Monday January 5th

Recording studio... A mess honestly I'm not in the rap line so I wasn't in the studio for most of it but when all the other members and I walked in for our time slot the rap line was arguing about the rap and how it wasn't fair that one gets less lines than the other.

I backed out of the room Minki followed me and we hung out in the hallway Minki looked stressed,
"You okay?" I asked him and he smiled brightly at me
"Yeah I am"
I didn't believe him, but if I questioned him more it might have made things worse so I stayed quite.

The vocal line came out to get us and wave us in, well I shouldn't call them the vocal line since the 'dance line' is also here to record vocals, wouldn't make sense to have dancers who don't even sing when they are in a boy group.. Right..

Luckily the music video isn't the performance video and won't have dancing so we will learn the dance later on, I hope someone helps me out, I can't dance at all.
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And that's a wrap, music video took forever to film our day was like this, we all woke up extremely early as the sun just started rising we got pushed into hair and makeup.

My hair still natural, Unbleached, I don't think I could pull off any other hair colors.

We all wore school uniforms which isn't that original in my opinion but the school uniforms we wore were light blue which made it kind of original, there was a scene where minki was reading a textbook and girls had to crowd around him, that took a few shots to film, he seemed uncomfortable and uninterested in them, the director told him he needed to act like he had feelings for one of the girls and act all heart struck. Minki looked slightly off about it all making Jaehyun look at the director and put his hands up

  "Let me work with the girls, I love girls! Girls love me" Jaehyun said

  "Ignore him, sorry for bothering you" Hoon stepped in moving the troubled womanizer away.

  "I mean why not, Minki obviously can't do it" Jaehyun mumbled but Hoon didn't listen to him.

  The music video ended up being a really good video in my opinion. Some of the actresses were girls who wanted to be idols some came over to me twirling their hair and trying to flirt with me, I wasn't interested, they didn't seem genuine or kind at all, they were the girls who acted with Minki, I heard them saying bad things about him and insults, not to him but behind his back since he didn't seem to be able to pretend to like them at all.

  "He's not going to go far" One said

  "I bet they are going to kick him out of the group in no time" Another girl said

  "He is not going to be a favorite"

  "I know right" 

I tried talking to Mike today but he seemed out of it, he walked in smiling to all the staff but as he stood next to me he wouldn't look me in the eye, I  tried talking to him but when I tried he was called to do his solo scene, leaving me with Hoon who was busy monitoring all the members making sure we were all behaving well as expected, his eyes still blue they ended up not having him wear contacts after all.

Jaejoon however looked happier than any member, I guess acting really is his interest, they gave him the lead in the video so he got to act more than everyone.

When we changed back into normal clothes, Taebin and I were the last to change, I noticed Taebin's tattoo slightly under his torso when he lifted up his shirt, I couldn't make out what it was, since it was half covered but it is in dark black ink.

If my parents saw me with any sort of tattoo I would be nothing to them, the family would shun me, no more birthday gifts no more room at their house, they would ask what son if someone asked where I was. They would kick me out and never let me back home, I wonder if his parents know, I wonder if he's aloud home.