Pidge's POV

Hunk and I were sitting down on the couches when Allura and Lance had walked in.
"For what special occasion?" Allura looked at the boy.
"No occasion, just a date." Lance looked at her dashingly. They both didn't even seem to notice me and Hunk right in front of them.

   Hunk chuckled as the two of them continued their conversation. He nudged me saying " They'd be a cute couple, right?". I looked up at him then back at my laptop continuing my work. My blood boiled at the sight of them. " Of course they would be a cute couple, they're perfect for each other", I thought.
"Yeah if she finally gives him a chance", I let out. Maybe that day won't come, I hoped. Is it wrong to think those thoughts? I went blank letting my mind wander not paying attention to Hunk, Lance, and Allura until Hunk had said something.
"No way, seriously?!" I turned to Hunk trying to understand the situation. His face was confused and happy all at the same time. He was looking at Allura and Lance, I quickly drew my attention to them, when I finally understood. The day that I hoped wouldn't come was here.

Lance's jaw dropped, his expression was just as if he saw a ghost. His face slowly turning red. He was frozen.
"Well then, it's a date!" Allura looked happily at Lance. She then looked around frantically as if she was figuring out what she should do next, then finally her eyes beamed as an idea popped in her head, she looked at Lance, took his face by her hands then immediately right after she gave him a kiss. At that moment my heart dropped. I felt like I was gonna be sick, I got up dropping my laptop on the floor then I ran out the room bumping into Shiro and Keith on my way out.

   I panicked looking for a bathroom to throw up in or a corner to hid in. I kicked open the door since my hands were occupied, and I threw up in the toilet. Then after I started to cry.     
" What was I thinking? Of course she'd like him back." I said trying to catch my breath. I left the toilet then went to the sink were I examined myself in the mirror. Maybe if I grew my hair, ditched the glasses, got a dress, and acted girly then maybe just maybe I'd be in some competition with Allura. I turned away as if I was trying to hide the image, my eyes were watering and I felt like balling them out, but instead I looked at the mirror and faced myself once again. A sudden anger came over me and suddenly my arm felt like it was moving on it's own.       
" AUGHHHH!!!!" I screamed then punched the mirror causing it to shatter and my knuckles to bleed. My legs felt weak and immediately I fell to the floor crying. I couldn't stop screaming, from the other side of the door it could probably sound like I was getting murdered and maybe it did cause after a couple of minutes I heard Shiro knocking on the door. 

   " Pidge! Pidge! Are you ok!!!" He shouted, I heard whispers following after signaling me that he wasn't alone.
" GO AWAY!!!" I cried desperately.
"Katie, open the door" he said softly. I went silent, Katie, I haven't heard my name in a while. I didn't answer and my attention went off from Shiro then towards my knuckles. I hade forgotten that they were bleeding, I had forgotten the pain they were in. I let out a bloodcurdling cry in realization. Not even moments after Shiro had sliced open the door and ran towards me. He noticed the blood on the floor and the shattered mirror, he picked up my hand in caution. My head sagged low not making a sound. After he had entered Keith, Lance, Hunk, and Allura had followed him. It had seemed like they were all staring at me.
" STOP STARING!!!" I desperately screamed.
"Pidge we didn't mean to." I looked up to notice Allura looking down at me with a concerned face on. She held her hand out for me to reach, but then I only slapped it away,got up and tried to walk away until soon after I collapsed. They all rushed over to me then my hearing started fading away as I saw Shiro say something to the others until I fell unconscious.
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Third POV

Pidge laid unconscious on the floor while the paladins were all hovered over her.
"SHE'S HURT! HUNK CARRY HER!" Shiro ordered. Hunk picked up the frail girl then his face grew to concern.
"Shiro, she's light like feather light, do you think?" Hunk started to cry.
"Now is not the time to think of what she was trying to do until she gets better." Keith answered putting one hand on Hunk's shoulder. The paladins then quickly carried Pidge to a healing pod and put her inside. Coran not knowing what was going on started asking questions.
"Now's not the time, Coran how long will it take for her to heal?" Shiro said. Coran face quickly turned from worried to focused. He began to search for an answer to Shiro's question.
"Only 2 Earth hours" he smiled at the worried paladins. A sigh of relief swept the room. Now to think of a more serious question, why did Pidge do this?
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Time skip- after the two hours
Pidge POV

The pain in my right arm was gone and I had waken up in a different area. A healing pod? I've always looked at people inside these, I've never suspected to be inside one. The doors disappeared open and I rubbed my eyes as I saw the paladins, the princess, and Coran all sleeping on the floor. Then I noticed Lance, the Cuban boy sitting right next to Allura, hand in hand. His eyes were blue and always reminded me of the sea, oh how I would love to get lost in them but I'm afraid that now that chance is blown. I then look at his lips noticing how soft they looked, wondering if it would feel that way pressed against mine. What am I thinking right now, I thought. I tried to shake that image out of my head and realize the bigger picture.

    "I wonder what their all doing here" I whispered under my breath. Curious to find out I walked over to Hunk and nudged him awake.
" Hey Hunk what all you all doing here?" I asked him quietly afraid to wake the others. He stared at me, still seeming to be half asleep. He replied " Pidge just let me sleep." Then to me it seemed as if he went back to sleep, but only moments later did he jump up screaming " PIDGE!". He startled me as well as weakening up the others. They all saw me and ran towards me saying my name.
"I don't know what's happening, but can we stop hugging?" I looked at them. They all gave each other glances then turned back at me and said " oh of course.".
"Are we done here now? Cause I'd like to go to my room and do some research abo-" i was starting to walk away until I was cut off by Shiro.
"Uhhhh what's happening?" I blurted. Lance and Hunk were also blocking the exits with Keith and Allura standing behind me.
   "Guys seriously." I snapped. Shiro then pointed to the couches. "Sit down", he said.
  " Excuse me? I'm not sitting, not now." I glared at him. He glared back. " Katie, sit down." He was angered now. He had said that with a stern voice.
" Second time today" I chuckled. "Refer me as Pidge, Shiro. Also move out of my way, I don't have the patience for this, I don't want to see th-". I cut myself off and I noticed that I started tearing up. I wiped away a tear as Shiro came closer to me to say " Pidge, please we can't see you hurt like this." I looked up at him then to the exits to noticed Lance and Hunk had moved their positions from exits to my side, nows my chance. I ran towards the door, opening it then ran to my room. I had heard Keith and Lance follow after me, but luckily I made it in my room in time.

    " Pidge, please don't hurt yourself more." I heard Lance cry outside my door. He was crying. For me. That made me start balling my eyes out. I can't stand to see him hurting, let alone hear him crying.
" Lance." I called to him. "I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry, I'll come out now." I opened the door to see Lance right in front of more door. He took one look at me then hugged me right away.
"Oh Pidge, you had me worried" he whispered softly so I wouldn't hear him, but I did. My eyes widened. Worried?
"Worried?" I said back to him confused. "Oh, so you heard. Pidge your like my sister, of course I'm worried." Sister. That's all that echoed in my head as the tall boy hugged me tightly until he let me loose. I was still crying, and Lance had noticed.
"Pidge, lets go to the others now." Where was Keith? I could've sworn he was running as well as Lance, maybe I was wrong. We walked back to the room, not saying a word to each other. We made it back to the room and I finally sat down to immediately ask " Why, why are you all worried. What did I do to make you hurt?" I started tearing up again. Allura hugged me hoping it would make me feel better when it only made me feel worse. "We has thought you tried to commit, you know?" Hunk was crying now. He blurted it out so suddenly that when he said it I stood up then looked around the room to see everyone had thought that way too. "Suicide? How could I? THAT NEVER CAME ACROSS MY MIND!!!" My sadness was covered with anger of Hunk's comment. "HOW COULD I JUST UP AND KILL MYSELF BECAUSE SOMETHING DIDN'T GO MY WAY!! IM APART OF VOLTRON AND WILL NEVER LEAVE!!" I finally cried. The paladins all looked back at me in relief and guilt. They had all accused my outburst as an attempt of suicide. I was naturally hurt. So hurt that I stormed off to not my room, but Allura's.

     I was mad because of her, I was jealous of her. I'm not pretty, I'm ugly. I looked around her room and thought of mine. There is no similarities between the two girl's room. I fell to the floor, I'm just not good enough. I never was, I wasn't back then and I'm not now. I wasn't girly back then and now I'm definitely not. My hair, why'd I cut it? To find Matt and dad of course, plus the glasses. So couldn't he at least take pity that the fact that she wasn't her normal self was because of her family. He wants a girl that's beautiful and sweet. I'm not that, and I never will be, but can't I still try? Maybe if I find a dress or two, straighten my hair, and acted sweet then maybe he'll flirt with her. I mean he even said himself that he'll flirt with any pretty girl he comes across. So does that mean, I'm not even pretty enough to flirt with, am I that ugly.

   I turned to Allura's dressed and found a scissor. What if I actually killed my self? How would they feel , how would he feel? I shook my head. Just stick to the dresses Pidge, no, Katie. I heard a knock on the door, I opened it to see Allura, I then remembered I was in her room. "Oh sorry Allura, I forgot which room I had entered. And actually could you help me with something?" Allura looked at me confused and when I said what my request was, her eyes beamed and she dragged me to her closet.
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A little time skip, still in Pidge's POV

"Do you think I look nice?" I asked Allura. She was eyeing me up and down with joy in her face. I was embarrassed to even think that Allura, the girl I was jealous of was helping me. " You look stunning Pi- Katie!" She replied. Allura has dressed me in a green dress that was was off the shoulder with its collar up my neck, she gave me a pink and purple flower crown to wear and a pair of silver earrings, she even had a pair of sneakers with a little alien face on the side of them( which are ADORABLE), but she kept my hair and glasses the same.

    We had stayed up all night planning my outfit. "Is this alright, Princess?" She looked at me confused if I had just her feelings. " Pidge you look beautiful, now go out and show it." She shoved me out her room. " Allura, No No nonono" I yelled her name so loud that I didn't even hear Lance sneak up on me.
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Lance's POV

I had heard Pidge yell Allura name from the corner so I went toward the noise, unexpectedly I found a all girl dressed up, she looked so beautiful, no not beautiful. There was no word to describe her. She was so occupied that she didn't even hear me walk up to her, which was great because I knew I was blushing right now. I didn't even notice who she was at first until I saw her glasses and hair, Pidge. "Pidge?" She turned to me, shocked. Her face began to beam red. At that moment it felt like my heart was struck my a Cupid, it felt like I just found an angel, why haven't I noticed her in this way before. I stepped closer to her " Uh Pidge, that's you isn't it? You look amazing, I can't even describe it." Oops those last words weren't supposed to come out. She stared at me in awe, I got closer to her again. "Pidge, stop me if I get to close or go to far, but I'm just lost in your eyes. The way your glasses gleam is so adorable." I took her hand. Freckles ran down her arms, I had never noticed before because she's wore long sleeves before. Then Pidge stepped closer to me this time. "Your freckles are adorable" I blurted. She chuckled, we both never took our eyes off each other. Now I kept looking at her lips, I desperately wanted to kiss them, how they longed for something to touch them. Then I held her face with my hands and before I knew it both of our lips had met.

A/N: Hey guys!!! What did you think of the story so far, yes this was a long chapter, but only because I thought long chapters would be better then short ones. I'm gonna continue this story, hopefully gonna go for 50 chapters or more. Also yes I know I left it at a good part, but it was so hard deciding when to end but I thought a kiss should end this chapter. Soo that's it, if you've read this far than congrats you actually read my boring paragraph!!! Bye~