January 6th

  I realized besides explaining the room situation I never actually wrote about what dorm looked like (Saving this in future reference hoping we will get an upgraded place).

  There's one bathroom, one, for eight of us. In the bathroom is one shower, one toilet, but there's two sinks and a huge mirror, because they just expect us to be able to brush our teeth two at a time and get ready two at a time before rushing out, What Hoon does is he takes a bowl filled with water and brushes his teeth in our room, its a sight I will never un see.

   There's a small 'Kitchen' space, where we have this small fridge, sink,a small stove  and some cabinets that we don't have anything in, since we can't afford like anything. Mike however brought some snacks from America but I bet he hides them in his room. (Note to self: find then steal.. I mean borrow Mike's snacks).

  We have a kitchen but we have no desk or table or dinning area, Haven't had a proper meal the past few days but I've seen Taebin eating in the living room, the living room is what you walk into when you open the door there's a couch that can fit only five or six of us and a small TV, the only entertaining place to be in this small dorm, unless you want to watch the rappers fighting.

  "Stop leaving your pee on the floor! Do you not know how to pee!" Taebin yelled this morning

  "I can pee just fine! Why do you think it was me?!" Jaehyun yelled back

  "I just know"

  "Do you watch me pee or something?"

  "Hell no, why would I want to"

Needless to say that woke me up and left me highly confused at three in the morning, when the rap line seemed to be the only ones awake. (Maybe that's why Taebin knew it was you, Jaehyun...Maybe that's why).

  During the photoshoot today, they had me sit on a couch with Mike and Mike put his arm around my shoulders, Making me flinch a little at the contact. We had to be all smiley and I put my head on his shoulder, maybe it wouldn't have been so awkward if we didn't just stop talking for no reason, we haven't talked in a few days.

  "I heard they might have all of us change our hair color" Minki said to me as I was washing my hands in the bathroom. He turned on the water and started washing his hands at the sink next to the one I was using.

  "Where did you hear that?" I asked

  "Mr. Choi, he was talking about it on the phone but they don't think its a good idea since we already took our debut photos and all"

there was a small silence as we turned off the sinks.

  "Did you plan a profile for yourself?" Minki asked and I told him my plans and how my favorite color was red and everything, he told me to take out the bad dancer part, and I'm happy he didn't ask me to do my mickey mouse impression.

 "What color would you want your hair dyed?" I asked as I was drying my hands and he shrugged, we left the bathroom.

  "Don't know, maybe red" and with that he walked down the hallway to go back to the photoshoot, leaving me behind struggling to keep up.

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  After the photo shoot we went to the dorm where everyone slept for two hours, except for me, obviously I was writing about my day in this book, I'm surprised none of the members have noticed me writing in it. But its a good thing they haven't. The rap line might hate me because of the stuff I write about them.. (rap line if you are reading, please don't hurt me I'm too young).

  After writing earlier today, I heard small footsteps in the hallway, almost as if he was trying not to wake anyone up, I got up from my bed and walked out, slowly following behind the blonde haired kid, he left, the door closing slowly behind him, I followed him out, I waited a few minutes before opening the door and trying to find the red flannel kid without him being in my site, I found him at the back door of the apartment complex, I stood there a few feet away from him, his back turned to me, his hand reached into his pocket, he pulled out a lighter and I watched him light up a cigarette, a violation in our contract, a secret I now have to hold in.

  I rushed back inside scared he'd see me, as I walked back inside Hoon was sitting on the couch, I tried walking past him normally like I wasn't just walking in.

  "Where were you?" He asked me and I closed my eyes before opening them and turning around to face him

  "just felt a little closed in, I was just in the hallway having some space" I Said covering for myself, pretending I didn't see Jaehyun, I lied to our leader. 

  "Tell me next time" he then walked back to our room and I let out a sigh of relief, a few minutes later I heard someone about to open the door and I ran down the hallway pretending to be making a bee line for the bathroom to avoid seeing Jaehyun 'sneak' back into the dorm.

After the two hours were up, Hoon went around waking up the members, almost getting smacked in the face by Jungshin when he didn't want to get up.

We all went into our companies building, no cameras or fans outside since no one ever visits. Our company doesn't have any idol groups except for us, Unknown music entertainment is known for a few actors, which I find funny since the word 'music' is in the company name.

We were shown the room where we are going to be training in for the rest of our time as idols, its way bigger than the one they had us crowd in when we were trainees. Then our manager pulled out his laptop and showed us the music video teaser they put out and let us read some comments.

  "The one with blonde hair looks funny" Taebin read between laughs as he pointed to the comment, causing Jaehyun to push him over.

  "Well at least I'm not the scary looking guy who wears ten earrings on one ear" Jaehyun said pointing to  a comment which read, 'the guy with the piercings is kind of scary'

Taebin felt his ears, "I only have five dumb ass" and with that Hoon stood up from his spot and sat in between them giving them some lecture about how they need to be nice to each other, I bet Hoon's words went in one ear right out the other, I bet they will start fighting again as soon as we are back at the dorm.

  "Silver haired one is cute" Mike read out loud and he whispered "Thanks, my name is Mike" responding to the comment through thin air as if the person could hear him.