January 1st
I'm Lee Haneul, 17 years old, youngest member (Maknae) of new boy group B4 short for before (get it? Hmm) I'm writing just because I've heard that writing is a good way to not let everything eat you inside.

B4 is a eight member group, formed by unknown music entertainment (it's actually called unknown we aren't in some company that hides their name) but yeah eight members,I know it's a lot of members, I just met them for the first time today. Well some of them, some of the others I've known since I became a trainee but others, we just met today.

I became a trainee, one year ago. I never thought I'd get to debut this early but this is a small company so there's no surprise, I auditioned to come into this company and it was not my dancing that got me in, trust me it wasn't. Life as a trainee was hard and well now I'm in between being a trainee and what's known as being an idol and i don't think it's going to get easier any time soon.

Today I met Hoon, he's the oldest member at twenty three, he has brown hair similar to mine but his eyes are different from mine complete opposites. Mine are brown while his are a light crystal sky blue, I think he hates me, after my eyes met his he looked away.

I also met Jaehyun he's nineteen his hair is dyed a golden blonde which you can tell is very unnatural, his natural black hair roots making it look more unnatural than I think he wanted it, don't tell him I wrote this, he is older than me after all.

A member I couldn't figure out was Minki, he kept to himself as we all met he smiled said his hellos gave out his hand but never said anything about himself, his black hair would get in his eyes and he wouldn't push it away or tug it behind his ears he just kept hidden behind it. Minki is the second youngest member, he's eighteen.

Taebin is a member who seems a little scary but I don't know him much so I can't just say he's mean or anything. He told me to call him Tae. The only thing I know about him is that he's twenty years old.

I met Mike durning trainee days, he sat next to me one day when we had a snack break and he helped me open my protein bar. He's really nice and maybe one of the only friends I've had, on his twentieth birthday last week he invited me to his favorite meat spot and we celebrated his birthday together.

Jungshin, amazing dancer durning trainee days id look up to him, I still look up to him, his hair is a very light brown hair that match his eyes, you can tell he hasn't had any sleep from the nights he spent training, he's twenty one but with the worn out look on his face he had today you might think he was older.

The last member I remember the first time I saw him, I was entering the building and Jaejoon was talking to one of the staff members repeating over and over, 'why am I training as an actor and to be in a boy group? So what if I like playing the guitar it doesn't mean I want to be in a boy group, I want to be an actor' he said those words a few times before he finally just accepted that whatever happens they will get him an acting job, and I guess he accepted that, he has the face to be what people call a flower boy, he could've been in one of those flower boy dramas made so many years ago, too bad they didn't wait a few years for him. He's only twenty two so he has many years of chances for him to act ahead of him.

That was my day today meeting all of my group members as we stood in an awkward circle telling each others names and ages to see who would get the most respect and who might get the least, I really hope I gave a good impression so there is no least respect.