I have my first therapist appointment tomorrow fuck if he asks if I know any of the causes I don't know what I'd say cuz I know the exact answers but they would lead to stuff I don't want

1. my parents
I don't even know what the problem with them is, I just know something's wrong

I don't want them to know cuz they'd feel bad

2. my school
my school is overly mature and stupid, but some of the people are actually nice

I feel like the class clown isn't against me and that cheers me on and wants me to stay
he seems like he might be hiding sadness or something (idek how, I just always assume too quick) with happiness and cheerfulness

He's the only one that doesn't know what I say in English and still acts nice-

except for the others that speak english

bruh why do I see positivity in so much except myself I-

I won't manage to fake my smile-

I HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 9 AM, TOO