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•He's a bad boy with a tainted heart and even I know this ain't smart•

~Paige~

"I said I was busy," he said, plain and dull.
"Don't you understand?!"

"I-I just wanted to see if you're alright," I stammered, finally speaking.

"Alright?" He asked with sarcasm

"Why do you care?" He asked with a stern voice, his gaze piercing right through me.

Why do you care?
Why do I care?
Words didn't form I was shocked by his sudden change.

"Is it because you like me?" he said coming closer.

I didn't respond, I just pretended as if he wasn't talking.

"Oh Paige..do you?" He continued.

I stood in my place trying to seem untouched.
The way he was speaking to me was so different than all the other days.
It seemed like a different person.

"Oh Paige..you shouldn't," he said slowly.

"I don't love you...Don't worry!" I angrily avowed rolling my eyes.

"Oh yeah?" he said, his burning gaze piercing me.

All his emotions had disappeared, his face was expressionless.

He came closer and went behind me.
As much as I wanted to turn to look at him I didn't, I feared the outcome.

"Then you wouldn't mind me doing this," he whispered in my ears seductively.

I closed my eyes and breathed in slowly.
I was scared yet I wanted to see what he was going to do.

He held my hand and planted kisses on my neck slowly, slowly sending goosebumps down my spine.
I felt an odd exhilarating shiver run through me.
I was paralyzed with a strange, foreign need.

I blinked rapidly my eyelids matching my heart rate.
I could hardly breathe.
I've never felt like this before.

I should stop him, buttt-
NO buts concentrate Paige, my inner self shouted, getting me back to my senses.

I didn't want to stop him, but I had to. I wanted  him to continue to see how far he'd go, but that would be wrong.

Before I could stop him he stopped and turned me to face him, he raised his eyebrows and then smirked.

"You thought this would affect me?" I said nonchalantly looking directly into his eyes trying to seem unaffected.

Breathe paige.
Concentrate.
I lied, it did affect and so very much.

He laughed and then came closer and asked "How about this?"

I took a gulp, my legs felt weak because I knew exactly what he wanted to do.

For the first time in 23 years, I really wanted to be kissed by someone this much.
I wanted to feel the taste of his lips but not when he's like this.

Paige you do not want to kiss him.
But
NO buts paige. You do not want to be kissed by Dylan.
Get it together.

I wanted to let him.
I wanted it so badly, but I knew it was wrong, especially now. This physical attraction, this electrifying touch I felt was confusing, I had never felt this sort of attraction.
I wanted to kiss him, but I shouldn't because if I did I'd destroy my ego and
I'd show him that he was right- that he did have an effect on me.

He came so close and when his lips almost touched mine, I closed my eyes.

Concentrate.
Don't let your hormones get to you.
Don't!
Damn it Paige stop him!

I opened my eyes swiftly and then I slapped him before he could kiss me.

"I hate you!" I exclaimed trying my best not to cry in front of him- because of him.

Why was he doing this to me?
This was too extreme.

He immediately stopped and stared at me flabbergasted.

He ran his hand through his dark hair before shaking his head and turning his face towards the view.

I didn't leave  I stood there waiting. I'm not leaving like this, not without answers or an explanation for his stupid action.
I'm not leaving until I understand what the fůck happened to him.

I waited for him to say something, but he didn't, he kept his face away.

"So what!? What if i care?" I snap irritably with a loud voice before I could stop myself from speaking.

He turned and looked at me. His lips parted, like he was taking a sharp intake of breath and he blinked.
He then looked at me and then the ground.

"Keep yourself locked up..
Keep yourself in the darkness. You'll never learn will you? What have I always told you?" I said.
I paused and then muttered, almost a whisper
"Always see the good in the bad."

"I know, I know that right now you are blaming yourself.. I know that you have been thinking about your mother's death and blaming yourself, and saying that you could have done something."

"You know what! YOU COULDN'T!" I exclaimed.

He then turned swiftly and faced me, opened his mouth wanting to say something but I stopped him.

"Don't speak,let me continue." I said holding up my hand.
"Because whatever is going to happen you can't stop it no matter what.. This is life," I said with a low and soothing voice

Life isn't fair but we can't let darkness take over.
That's what Dylan always does.
He was trying to shut me out.
He'd turn into a different person.
Today he hurt me because he used my feelings towards him against me.
I can't blame him, but I should stop him this is isn't good for him.

"And I know what brought all those thoughts," I spoke slowly coming closer to him.

He looked at the ground, not daring to look at me in the eyes.

"Dylan.. you were not the cause of what happened last time. The guy was going to hurt me, but you were there and you saved me," I said as touched his hand.
I looked at him in the eye and I could see his eyes soften as he shifted under my touch.

"No amount of guilt can change the past," I said.

"I'm sorry.. I don't know what got into me," he murmured.

"But I'm no good for you Paige. You shouldn't always involve yourself with me. You should steer clear of me," he said looking down.

What?!
Where was this coming from?

"No. For I don't know what reason I don't want to and I won't," I said.

"I've tried to stay away, but I couldn't, but you have to," Dylan said quietly.

"Don't try to make me stay away cause that will just hurt the both of us," I said as I picked up my bag

"Paige.. wait!" he murmured softly.

"I don't need you, you need me," I said as I rolled my eyes.
I don't understand.
What happened?

"Please," he muttered as he held out his hand and came closer.

"Don't touch me!" I shouted my voice almost cracking.

I shook my head as I looked at him.

Dylan was trying to shut me out and who knows what's next.
This all came in at the memory of his mom and the incident at the restaurant that day.
He's blaming himself for everything.
Today was extreme and I'm not forgiving him today.
I can't say I won't forgive him because I know deep down that I will eventually forgive him.
He wasn't thinking straight, something seemed wrong.

I should give him time and space and be patient with him.
I know he was trying to avoid all this, but today he hurt me.
I also need to think things through.
I need some time away from Dylan, we both need time away from each other.

I got out the papers from my bag threw them on the ground and wore my sunglasses. I walked out without turning back or saying anything.

I leaned on the elevator door and looked at my reflection.

What is wrong with him?!
He's fucking sick in the head.
He's an idiot
He's a jerk
A good looking jerk
Shutup Paige, not now.

I walked out, got into my car and switched off my phone.

"Oh boys and their drama!" I sighed

I stared at myself in the mirror, I blinked several times took a deep breath and then I decided to go shopping.

I wanted to relax and keep my mind free of all the drama in Dylan's office. I wanted to keep myself busy so I wouldn't think about anything, anyone and especially what happened today and only shopping can do that to me.

Oh Dylan whyyy??!😢😭

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