I'm jealous of people in fanfics that actually get a person that loves them and is nice and all that towards them-
I feel like I can never fit in etc. and act like I hate everybody while I just want somebody that I feel like I can trust but I guess I'll just have to get used to it since nobody would like a moron like me
I'm just so fucking lonely irl that the only people that don't avoid me are my parents and a friend that's going through a worse thing than me

also, my parents pressuring me to not sit in my room the whole day doesn't help

I'm sitting in the room a floor above, I've been here for 4 hours now and nobody decided to check on me, not even my sister I share my room with

ah fuck I'm writing too much again

since there's too much chapters I'm just gonna delete a few