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I was so mad over that girl.

But she is correct, she's just saying her own opinion.

But what does she mean by hiding her true self?

I went to SM's garden where there are beautiful flowers and a fountain in the middle.

It's actually in the rooftop.

I suddenly start hearing singing.

I walked closer to the fountain and saw Sona Sunbae singing but it's a song I don't recognize.

"If only~
If only the world knows about me,
They would understand
But they don't~ oh~"

She was also playing the guitar.

Her voice was like the voice of an angel. She's my sunbae but we're basically just the same age.

She continued singing the song and I was kind of confused by the lyrics.

'Should I tell them the truth?'

'I should stop hiding.'

'Tell the world for all of it to be over.'

It's like a song about...

Depression?

I suddenly stepped on something by accident and Sunbae stopped and noticed that I was there.

"O-oh, h-hey, Jisung. W-what are you d-doing here?" She was stuttering and her face was kinda red.

"I should ask you the same thing, Sunbae." I sat beside her and she put the guitar down.

"I'm here to cool my head." She said then I nodded.

"Everything's been so busy lately and I barely got time to cool my head and let everything out." She closed her eyes.

"What song is that?" I asked her then she looked at me before looking at the ground.

"A song that I made when I was fourteen. I sing it to calm my mind when I'm anxiousㅡ" She immediately covered her mouth.

My eyes widened when I heard'anxious'.

"Is something the matter?" I asked her then tears start forming in her eyes.

"I-I'm sorry.." She said, still covering her mouth.

She grabbed her guitar before leaving me there.

Does she have anxiety?

ㅡ

I went back to the practice room with a blank expression.

I really didn't know how to feel.

Sunbae? Anxious? Anxiety?

I didn't know how to process.

I entered and sat down back on the floor. I blankly stare at the floor as my Hyungs practice.

"Jisung!" Chenle Hyung snapped his fingers in front of me and I flinched.

"You okay?" He asked then I nodded.

"You're not okay." Jeno Hyung sat beside me as he gave me water.

I smiled and thanked him.

I saw Doyoung Hyung just sitting in the corner of the room. He looks like he's messaging someone.

I walked up to him and he looked at me before hiding his phone.

"Hyung."

"Y-yes?" He asked then I sit in front of him.

"You're close with Sona Sunbae, right?" I asked then he nodded.

"Does Sona Sunbae have... um.." It took me time to say it but he suddenly ruffled my hair.

"Don't say it. It's better if you don't say it." He said then his phone starts buzzing.

He immediately stands up and accidentally dropped his phone.

We all looked at him and he picked his phone up.

"Practice without me." And that's the last thing he said before running out of the studio.

"What's his problem?" Taeyong Hyung asked me but I just shrugged.

"Sona.." We heard Jaehyun Hyung mumble.

"What?"

"Nothing.. let's start practising. Doyoung won't be back for a while."

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I run to Sona's practice room and there she is, on the floor, trying to breathe.

"Sona!" I run to her and sit beside her.

She tried to sit up but failed. On her second try, I went closer to her so, she will fall in my arms.

Once she did, I immediately hugged her and pat her back and sometimes run circles.

"D-Doyoung... I can't breathe.." She said then I grabbed the water on the table before giving it to her.

"Calm down. Everything will be okay." I said, hugging her.

I start singing for her since it's one way to calm her down.

"I knew it. You did have an attack." Jaehyun came and we both look at him.

He walks past us and grabbed Sona's guitar. He then sits beside me.

I wrapped my arms around Sona so, she won't feel insecure.

"Do you want me to play anything?" Jaehyun asked her then she nodded.

"I'll play your favourite song then." He starts playing Sona's song that she wrote.

Depression, huh?

It hurts.

I hope that it won't affect her health that much. I care about her because she's my best friend.

I've known how she felt ever since she became a trainee here.

She became a trainee her when she was twelve.

She was able to trust me and tell me how she has anxiety attacks.

She became an idol to make those attacks disappear but she still has attacks now and then.

She's always anxious about what's happening. She's always anxious about what people will say.

Will they like her? Will they hate her?

She's always worried about that and it worries me too.

Jaehyun also knows how she feels since he saw one of her attacks when we were hanging out with her.

"Thanks,"

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