Vain I know

I just can't let go

Money that hard to earned

Each day some of it I'd burned

Creating my own clouds

To have strength to joined the crowd

When I was a kid I am too shy

Finally slained my demon of shyness and fly

It started by only feeding my ignorance

Just a single try I've said to my conscience

Seems helping me to have courage in a way

So Once, twice, trice until dozen a day

My dear ones begged me to stop

I've tried a lot of times but I just can't drop

Just like a vampire to blood I crave

To kill the beast of addiction I am not that brave

I am so fuck up now

I am targeting myself with my own bow

A poison I've known from the start

But still I keep it near to my very heart

Written: December 27, 2014

Consuming two packs of cigarette a day

Part of me was really a coward gay

Every new year my resolution was to quit

But my smoke addiction I just can't slit

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