him. Hindi ako nagpapatalo pero alam ko sa sarili ko na mas manghihina ako sa halik n'ya. His effect on me was wild. . .

"I don't even remember his name. . ." pag-amin ko sa kan'ya. Did Kio bother him that much? Ni hindi ko na nga tanda yung mukha n'on!

Pero si Ryker?

His broad shoulders, sharp eyes, perfect skin, and dark undercut hair. . .he's the reason why someone would want to stay in a dream even if it's a nightmare.

I never liked jealous boys or possessive men yet I love Ryker's jealousy as if it was a candy so sweet that I didn't mind having a tooth ache after taking a taste.

"Good," he grunted as he pulled down my denim pants with ease. "'Cause starting today, Ryker is the only moanable name for you."

I was being allured by his thick dair hair as he slowly went down on me. He teased my sex by putting a finger over it as I managed to close my eyes to suppress a moan of pleasure. He isn't even starting yet but this guy knows how to drive me beyond insane for his touch.

"It took you a lot of girls to be this jealous, Ziah," he said as he played with my sex by inserting a finger or . .two. He teased the corners of it as he enjoyed hearing my whimpers because of his touch alone.

Fuck it! Never have I been so obedient to a man's touch! Pero ngayon ay para akong nanghihina sa daliri pa lang! Daliri pa lang n'ya ay naliliyo na ako. I want more. . .I need more of him.

"But It'll only take one guy for me," he kissed my womanhood as his fingers left the walls of it. "To get madly jealous because I need your attention solely on me, babe. I need your attention. I crave for it like it's a necessity."

I chuckled as I went towards him to give him a kiss on his lips. "Ang galing-galing mo talaga, Ryker." I said as soon as his lips left mine and he mildly pushed me down towards the bed again.